Tree of Life Meditation System -- Day 6 -- HeruKhuti

Hetep Everyone,

Last night, I focused on HeruKhuti during my Tree of Life Meditation. My objective is to acquire some money that I want, but the meditation is revealing my need to deal with the fears that have prevented me from having the money already. Fear is the perfect complication for HeruKhuti to resolve.

While studying the deities, I discovered that HeruKhuti was the most intimidating for me. What makes this especially awkward is that HeruKhuti is one of my incarnation objectives for this lifetime. I could hardly believe it when the reading revealed this card. I wanted to put it back. My ego had told me resolutely that my incarnation objective was Sebek, dealing with my intellect. All of my thoughts, feelings, and actions pointed me in that direction. It wasn't until I did my astrology chart that I understood my confusion.

The planet Mercury and Sebek are comparable. Mercury rules Virgo where my Sun sign lies in the 6th House, which also is ruled by Mercury. This explained to me why my tendency is to be cerebral; however, I was born at night, making my Ascendant dominant. My Ascendant is Aries, ruled by Mars, which is comparable to HeruKhuti. Even my Feng Shui reading revealed fire energy, which is HeruKhuti energy, helping me to see that the earth tones (Sebek - Virgo energy)with which I loved to surround myself were adding to my imbalance. I just discovered this imbalance this year.

What a major conflict in perspective. I was bitter when I found out that this fire energy that I've been suppressing all of my life is supposed to manifest itself. When I told my mother that my horoscope showed that I had a quick temper, she said, "You just now finding that out?" Truthfully, it was news to me. I never acknowledged my own anger because I was too busy concentrating on the anger-provoking, stupid things that other people did. Seeing and feeling my own anger has been eye-opening, to say the least.

Anyway, I can no longer hide from HeruKhuti. What I called myself running from was HeruKhuti's knife and punishment. You can see it in the picture that I've provided.
I've always felt guilty, not that I've done anything especially wrong. I've just felt judged and found lacking some something, waiting for punishment of crimes I could never see that I had committed. There's nothing rational about this. It's just been a feeling haunting me for most of my life. The threat of HeruKhuti weighed heavily on me so I shoved it to the back of my mind.

Deeper studies of HeruKhuti have taught me that I had been seeing this energy through the eyes of my Christian upbringing. No. HeruKhuti is not some white God in the sky waiting to drag me off somewhere. The Law of HeruKhuti makes it plain that I control my punishments, protection, and rewards by following the Laws of Maat and treating my Self, others, and the environment according to those laws.

The best news that I discovered about HeruKhuti is that this Law is the 5th Sphere on the Tree of Life, meaning that I've got a lot of room to grow into it. I don't have to force my Self to act as if my spiritual development has already reached the 5th Sphere. Such an act isn't even truthful. I'm still in the bosom of Auset, wrapped in motherly love and compassion as I heal from the wounds of living and grow in spirit as a Divine Being.

I aspire toward HeruKhuti; therefore, I will know when I've arrived.

Here is the Law of HeruKhuti personalized from the words of Ra Un Nefer Amen in his Maat: The 11 Laws of God:

HeruKhuti: I know that God neither punishes, not protects nor rewards. I have the comfort of controlling these for my Self.

The insight that my meditation revealed was that instead of fearing HeruKhuti's knife, I should use it to sever, cut away, my fear for acting to obtain the money I want.

Until next time,
Hetep

Tree of Life Meditation System -- Day 4 -- Seker

Hetep Everyone,

Last night's Tree of Life Meditation for Seker was of supreme quality. I remembered everything:

• I contracted my lower abdomen when I exhaled.
• I expanded my lower abdomen when I inhaled.
• I contracted my perineum when I held my breath.
• I pictured two Sesh Metut -- the Uas Staff and the Aungkh.

Contracting the perineum while holding my breath really makes a big difference when attempting to reach the trance state where answers can be discovered.

A lot of times, I get complacent about my meditation techniques and do not achieve good results. I allow myself to be satisfied that I've at least meditated. This is sloppiness and laziness. This is one of the chief reasons for staying committed to doing the Tree of Life Meditation System each monthly cycle. My consistent participation in TOLM helps to ensure that I catch and correct this sloppiness. Persistence, not perfection makes a difference.

One benefit of performing a good meditation is receiving a gem of an insight, which did occur for me. My confirmation of this was awakening at the Seker hour (12am-3am) with the insight firmly on my mind.

Enough stalling. Let me give you the Law of Seker and the insight.This is the law according to Ra Un Nefer Amen in Maat the 11 Laws of God.

Seker -- When the emotions of Man manifest in response to the Word of God, they have the power to influence the course of any and all events in the world.

Insight -- Seker, 3rd Sphere on the Tree of Life is about Spiritual Power and your ability to influence the course of the events in your life, as the Law states. We are, of course, barred from this power until we attain the fullness of our Spirituality, but we can tap into bits and pieces of it, even if it is by "accident."

The insight that I received after a review of the Seker chapter in The Tree of Life Meditation book by Ra Un Nefer Amen was that I am endowed with the ability to achieve things even though I lack external and intellectual resources. Further, I have difficulty imagining myself possessing the money that I want. Instead, I was directed in the meditation to return to my understanding of perception.

Astrologically speaking, it is easier for me to grasp the concept of perception than physical manifestation. My Mercury is in the sign of the House that it rules -- Virgo, which is where my sun sign is placed. My tendency leans more toward thought than action. Those with different astrology birth chart readings will react to what I'm about to say differently, as should be expected.

My understanding of perception is that we see what most benefits our states of mind, belief systems, and values. This is how we limit our interpretation of reality. We see what we want to see even though much, much more might be there.

Here is an example: I try to mentally stimulate my Chakras, imagining their colors and placement in my body. I was sitting in the kitchen one day while I was doing this and I started looking for the Chakra colors (colors of the rainbow) around the room. I didn't intentionally place any of the colors in the kitchen, I just felt that they should be there. Sure enough, I found all of them, looking at the calendar, cereal boxes, pictures of relatives, etc. I've done this in different locations and I find what I'm looking for.

Further development of the insight led me to understand that instead of waiting to see if the money that I want will manifest itself at the end of the meditation cycle "somehow," I should start to look for the goods and services for which I would exchange the money.

As I said earlier, my tendency is to be cerebral so taking direct action, for me, is intimidating. Fortunately, I am still in the part of the meditation cycle that only requires me to look at the issue. The other half of the cycle will program me for taking action, but now I know that this action is ahead for me. One of the benefits of this meditation cycle will be an alleviation of my fear of action. I will have to address it in my meditation. Even if my efforts are lousy, my fear will be addressed, and, therefore, weakened, awaiting other meditation cycles that will further strengthen my courage.

So far, I'm impressed with my progress -- persistence, not perfection.

Until next time,
Hetep

Know Thy Self through Astrology

I would like to apologize for my absence. I've been taking my own advice and conducting some self-analysis. Part of this process was learning how to interpret my own astrology chart. Anyone can get their own chart for free at AlwaysAstrology.com. You can read interpretations at that website; however, the chart offers information that you cannot interpret through their site such as the effects of the Midheaven and certain Aspects, which you can find at CafeAstrology.com.


I found some very surprising information in my chart which I could not have discovered anywhere else to my knowledge.

If someone were to ask me what my sign is, I know to reply, "Virgo." This is my Sun sign -- the place where the sun was in the zodiac when I was born on August 25. Virgos are drawn toward helping others. Whatever we do, we want it to be something that will help someone else. What surprised me was how many planets I have in that one sign -- including the Sun, I have Mercury and Pluto, but Uranus is included within the 6th House which is also where my Virgo is located and that House is the house that also draws people toward service. That is a lot of energy pulling at me to help other people.

Was this information true? Yes. I've always had a strong desire to help others, but my success in doing so has almost always been overshadowed by two other aspects which, without the astrological chart, I've always felt but been unable to identify. First, I was born at night. This means that my outward personality (Aries) overshadows my Virgo sign, which is more demure. Second, the planet Saturn is in the same house as my Aries and Saturn was spinning in retrograde.

What does this mean? Very strong internal conflict and feelings of low self-worth. Also, the retrograde hinted at childhood trauma, which I did indeed suffer. Aries wants to fight and be assertive while Saturn feels guilty for not meeting everyone else's demands, which have been great considering how much energy in my life has been drawn towards serving others. With all of these opposite forces pulling at one another, my life has been one long tug-o-war.

The best thing about astrology is that it shows you which areas in your life need to be strengthen, corrected, and enhanced if you have the desire to look. I am learning that taking on the challenge of improving my life is the best way to get to know who I truly am.