Tree of Life Meditation System -- Assessment -- Amen

Hetep Everyone,

I spoke to a friend of mine today. He told me that he'd had a great day. When I said that I had had one too, he said , "Of course, you're a child of God." This sort of statement is accepted by so many religious and spiritual people that it has become almost irrefutable, but the Metu Neterteaches that there is a difference between being informed and knowing something.

Being informed is being told something, but knowing something, the Metu Neter says, is having experience of the information.

As I begin to wind up this meditation cycle with the new moon approaching, I've come to realize that I don't know who I am as a Divine Being. I have a great deal of information about being a Divine Being, but little knowledge of it. It is very easy for something to strike me the wrong way and I feel guilty and unworthy without understanding why. How can I receive the money from the Universe that I asked for if I feel unworthy of having it? This means that if I get it, I won't keep it long.

I had thought about focusing on developing my Men Ab meditation skills for the next meditation cycle, but I like to get at the heart of things, the most basic levels. I think that getting rid of the emotional buttons inside of me that are so easily and sporadically triggered is more important. I'm going to play with these themes before I make my decision, but in the meantime, from the Metu Neter, vol. 1 page 284, here are some positive qualities of Heru whose energies rule over Men Ab meditation:

• Magnanimous - noble; not petty, mean or selfish
• Desirous of power and leadership
• Full of vitality (hence, "Strong Willed")
• Zealous -- enthusiastic
• Noble
• Lofty -- very high, exalted or elevated in character
• Proud
• Ardent -- enthusiastic
• Authoritative
• Humane, etc.

How can a person who feels unworthy exhibit these qualities or maintain the fire energy to consistently perform Men Ab meditations? I have been searching and searching for the thing that blocks me from performing at the level I feel I should be using, but I have not discovered the source. One thing that I am sure of is that the walls are cracking and crumbling, but I want them down. I'm patient enough, however, to go through the process and enjoy the journey so I'll keep searching until I find it.

That's it for now. Until next time,
Hetep

Tree of Life Meditation System -- Assessment -- Ausar

Hetep Everyone,

I've been having experiences that remind me of the yin/yang symbol in which part of the white exists in part of the black and visa versa. Basically, it seems that the Universe is trying to remind me that I must not try to be too perfect, to loosen up. I'm not sure that I fully comprehend the message I am receiving, but it feels as if The Universe is saying that in my approach I am disregarding compassion for my Self as well as others.

I know that more will be revealed to me later.

Until next time,
Hetep

Tree of Life Meditation System -- Assessment -- Tehuti

Hetep Everyone,

How will you recognize that you have what you want if you do not learn to transform your perspective to see it?

I remember saying to the Universe, "I want to learn what abundance is." I thought that I would get all of the things that I wanted -- a new car, new clothes, a fat bank account, etc. Instead, I found myself in a situation without money and no prospects of any in the foreseeable future.

It was then that I realized just how much food I had in the freezer and cupboards. I discovered that things I had been saving for a rainy day suddenly were needed and at my fingertips. In this manner, abundance slowly began to reveal itself.

I learned my lesson. Abundance was all around me.

I thought I would be clever. I asked the Universe to give me experiences of prosperity. Again, I found myself without money, yet I was able to recognize my abundance. This time, I learned to combine what I had in myriad ways that would be very expensive if I had purchased them from someone else and to distribute the techniques I used to feel rich in many areas of my life. I was able to share this technique with others.

Experiencing this lesson in prosperity is probably the greatest gift that I have received from this meditation cycle. Ashe.

To recognize that I already have what I want, including the power to call forth the specific things that I do not yet see -- could the paradigm shift I seek be this simple? By following the 11 Laws of Maat, the Universe will give me exactly what I ask for when my thoughts, feelings, and actions are in alignment.

Well that's it for now. Until next time,
Hetep