Tree of Life Meditation System -- Assessment

Hetep Everyone,

Tonight is the night before the new moon. Perhaps the greatest thing that I learned from this past meditation cycle is that I am Ausar. Now, I've read this in the Metu Neter countless times, but is was just a mental exercise, not and experience.

My experience had always been to understand that someone else or something else controlled the authority over me. Now I know that I am the authority that I have been trying to negotiate with for permission to live my life. This is the understanding into which I am growing.

This budding growth is awesome!

I have not yet decided upon the wording of my new meditation objective, but I know that it is going to have something to do with pausing before I act -- Men Ab meditation.

Well, that's it for now. I wish you great fortune. Until next time,
Hetep

Tree of Life Meditation System -- Assessment

Hetep Everyone,

One of the most important things that I want to learn before 2012 is how to let go of form (What we generally perceive as solid matter) at a moment's notice. I want to see the formlessness of everything (Amen) and know that I am a part of that formlessness. Why? Being able to transform into all possibilities and potentials is the essence of Divinity. The key seems to be learning to pause to observe the formlessness and then letting go of my attachment to all so that I use my Divine Will to make the choices that create alignment and perfect balance.

Well, that's all for now. Until next time,
Hetep

Tree of Life Meditation System -- Assessment

Hetep Everyone,

Where do I begin? Let me restate my meditation cycle objective:

I want to experience my purpose in God's Divine plan based upon truthful premises, determined by relationships of how my functions (thoughts, feelings, and actions) fit the form I'm trying to create (my purpose).

Have I met my objective? Yes. First, I am coming into an understanding that can be phrased as an inner-standing (desires emerging from my subconscious) in which I can distinguish between my ego and my true Self. What does this mean?

Rules are guidelines. My approach to the meditation system had been one as if I were trying to avoid the guilt that comes with sin, as in a Christian church. You break a rule; you have sinned; you repent. This meant that I always felt guilty of something all of the time. This caused me great pain and suffering.

I have been meditating on being Ausar -- at one with all. I have been seeing myself as energy on a subatomic level at one with all energy on a subatomic level. For example, food. The electrons, protons, and neutrons in food can be influenced by my thoughts so I look at my food and I think about those subatomic particles. I ask them to cooperate with my body to transform into the highest quality of nutrition for my body. I ask the subatomic particles in my body to cooperate and receive the food in my body as the highest level of nutrition. I cooperate by enjoying the food, chewing it well and paying attention as I chew so that I am honoring our commitment to cooperate. In this way, I, my body, and the food are one.

From a Western point of view, this is stupid. That point of view excludes the consciousness of the subatomic particles, which are alive.

Scientists did an experiment with electrons. They placed two holes in a wall and shot electrons through them. Then, they covered one of the holes and shot the electrons at the wall as if both holes were still open. The electrons aimed at the hole which had been covered stopped and went into the hole that was uncovered. In other words, the electrons made a decision.

For more information on this and experiments that you can read about yourself, you can watch the DVD What the Bleep Do We Know . I feel that this is so important -- asking for cooperation on a subatomic level and honoring the process -- that I'm experimenting with this. This is the best way that I have come up with for aligning my thoughts, feelings, and actions.

Also, check out the experiments with water crystals by Masaru Emoto.

Now, this inner-standing has taken me deeper into alignment with Amen, the Subjective Realm where everything is formless; where all possibilities and potentials exist. This means that all I have to do is follow the 11 laws of Maat as given by Ra Un Nefer Amen in his book Maat: the 11 Laws of God, ask for cooperation, and honor the commitment to cooperation.

So far, the end result of living from this point of view is that people have been telling me that I have been smiling more. Hey, I can handle that!

Well, that's all for now. Until next time,
Hetep

Tree of Life Meditation System -- Assessment

Hetep Everyone,

Today marks the last day of this meditation cycle. It has been a difficult time, mostly because of the changes I have had to go through in order to usher in a new paradigm. (By the way, I'm still in the process of making this shift.) Changing the way you see things, that is, changing your perspective, can be painful.

For me, I've had to cast aside a lot of ideas that just weren't supporting my goal of living as a Divine Being, but did serve me in my efforts to live as a limited human being. You see that phrasing? I didn't even realize how much effort I had been putting into limiting myself. To come to that realization has been very, very painful.

I've been able to see for myself how much I've been feeling sorry for myself. Self-pity is another tough idea that I can cast aside. The concept is based totally on powerlessness. This meditation cycle has taught me techniques of how to shift my perspective to images and ideas that focus on joy, thus, firing up my Ra (life force) so that I can manifest a different reality, based upon the following premise, "If you change the way you see things, then the things you see will change.) This is a much better focus than feeling miserable because I'm feeling sorry for myself.

One thing I do not want to do is to dismiss the pain and suffering that has blinded me all of these years. That pain has been genuine and could not have been resolved by saying, "Get over it!" or "Just stop feeling sorry for yourself!" The sources of the pain have been real. These have included issues I brought into this life from another one; issues that were beyond my control; and, issues that I have created for myself in this life by not knowing how to cope. In addition, because of my personality, I've only been open to certain methods of healing so "Get over it!" has not applied to me as far as I have been concerned.

What I am most excited about having achieved during this meditation cycle is feeling more worthy. I'm glad that I decided to focus on developing my egoic self and acknowledging its needs. This has been a powerful experience for me, especially in my being able to distinguish my natal personality from my eternal Divine Being. They both must be cultivated to come into their own fullness. I am earth-bound, and therefore, I am entitled to a full and rich earth experience as I fulfill my Divine purpose; however, I am an eternal Divine Being, unlimited by time and space. In essence, I am a Divine Being having an earth experience.

Well, that is all for now. I hope that you will continue to follow this blog into the next meditation cycle. I thank you for hanging in there with me. I wish you great fortune in your journey.

Until next time,
Hetep

Tree of Life Meditation System -- Assessment

Hetep Everyone,

I hope that you don't mind if I give myself a pat on the back. Tonight represents the recording of one complete Tree of Life meditation cycle. Ashe!

Thank you for hanging in there with me. My hope is that by recording my journey, I can help others to better understand the process and help make myself more accountable to my own progress.

My original objective for this cycle was to manifest some money that I wanted. This did not occur. Instead, this cycle was successful in revealing why my objective did not manifest. Sometimes you ask the Universe for something and the answer is "no."

I discovered that my perceptions about money and my worthiness to receive money are faulty and must be corrected. Best of all, I have been able to overcome a lot of my anxieties toward the work that will lead me toward manifesting the money I want, not to mention attracting the assistance of others who will help me either get the money or its equivalent.

I'm very excited about this next meditation cycle. I will be working on something that is extremely uncomfortable for me, but will lead to tremendous growth -- my worthiness to both receive and to give the best that my potential has to offer. This is a sticky, gooey area in my life so I look forward to cleaning and clearing out this side of me so that beautiful things will grow there.

Until next time,
Hetep

Tree of Life Meditation System -- Assessment -- Seker

Hetep Everyone,

Yesterday, I discussed pausing to identify the form and function of thoughts, feelings, actions, and situations that provoke urges and temptations. I used as an example, the temptation of eating a cookie. Through spiritual power -- Seker -- I can resist the cookie if I know that I will gain peace by not eating the cookie. The trouble is that gaining peace (satisfaction) by eating the cookie feels more real to me.

My goal is to know that identifying my Divinity is more powerful and peaceful than feeling satisfied by eating the cookie. It's a small, but necessary step toward my awakening.

That's all for now. Until next time,
Hetep