Tree of Life Meditation System -- Day 9 -- Sebek

Hetep Everyone,

Once again, here is my meditation objective for this meditation cycle: I want to see my transformation into a Divine Being as I learn to pause and consciously observe my decision processes before I act.

When I first began participating in the Tree of Life Meditation System consistently, I held strong beliefs about what I could not do. One such belief was that I could not believe in spiritual power. I've spent a great deal of time analyzing and trying to correct this belief. Now, I know that spiritual power is about love, especially, sharing it without judgment. Accessing spiritual power brings about perfect alignment through the energies of Ausar. Of course, there are qualifications that have to be met before I can access the power, like living all of the 11 laws of Maat simultaneously, meaning I have to actually know what those laws are and be in the practice of trying to use them.

Well, my understanding is growing and so is my ability to practice all of the laws (I'm very much an infant at this); however, still, many of my beliefs are based upon judgments that I make about myself, other people, and situations. This makes it very difficult to observe my thoughts, feelings, and actions without judgment, but I am enjoying the process. Sticking to this course is teaching me to let go.

Judgment makes things seem more real, but I'm growing into the belief that nothing is real until I give it meaning. This is what makes everything formless, unconditional (Amen). It is so easy to forget this, but that is the point of pausing, to give myself time to stop and process the concept of formlessness and then choose. Always, I want my choices to be based upon transforming so that the Divine Being with in me resurrects.

Here is the Law of Sebek, personalized form the words of Ra Un Nefer Amen in his book, Maat: the 11 Laws of God.

Sebek: It is not what I think nor what I affirm. It is who is thinking and affirming. Am I a human or a Divine Being?

How do I break the Law of Sebek by not pausing and observing?

I forget that I control the meaning I give to life and that I can change life by changing its meaning. I choose.

That is all for now. I wish you great fortune. Until next time,
Hetep

Tree of Life Meditation System -- Day 5 -- Maat

Hetep Everyone,

Once again, here, is my meditation objective for this meditation cycle: I want to see my transformation into a Divine Being as I learn to pause and consciously observe my decision processes before I act.

Many of my posts contain writings about my desire to transform into a Divine Being. Of course, what I mean by that is that I want to resurrect the dormant Ausar energies that are all ready inside of me. The question in the back of my mind has always been what will this new perception I seek look like?

I've been using as my model the perception of reality that already exists; however, I know that the perception I want is one that I cannot see, the one that is more wonderful than I can imagine in my current limited state of existence. My meditation has brought me a way to access a new vision. Something really obvious.

I have memorized the 11 Laws of Maat and can recite them. Also, I have memorized an affirmation to accompany the laws. The problem is that I don't speak the language of the laws. Each law represents a field of energy and descriptive aspects that can be applied to personalities and situations. Some of these traits or shaping factors can be found in the Metu Neter vol. 1, pages 266-299 and 371-378.

If I add these aspects to my repertoire for the laws, then I should have enough verbiage to begin to speak the language of the laws and form coinciding images. The point of this is to use the energies of Sebek (language) and Het-Heru (images) to help reprogram my perception.

This may sound extreme, but continuing to reinforce the images and thoughts that have proved so limiting to me seems to me to be extreme. It's worth a shot.

Here is the Law of Maat, personalized form the words of Ra Un Nefer Amen in his book, Maat: the 11 Laws of God.

Maat: God needs me in order to come into the world. Fulfilling God's need is the highest act of love and only through my love for God can I fulfill my love for others. I become the love of God in the world for the protection of the world.

How do I break the Law of Maat by not pausing and observing?

I reinforce the same language and images that I am familiar with, perpetuating the same reality. This limits how I observe my thoughts, feelings and actions and it limits the new reality I can create.

That is all for now. I wish you great fortune. Until next time,
Hetep

Tree of Life Meditation System -- Day 13 -- Sebek

Hetep Everyone,

Last night's meditation was designed to reprogram my beliefs. I was, through mediumistic trance, to energize my beliefs (affirmations) which support my identification with Ausar as my Self, my True Self.

What does this mean?

Ausar is the embodiment of Amen, a peace that nothing can challenge where I expect neither gain nor loss, neither pain nor pleasure. It is a state where everything is formless, meaning that everything is possible. Ausar is the perfect balance or alignment of all possibilities manifesting in my life -- the running of my external life with the same level of "clockwork" precision as is running in my physical body. This allows my to have all of the prosperity and sustenance that I need. This is my fulfillment.

I, as a Divine Being, am Ausar, making all of this happen because I am connected with the All, Amen. My head knows this, but my heart is still unsure.

My Sebek meditation was designed to replace my doubtful beliefs with ones that are certain so that I can fulfill my Divine Purpose.

Well, that's it for now. I wish you great fortune. Until next time,
Hetep

Tree of Life Meditation System -- Day 10 -- Auset

Hetep Everyone,

Thoughts pop into my mind all day. Most times -- no, I can't truthfully say that anymore -- quite often, these thoughts are awful, very negative scenarios. They come in the forms of daydreams, absorptions, moments of absent-mindedness, or emotional states. All of these forms are types of trances as described by Ra Un Nefer Amen in his book, Tree of Life Meditation System, page 200.

These forms of thought belong to the territory of Auset. It is Heru's job to interrupt these types of thoughts as they do not serve my efforts to subjugate my ego identity (Auset) to my Divine Being (Ausar). Growing stronger at interrupting these thoughts means that I am strengthening my skills at Men Ab meditation. This is a wakeful meditation, specifically designed to teach us how to vigilantly interrupt or block thoughts that do not serve our Divinity.

In addition to those runaway thoughts being negative and dis-serving, they are almost always false. They feed and energize dis-serving illusions that are difficult to discern. Almost always, this leads to dis-serving behavior and decisions based upon false information.

Being unable to distinguish between illusion and truth has gotten so bad for me that I have been unable to rely on my intuition. It's been like a vicious circle, chasing my own tail, trying to determine truth from illusion. In trying to develop the skills of Men Ab, I was working from the premise that the cultivation was a complex process, but now I feel that if I just learn to block those awful thoughts, I'll be able to advance from there as I grow in my understanding.

What does this have to do with my meditation objective? Once again, here is my objective: I want to experience my purpose in God's Divine plan based upon truthful premises, determined by relationships of how my functions (thoughts, feelings, and actions) fit the form I'm trying to create (my purpose).

Here is possibly the greatest insight I have received from this meditation cycle.

Choice is the main focus of conscious, deliberate meditation whether it is Men Ab or trance. If you have followed my meditation posts for a while, then you already know that I do not respond well to being or feeling forced to do things. I adopted this attitude to help me heal from childhood trauma. I have worked hard to learn how to change my perception to desire doing what needs to be done. That way, no force is necessary.

In fact, when those negative thoughts lean toward me feeling that I am forced to do something, I determine the truth of the thought by remembering that Maat's feather represents the lightness of the application of Divine Law. There is no coercion. We must choose. If we are not paying attention, we won't even know that we are being beckoned to follow the laws. This concept helps me to easily dismiss some of my negative thoughts.

Choosing to fit my functions (thoughts, feelings and actions) to the form of creating my Divine purpose is a way of providing structured guidelines for Men Ab meditations -- blocking negative, dis-serving thoughts that hinder my efforts.

The other side of choice, in terms of Heru, is that not only does Heru energy block those awful, behavior-stimulating thoughts, the energy can be used to replace those thoughts with visions and beliefs that support the behavior to create the form of my Divine purpose. It's sort of like a block and counter-punch at the same time.

The Heru energy is designed to fight the energy of Set. Set energy is the energy that we use to justify doing what we know is wrong -- like the saying, "The devil made me do it." Heru wins if we transcend Set's energy and make choices that advance our Divinity on earth. Set wins if we just spend a lot of time debating the issues of transcendence, not to mention, choosing what develops our ego selves.

To quote, Ra Un Nefer Amen from his book, Tree of Life Meditation System, page 177:

Heru is the set of energized ideas aimed at manifesting behavior on the basis of the identity of the waking consciousness with Ausar...Set is the set of energized ideas aimed at manifesting behavior on the basis of the identity of the waking consciousness with the person.

The key here for me is "energized ideas." These energized ideas work for or against our Divinity. The ideas become energized by the energies of spheres 7 (Het-Heru) and 8 (Sebek). The medium through which these energies travel is Auset energy -- trance.

We are now back where we started. Auset energy -- trance energy -- in the forms of daydreams, absorptions, moments of absent-mindedness, or emotional states represent the means of energizing the ideas that support either Divinity (Ausar) or ego (AuSet). I must add to the list of forms of trance, mediumistic trance -- formal sit-down sessions of meditation.

It boils down to this. Either we energize those dis-serving ideas unconsciously or deliberately (Set) or we consciously choose (Heru) to direct the content of our daydreams, absorptions, moments of absent-mindedness, emotional states, and, especially, mediumistic trance sessions. Mediumistic trance greatly assists our desire to use the Heru energy to consciously direct the content of our waking trance states toward our Divinity.

Here is the Law of Auset, personalized from the words of Ra Un Nefer Amen in his book, Maat: the 11 Laws of God.

Auset: I am prepared to sacrifice everything in order to become the vessel of God on earth. In return, I will receive everything.

How do I break the Law of Auset?

I have been guilty of ignoring and trivializing my cultivation of all forms of trance states.

Well, that's it for now. I wish you great fortune. Until next time,
Hetep

Tree of Life Meditation System -- Day 13 -- Sebek

Hetep Everyone,

I knew that facing my feelings of unworthiness -- one of my phobias -- would be difficult and that most probably this meditation cycle would not be very smooth. I've impressed myself by posting as consistently as I have.

I know that my feelings of unworthiness stem from trauma that I suffered in my infancy. I discovered this when I was able to heal some other traumas from that period in my life, but I left my feelings of unworthiness to be addressed at another time. That time is now, this meditation cycle.

These feelings of unworthiness manifest themselves in several ways. Here are two:

• I feel as if I cannot protect or take care of myself.
• I feel that I have no authority.

These feelings seem very real to me, causing crippling anxiety. In healing other parts of my traumatic experiences, I was able to eradicate a great deal of anxiety so I have been through these feelings before. The first time was the worst. I could not function.

The hardest part of these anxiety attacks is seeing through the illusion long enough to realize or remember that I not only can make the problem go away, but I can create a different reality. This is theory put into practice -- staring down the face of some of my greatest fears and turning them into amicable strengths.

Some of you will understand crippling anxiety, having gone through it yourself. Others will judge it as weakness or laziness and easily dismiss it. What follows is written for those who have the compassion to continue reading and those who can find some value in what I want to communicate.

From the midst of my anxiety and inaction, something somewhere from deep inside of me calls for the Universe to help me see through the illusion. Since I build up walls to protect and hang on to the anxiety and fear, sometimes it takes a while for a breakthrough. Sometimes, I remember a catalytic thought, allowing me to snap out of the illusion and transform my life and other times, I am simply moved to review my notes where I keep step-by-step details for coming out of an anxiety attack.

This time, I have been fortunate to have been moved to review my notes, some of which I will share with you. Before I do that, however, I need to discuss Amen.

One of the aspects of Amen is that it is the source of all in an unconditioned, formless state of oneness. You can call Amen nothingness, the primordial, the void. Nothing in an Amen state can be identified, because it has no form. This is a paradoxical state because we always exist in this state, and, yet, we don't, because we also are in form and can be identified. This is what makes illusions seem so real and this is the key to breaking through illusions -- remembering, that everything is always in a formless state even as we recognize a form. This is the power of perception.

In the movie, What the Bleep!? - Down the Rabbit Hole (QUANTUM Three-Disc Special Edition) , a wonderful explanation of the vast power of perception is offered. What I gleaned from it is that human thought has the power of an atomic bomb or atomic bombs. This energy is necessary because it is what holds for us reality (matter) into its form.

It gets complicated, but essentially, nothing is solid. We have been trained to detect reality based only upon what our five senses can identify. Our sixth sense (what we've come to call intuition), is our conscious connection to the electromagnetic fields of energy. It is here where we can understand that we have a tremendous power to change what we perceive to be reality. Why? Because ultimately everything is formless until we apply to it meaning and identity. When we consciously control that application, we as creators, change reality. As above, so below.

In the midst of an anxiety attack, this sense of power is unthinkable. Once I am able to break through the illusion of an anxiety attack, I have to consciously work my way back to understanding my power, using the 11 Laws of Maat.

Here is something that I wrote that reading really helps once I come from under the influence of an anxiety attack. I give much credit to What the Bleep!? - Down the Rabbit Hole (QUANTUM Three-Disc Special Edition) and Ra Un Nefer Amen and the affirmations in the Sebek part of his book, Tree of Life Meditation System (T.O.L.M.), pages 222-227.

The wording below is directed at the source of my anxiety attack.

"It is only my belief in you that makes you real and the meaning that I give to you. You are matter held in form by my belief in you. That belief is based upon energy that is more powerful than an atomic bomb or perhaps many atomic bombs. I have been choosing to use that energy to hold your form in tact.

"I now choose to recognize that the energy and my choice of how that energy is to be used represent my likeness to God. This is the power of God inside of me. 'I am the power of God -- not in amount, but in kind. Thus, I am relaxed in the face of the greatest challenges' (Ra Un Nefer Amen).

"By recognizing you as energy/matter and the consciousness/will, empowered by the meaning that I give to you, I can enjoy choosing to change your meaning, and, therefore, your form and function into a reflection that promotes my Divinity -- which is 'an unlimited capacity to manifest and accomplish' (Ra Un Nefer Amen). This all means that I am a creator."

I hope that this information is helpful.

Until next time,
Hetep

Tree of Life Meditation System -- Day 9 -- Sebek

Hetep Everyone,

One of the most painful things about the energy of Sebek is discovering that the premise or the paradigm by which you live your life is false. For instance, let's take the subject of worthiness, since the object of this meditation cycle is experiencing my worth as a Divine Being.

I've lived my life expecting others, especially my mother and employers, to define my worth. Learning that this, in itself, devalues my worth and that defining my worth is my responsibility has been painful. How much time and energy have I wasted? How many opportunities for love and joy have I missed, waiting in pain and longing for someone else to approve me or for perfect circumstances to arise so that I could say, "Hey, I'm worthy!"?

Ultimately, those questions are irrelevant. What is relevant is that I accept responsibility for redefining how I determine my worth. That can be scary. Fortunately, the Tree of Life Meditation System is designed for just such a purpose.

Here is the Law of Sebek, personalized from the words of Ra Un Nefer Amen in his book, Maat: the 11 Laws of God

Sebek: It is not what I think or affirm. It is who is thinking and affirming. Am I a human or a Divine Being?

How do I break the Law of Sebek by not experiencing my worth as a Divine Being?

I believe that I need to focus more on defining my worthiness than on understanding my existence as a Divine Being.

That is it for now. Until next time,
Hetep

Tree of Life Meditation System -- Day 13 -- Sebek

Hetep Everyone,

Last night was my second night of the programming phase of the Tree of Life Meditation System. One thing I've learned about programming my spirit is that the affects sneak up on you. One day, you just find that what you want to do is distasteful. You clearly see that what you thought you had to do or die really wasn't all that important. It will be the simplest thing in the world not to do it.

This is something that I have had first hand experience with. What I have not had much experience with is taking action. I stated this in my posts at the beginning of this meditation cycle. I'm excited about seeing the opposite affects of the programming. Will it be for me the simplest thing in the world to do the things I've always wanted to do, but have been too anxious to attempt? Wow! This is some life-changing stuff.

The Sebek meditation, last night, involved programming affirmations (p. 222-227 Ra Un Nefer Amen's Tree of Life Meditation System) into my spirit and today, avoiding thinking and reading anything that was not urgent. For the most part, I did very well. My time mostly was occupied by family members who needed me. I slipped up by watching a TV program before I remembered that I wasn't supposed to watch it. However, I remembered most of the day to refer to the affirmations. I had already memorized several of the affirmations, but I found that I need to add one to my repertoire:

Tehuti: I am successful in handling the emotional and sensual challenges in my life because I realize that nothing has an emotional or sensual quality in itself. My emotional and sensual reactions are betrayals of my lack of spiritual cultivation in relation to these objects.

I avoided this affirmation initially because I didn't understand some of it and because I didn't want to admit failure in my spiritual cultivation. Now, I find it very freeing to admit completely that I am a work in progress when it comes to my spiritual cultivation.

The part of the affirmation that I did not understand was "that nothing has an emotional or sensual quality in itself." Now I know that it is our images, thoughts, beliefs, ideas, etc. that give meaning to things causing us to determine them as emotional or sensual and thus act on that interpretation.It's kind of like that testing question, "Is the glass half full or half empty?" We decide for ourselves because both answers are right. It's just that one answer fills you with excitement and anticipation while the other can lead to resentment over what has been lost.

The affirmation implies more, however. It makes the question of half full / half empty irrelevant. You don't have to interpret the meaning of the glass at all. What's more important is whether or not what is inside of the glass going to fit the form and function of your objective. If it doesn't, then leave it. If it does fit, then use it in good health. When you know your purpose, life, and, therefore, choices, becomes much more simple.

My purpose or objective is to pursue actions or invoke the Law of Attraction to gain the money I want and then to program my spirit to desire to take those actions in accordance with the Laws of Maat.

Well, that's it for now. Until next time,
Hetep

Tree of Life Meditation System -- Day 10 -- Auset

Hetep Everyone,

I did not meditate last night. I wanted to confess this so that you could understand what I meant when I said in earlier posts that sometimes my performance during the meditation cycle is lousy. This assessment is a bit strong because I've done much, much worse. But my point is that this is about persistence, not perfection. Not meditating, however, doesn't mean that I didn't get any insights from my nightly ritual of meditation and sleep; it means that my insights did not come from a formal sit-down trance meditation.

Trance meditation is the territory of Auset. Trance meditation consists of changes in consciousness that we go through every day as well as formally sitting down and putting yourself in a calm state that causes you to feel as if you could float away if you wanted.

Everyday trances, according to Ra Un Nefer Amen's Tree of Life Meditation System, includes "daydreams, absorption, moments of absent mindedness, and emotional states." He goes on to point out that during these states of consciousness, as well as formal trance meditation, our minds are receptive to programming our reality. This means that whatever images, beliefs, and ideas that surround us (everything in our environment that we can identify, including our own thoughts, feelings, and actions) become even more entrenched and reinforced into what we believe to be our reality.

The entire point of the Tree of Life Meditation System is to program our thoughts, feelings, and actions with the experiential knowledge that we have the power to change our reality.

Auset, the 9th Sphere on the Tree of Life is the beginning of this programming. Sebek, the 8th Sphere (thoughts, ideas, beliefs), is the second step or tool of programming. Het-Heru, the 7th Sphere(images, joy), is the third and final step or tool.

As stated above, trance relaxes the mind so much that programming what we determine to be reality occurs. It may be difficult to accept "daydreams, absorption, moments of absent mindedness, and emotional states" as trance states in which programming our reality occurs, but think about how often the same images and thoughts repeatedly run through your mind, reinforcing emotions or intentions. Usually, this repetition builds until a result is produced. Perhaps the most common example would be how we provoke arguments. Since we quite often enter into "daydreams, absorption, moments of absent mindedness, and emotional states" without conscious effort, we usually don't see the roles we play in provoking arguments. It's "always" someone else's fault.

Formal trance, through the energies of Auset, means that we consciously program our intentions into our subconscious mind. This means also that we consciously use our power to change our reality to what we choose it to be, replacing hopelessness and despair with optimism and expectation.

If you have read some of my earlier posts, then you will know that I have suffered trauma in my childhood and imposed trauma upon myself during my adulthood; therefore, most of my meditation objectives have dealt with healing my psychological wounds and, as a byproduct, healing the physical wounds (illnesses) caused by my psychological wounds. These wounds took decades to manifest with a lot of situations in which I was forced or I forced myself to do things that went against my Being.

This is one of the main reasons why I prefer using the trance meditation of Auset to heal, but this meditation cycle has revealed to me that I MUST balance my trance meditation with Men Ab meditation. Since I'm trying to avoid copyright issues, I selected this picture of the Black Madonna and Child which is meant to represent its original source, Auset and Heru. Heru, the son of Auset, governs Men Ab meditation -- a waking meditation. This means that Heru governs our images and thoughts (Spheres 7 and 8 on the Tree of Life) while we are awake, watching them like a hawk. The nightly meditation (Auset's devotion to Ausar) conceives and nurtures the infant, Heru who becomes the hawk-headed man -- the waking meditation of the day. Consciously programming our reality begins with the mother, Auset.

This puts an entirely different spin on the Madonna and child concept.

Here is the Law of Auset personalized from the words of Ra Un Nefer Amen in his Maat: The 11 Laws of God:

Auset: I am prepared to sacrifice everything in order to become God's vessel on earth. In return, I will receive everything.

Insights: In order to survive the trauma of my life, I consciously chose to escape reality through images and thoughts, books, movies, television, intellectualism, etc. This is the area of my life where I discovered my freedom, but it was not a physical freedom. It was not even a psychological freedom, but it was a type of freedom that helped me to survive.

My efforts to tame and cultivate this mental freedom that I built for myself have been thwarted by a resistance that may by on the level of a death grip. Nevertheless, I must persist if I am to change my physical reality.

Well, this is it for now.
Until next time,

Hetep

Tree of Life Meditation System -- Day 9 -- Sebek

Hetep Everyone,

In addition to regulating images, Heru also regulates thoughts.Thoughts fall under the territory of Sebek. What we think on a daily basis helps to create the world around us. This can be positive or negative.

All right, let's get down to business. It's very late. I have been unsure of what I wanted to say so I put off posting to this blog. This means that I am faced with the same Heru problem that I have mentioned before -- I refuse to allow myself to perform the Men Ab meditation that can make me more efficient and able to meet my objectives. My thoughts always, in these situations, convince me that procrastinating is okay, at least while I'm procrastinating. This is the power of Sebek -- a trickster energy. Sebek governs my rationalizing and justifying which have nothing to do with ensuring that my thoughts, feelings, and actions are unified to meet the form and function of my objectives.

The other side of Sebek is that this energy can be used to program our thoughts to support the thoughts, feelings, and actions that do meet the form and function of my objectives.

The energy of Sebek is neutral. We can determine for ourselves how we want to use it. The problem is that this society is designed to perpetuate the rationalizing and justifying that blocks spiritual development.

Often, during times of procrastination, I forget why I want to pursue developing my spirituality. I get distracted. Fortunately, the meditation cycle can accommodate this through programming.

Okay, let me wrap this up by giving you the Law of Sebek (Personalized from the words of Ra Un Nefer Amen from his book Maat: The 11 Laws of God).

Sebek: It is not what I think nor what I affirm. It is who is thinking and affirming. Are you a human or a Divine being?

Insight: It is becoming clearer that my expectations (thoughts) help to determine my outcomes. For most of my life, my expectations have been mostly negative, leaving me with negative results. I'm very glad that I have the opportunity to change this.

Until next time,
Hetep

Tree of Life Meditation System -- Day 6 -- HeruKhuti

Hetep Everyone,

Last night, I focused on HeruKhuti during my Tree of Life Meditation. My objective is to acquire some money that I want, but the meditation is revealing my need to deal with the fears that have prevented me from having the money already. Fear is the perfect complication for HeruKhuti to resolve.

While studying the deities, I discovered that HeruKhuti was the most intimidating for me. What makes this especially awkward is that HeruKhuti is one of my incarnation objectives for this lifetime. I could hardly believe it when the reading revealed this card. I wanted to put it back. My ego had told me resolutely that my incarnation objective was Sebek, dealing with my intellect. All of my thoughts, feelings, and actions pointed me in that direction. It wasn't until I did my astrology chart that I understood my confusion.

The planet Mercury and Sebek are comparable. Mercury rules Virgo where my Sun sign lies in the 6th House, which also is ruled by Mercury. This explained to me why my tendency is to be cerebral; however, I was born at night, making my Ascendant dominant. My Ascendant is Aries, ruled by Mars, which is comparable to HeruKhuti. Even my Feng Shui reading revealed fire energy, which is HeruKhuti energy, helping me to see that the earth tones (Sebek - Virgo energy)with which I loved to surround myself were adding to my imbalance. I just discovered this imbalance this year.

What a major conflict in perspective. I was bitter when I found out that this fire energy that I've been suppressing all of my life is supposed to manifest itself. When I told my mother that my horoscope showed that I had a quick temper, she said, "You just now finding that out?" Truthfully, it was news to me. I never acknowledged my own anger because I was too busy concentrating on the anger-provoking, stupid things that other people did. Seeing and feeling my own anger has been eye-opening, to say the least.

Anyway, I can no longer hide from HeruKhuti. What I called myself running from was HeruKhuti's knife and punishment. You can see it in the picture that I've provided.
I've always felt guilty, not that I've done anything especially wrong. I've just felt judged and found lacking some something, waiting for punishment of crimes I could never see that I had committed. There's nothing rational about this. It's just been a feeling haunting me for most of my life. The threat of HeruKhuti weighed heavily on me so I shoved it to the back of my mind.

Deeper studies of HeruKhuti have taught me that I had been seeing this energy through the eyes of my Christian upbringing. No. HeruKhuti is not some white God in the sky waiting to drag me off somewhere. The Law of HeruKhuti makes it plain that I control my punishments, protection, and rewards by following the Laws of Maat and treating my Self, others, and the environment according to those laws.

The best news that I discovered about HeruKhuti is that this Law is the 5th Sphere on the Tree of Life, meaning that I've got a lot of room to grow into it. I don't have to force my Self to act as if my spiritual development has already reached the 5th Sphere. Such an act isn't even truthful. I'm still in the bosom of Auset, wrapped in motherly love and compassion as I heal from the wounds of living and grow in spirit as a Divine Being.

I aspire toward HeruKhuti; therefore, I will know when I've arrived.

Here is the Law of HeruKhuti personalized from the words of Ra Un Nefer Amen in his Maat: The 11 Laws of God:

HeruKhuti: I know that God neither punishes, not protects nor rewards. I have the comfort of controlling these for my Self.

The insight that my meditation revealed was that instead of fearing HeruKhuti's knife, I should use it to sever, cut away, my fear for acting to obtain the money I want.

Until next time,
Hetep

Know Thyself - The Best HBCU Show - Pt 2

The Best HBCU Show - Pt 2, Ser 0, Epi 1

Yesterday, I introduced my show, The Best HBCU -- Know Thy Self Show. This show chronicles my experiences as I practice the Tree of Life Meditation System as instructed by Ra Un Nefer Amen. This particular episode examines the day during the meditation cycle in which I focus on the deity Sebek, who, simply put, represents the energies of Divine Intelligence. This part of the show is a very brief explanation of the Metu Neter, concerning submitting your ego to your Divine Will. It explains how you are God, but that most likely, your ego, not God, is running your life and that you can change that so that God will run your life in perfect balance and peace. Finally, this video explains that the Metu Neter is designed to teach you how to resurrect God inside of you so that you can have that balance and peace in your life.

All of this may sound very complicated and to some degree, it can be, but only because thinking of yourself as Divine is very new to some people and sacrilegious to others. I have no interest in debating religion. I am more interested in discussing Divinity. In order to see yourself as Divine, you must love yourself. I'm not talking about just looking in the mirror and saying, "I love you." I mean you have to walk your talk and do that in peace, without judgment. You have to forgive yourself and learn to stop beating yourself over the head. You have to know that you are unique and learn to appreciate that, without seeing flaws -- just things that need strengthening and improving.

Here's the big one. You have to love all of your experiences without resentment. WOW!!!!! Learning this lesson hurts because it as to be taught to you over and over again. The Metu Neter teaches you the science of how to understand why things happen to you. What it boils down to is that everything happens to you so that you can reclaim your peace.

Does it feel like I just poured a glass of ice-cold water in your face and then turned around and slapped you? That was what I felt like when I realized that I had to accept the truth of this statement. I could do this because the statement was not made in isolation. The science of the Metu Neter rebuilds you from the ground up by putting everything in a hierarchy (levels) of existence. You do not have to accept this statement until you are ready. There is no force. You build your understanding from desire with the knowledge that the end result will be a life of peace, happiness, love, order, and prosperity.

It's awesome.

Know Thyself -- The Best HBCU -- Know Thy Self Show, Part 1

Quite a few of my posts feature information about the Metu Neter, by Ra Un Nefer Amen. I've been studying the book for about two years now and it has literally changed my life. This year, I began to practice the Tree of Life Meditation System consecutively...You know how some Christians have to Testify? Well...instead, I came up with a show, the Best HBCU -- Know Thy Self Show.

I've decided that I needed to share a lot of the insights that I've been having. There are, I presume, a lot of people who are studying the Metu Neter who may have gone through or who may be going through experiences similar to mine -- studying without a physical teacher or sage. If my videos can help others, then I will be in alignment with my purpose.

The Metu Neter can be a very difficult book to understand. Sometimes, I know I've made correct interpretations, but there are other times when I am not quite sure and all efforts to find the answers elude me. This is another reason for the videos, to seek out help from others who understand the parts that I do not.

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This video is the first part of the Best HBCU -- Know Thy Self Show. In it I open the show, explaining why I produced it, pour libations, and invoke the deities.

This show revolves around the Tree of Life Meditation System (TOLM). What you will experience by watching the show in its entirety will be insights that I have received concerning the deity, Sebek. If you have no clue of what I'm talking about, I give an explanation in the videos. I also explain what the TOLM is and how it works. The reason this video is about Sebek is because Sebek was the deity upon which I was to focus for that day. Other videos will focus on insights and other aspects of the system.

Please watch the video and enjoy it.
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