Tree of Life Meditation System -- Day 6 -- HeruKhuti

Hetep Everyone,

Last night, I focused on HeruKhuti during my Tree of Life Meditation. My objective is to acquire some money that I want, but the meditation is revealing my need to deal with the fears that have prevented me from having the money already. Fear is the perfect complication for HeruKhuti to resolve.

While studying the deities, I discovered that HeruKhuti was the most intimidating for me. What makes this especially awkward is that HeruKhuti is one of my incarnation objectives for this lifetime. I could hardly believe it when the reading revealed this card. I wanted to put it back. My ego had told me resolutely that my incarnation objective was Sebek, dealing with my intellect. All of my thoughts, feelings, and actions pointed me in that direction. It wasn't until I did my astrology chart that I understood my confusion.

The planet Mercury and Sebek are comparable. Mercury rules Virgo where my Sun sign lies in the 6th House, which also is ruled by Mercury. This explained to me why my tendency is to be cerebral; however, I was born at night, making my Ascendant dominant. My Ascendant is Aries, ruled by Mars, which is comparable to HeruKhuti. Even my Feng Shui reading revealed fire energy, which is HeruKhuti energy, helping me to see that the earth tones (Sebek - Virgo energy)with which I loved to surround myself were adding to my imbalance. I just discovered this imbalance this year.

What a major conflict in perspective. I was bitter when I found out that this fire energy that I've been suppressing all of my life is supposed to manifest itself. When I told my mother that my horoscope showed that I had a quick temper, she said, "You just now finding that out?" Truthfully, it was news to me. I never acknowledged my own anger because I was too busy concentrating on the anger-provoking, stupid things that other people did. Seeing and feeling my own anger has been eye-opening, to say the least.

Anyway, I can no longer hide from HeruKhuti. What I called myself running from was HeruKhuti's knife and punishment. You can see it in the picture that I've provided.
I've always felt guilty, not that I've done anything especially wrong. I've just felt judged and found lacking some something, waiting for punishment of crimes I could never see that I had committed. There's nothing rational about this. It's just been a feeling haunting me for most of my life. The threat of HeruKhuti weighed heavily on me so I shoved it to the back of my mind.

Deeper studies of HeruKhuti have taught me that I had been seeing this energy through the eyes of my Christian upbringing. No. HeruKhuti is not some white God in the sky waiting to drag me off somewhere. The Law of HeruKhuti makes it plain that I control my punishments, protection, and rewards by following the Laws of Maat and treating my Self, others, and the environment according to those laws.

The best news that I discovered about HeruKhuti is that this Law is the 5th Sphere on the Tree of Life, meaning that I've got a lot of room to grow into it. I don't have to force my Self to act as if my spiritual development has already reached the 5th Sphere. Such an act isn't even truthful. I'm still in the bosom of Auset, wrapped in motherly love and compassion as I heal from the wounds of living and grow in spirit as a Divine Being.

I aspire toward HeruKhuti; therefore, I will know when I've arrived.

Here is the Law of HeruKhuti personalized from the words of Ra Un Nefer Amen in his Maat: The 11 Laws of God:

HeruKhuti: I know that God neither punishes, not protects nor rewards. I have the comfort of controlling these for my Self.

The insight that my meditation revealed was that instead of fearing HeruKhuti's knife, I should use it to sever, cut away, my fear for acting to obtain the money I want.

Until next time,
Hetep

Know Thyself -- A Few Issues with Authority

In my astrological chart, Uranus is in my 6th house. This means that freedom of thought is paramount to me. This has gotten me in so much trouble. Not only can't I stand authority, because of my conditioning from childhood trauma, I lacked the courage to go off on my own.

My hatred of authority has been such a major part of my life that it is making up a major part of my healing process. With having Mercury in Virgo, I have decided to examine thoroughly my attitude toward authority. My mother and tyranny are major themes in this process.

I have been very blessed to go through this journey with my mother as she is on her own personal healing journey. My questions to her have caused her to question the role of authority in her own childhood with her parents and the overseer on the Elerby plantation where she grew up.

I'm so glad that I didn't wait until she was dead to start this journey.

Know Thy Self through Astrology

I would like to apologize for my absence. I've been taking my own advice and conducting some self-analysis. Part of this process was learning how to interpret my own astrology chart. Anyone can get their own chart for free at AlwaysAstrology.com. You can read interpretations at that website; however, the chart offers information that you cannot interpret through their site such as the effects of the Midheaven and certain Aspects, which you can find at CafeAstrology.com.


I found some very surprising information in my chart which I could not have discovered anywhere else to my knowledge.

If someone were to ask me what my sign is, I know to reply, "Virgo." This is my Sun sign -- the place where the sun was in the zodiac when I was born on August 25. Virgos are drawn toward helping others. Whatever we do, we want it to be something that will help someone else. What surprised me was how many planets I have in that one sign -- including the Sun, I have Mercury and Pluto, but Uranus is included within the 6th House which is also where my Virgo is located and that House is the house that also draws people toward service. That is a lot of energy pulling at me to help other people.

Was this information true? Yes. I've always had a strong desire to help others, but my success in doing so has almost always been overshadowed by two other aspects which, without the astrological chart, I've always felt but been unable to identify. First, I was born at night. This means that my outward personality (Aries) overshadows my Virgo sign, which is more demure. Second, the planet Saturn is in the same house as my Aries and Saturn was spinning in retrograde.

What does this mean? Very strong internal conflict and feelings of low self-worth. Also, the retrograde hinted at childhood trauma, which I did indeed suffer. Aries wants to fight and be assertive while Saturn feels guilty for not meeting everyone else's demands, which have been great considering how much energy in my life has been drawn towards serving others. With all of these opposite forces pulling at one another, my life has been one long tug-o-war.

The best thing about astrology is that it shows you which areas in your life need to be strengthen, corrected, and enhanced if you have the desire to look. I am learning that taking on the challenge of improving my life is the best way to get to know who I truly am.