Tree of Life Meditation System -- Day 7 -- Heru

Hetep Everyone,

Once again, here is my meditation objective for this meditation cycle: I want to see my transformation into a Divine Being as I learn to pause and consciously observe my decision processes before I act.

I thought that giving myself permission to observe my choices, exercising my freedom to choose, would yield the benefits of making better choices, but the opposite has occurred. My choices are lousy, but something keeps telling me to hang in there -- to keep observing objectively. I don't like the choices that I'm making. These choices are familiar to me. I would always make these choices and then beat myself up as punishment. I have a feeling that it's important for me to know that I don't have to punish myself and that this process is not about getting away with something wrong either. I have to get it into my head that I am free to choose.

I've been looking at the Metu Neter vol. 4. It looks like this past year has been preparing me for my work with vol. 4. However, the work requires great commitment, but again, it's all voluntary. I choose how committed I want to be. What I did find in vol. 4 was an answer to a question that I had been posing over and over again without receiving a satisfactory answer.

Here's the question: What do I get for all of this work? Where's this taking me? According to vol. 4, I will receive divine counsel from the Neteru, miracles, and perfect harmony, but the most interesting part to me was the fact that, like the Tree of Life Meditation System, the work is to be repeated. The benefits and growth that I have received since working the meditation system consistently have been immeasurable in terms of spiritual development and psychological healing; however, vol. 4 offers a lot more direction and focus to assist with a paradigm shift toward living the laws instead of merely using them as academic exercises.

One of the best results from this past year's work, which emerged subtly, has been my being able to see the brighter side of things. By that I mean, I feel much more positive. I'm much more aware of when I'm participating in a negative conversation. I find myself stopping or attempting to transform negative conversations. I just don't want to be around them. I used to be the first to start them by complaining about things. Now, I find that I am consciously trying to stop complaining. It's a whole new way of life for me.

Here is the Law of Heru, personalized form the words of Ra Un Nefer Amen in his book, Maat: the 11 Laws of God.

Heru: I have the power but not the right to ignore God's law. I choose to follow the law of God with the love and joy that grows from understanding so that the wisdom and power of God's spirit will flow through my being.

How do I break the Law of Heru by not pausing and observing?

I do not fully understand what is involved in having the freedom to make my choices. I am still compelled to choose based upon my lower nature.

That is all for now. I wish you great fortune. Until next time,
Hetep

Tree of Life Meditation System -- Day 6 -- HeruKhuti

Hetep Everyone,

Once again, here, is my meditation objective for this meditation cycle: I want to see my transformation into a Divine Being as I learn to pause and consciously observe my decision processes before I act.

HeruKhuti deals with Divine Justice. This means that this energy deals with punishment, rewards, and protection. While I've been observing myself without judgment, I've noticed how easy it has been to forget about HeruKhuti, because I specifically wanted to stop worrying about fear and guilt, giving myself permission to screw up. This method has revealed to me what I tend to gravitate toward and which laws I break most easily. Knowing my weaknesses has shown me where and upon what I need to focus my efforts.

Here is the Law of HeruKhuti, personalized form the words of Ra Un Nefer Amen in his book, Maat: the 11 Laws of God.

HeruKhuti: I know that God neither punishes nor protects nor rewards. I have the comfort of controlling these for myself.

How do I break the Law of HeruKhuti by not pausing and observing?

I allow myself to remain blind to the spiritual work that I need to do. This gives me the illusion that I am not responsible for knowing what needs to be done.

That is all for now. I wish you great fortune. Until next time,
Hetep

Tree of Life Meditation System -- Day 5 -- Maat

Hetep Everyone,

Once again, here, is my meditation objective for this meditation cycle: I want to see my transformation into a Divine Being as I learn to pause and consciously observe my decision processes before I act.

Many of my posts contain writings about my desire to transform into a Divine Being. Of course, what I mean by that is that I want to resurrect the dormant Ausar energies that are all ready inside of me. The question in the back of my mind has always been what will this new perception I seek look like?

I've been using as my model the perception of reality that already exists; however, I know that the perception I want is one that I cannot see, the one that is more wonderful than I can imagine in my current limited state of existence. My meditation has brought me a way to access a new vision. Something really obvious.

I have memorized the 11 Laws of Maat and can recite them. Also, I have memorized an affirmation to accompany the laws. The problem is that I don't speak the language of the laws. Each law represents a field of energy and descriptive aspects that can be applied to personalities and situations. Some of these traits or shaping factors can be found in the Metu Neter vol. 1, pages 266-299 and 371-378.

If I add these aspects to my repertoire for the laws, then I should have enough verbiage to begin to speak the language of the laws and form coinciding images. The point of this is to use the energies of Sebek (language) and Het-Heru (images) to help reprogram my perception.

This may sound extreme, but continuing to reinforce the images and thoughts that have proved so limiting to me seems to me to be extreme. It's worth a shot.

Here is the Law of Maat, personalized form the words of Ra Un Nefer Amen in his book, Maat: the 11 Laws of God.

Maat: God needs me in order to come into the world. Fulfilling God's need is the highest act of love and only through my love for God can I fulfill my love for others. I become the love of God in the world for the protection of the world.

How do I break the Law of Maat by not pausing and observing?

I reinforce the same language and images that I am familiar with, perpetuating the same reality. This limits how I observe my thoughts, feelings and actions and it limits the new reality I can create.

That is all for now. I wish you great fortune. Until next time,
Hetep

Tree of Life Meditation System -- Day 3 -- Tehuti

Hetep Everyone,

Once again, here, is my meditation objective for this meditation cycle: I want to see my transformation into a Divine Being as I learn to pause and consciously observe my decision processes before I act.

I've spoken about the importance of pausing and observing my actions without judgment. Now, I want to speak about conscious observation. Not long ago, I started recognizing that I could focus my attention on my pineal gland as I concentrated on what I was doing. This is a weird feeling. It's like watching myself doing things. Recently, I noticed that I could do this with experiencing my feelings and thoughts. Now, that's really weird, watching myself think and feel.

Most times, I forget to do this, but the benefits of learning to watch myself are that I concentrate better, but, more importantly, I feel closer to my Amen and Ausar energies. This benefits me by helping me to remember that everything, including my physical being, is, in essence, formless and therefore subject to change. In other words, I should not take everything so seriously. I should enjoy the process. Joy will help me to sustain and enhance my Ra force, giving me the energy to resurrect my Ausar energy, which aligns my life in perfect balance. In other words, learning to observe my thoughts, feelings and actions is essential to bringing my life into perfect balance.

Here is a quote from Eckhart Tolle's book, A New Earth that I find helps to explain to me a lot of the obstacles I have in remembering to observe myself, especially without judgment.

"When every thought absorbs your attention completely, when you are so identified with the voice in your head and the emotions that accompany it that you lose yourself in every thought and every emotion, then you are totally identified with form and therefore in the grip of ego."

Having access to this quote helps me to do a better job of catching myself being asleep, so to speak, in my life. I can remind myself to return to consciously observing myself without judgment. This, by the way, as I understand it, is a Tehuti function.

Here is the Law of Tehuti, personalized form the words of Ra Un Nefer Amen in his book, Maat: the 11 Laws of God.

Tehuti: When all of my thoughts, feelings, and actions reflect the word of God, then the power of God's spirit and a peace that nothing can challenge will flow through my being.

How do I break the Law of Tehuti by not pausing and observing?

I have not effectively programmed into my spirit a need and desire to observe my own life without judgment.

That is all for now. I wish you great fortune. Until next time,
Hetep

Tree of Life Meditation System -- Day 2 -- Ausar

Hetep Everyone,

Here, is my meditation objective for this meditation cycle: I want to see my transformation into a Divine Being as I learn to pause and consciously observe my decision processes before I act.

In order to choose transformation over what I already know, it makes sense to me that I must have better images, thoughts, and affirmations to transform into. Where do these better concepts come from? Ausar, the energy of which can only come from the pauses and nonjudgmental observations. I, the ego (Auset), do not have to force this knowledge. It will rise up out of me. This is the resurrection of Ausar.

However, pausing and observing without judgment will take lots and lots of practice, because I have to keep choosing to do it. The image that came to me was that of the movie Malcolm X, when (if I remember the scene correctly) Elijah Muhammad explains to Malcolm that people will choose to drink dirty water if they don't know that there is a better choice. Well, you know how there is that saying that when you know better, you do better? In order to embrace that statement, I have to define "know" according to the Metu Neter -- knowledge comes from experience, not information.

For me, in terms of choosing transformation as opposed to habitually choosing that which is familiar to me, the most important part is the nonjudgmental observation. Over and over again, I have to observe my choices. This is what I have to get good at so that eventually, like a baby newly walking, who, from experience, learns that walking is better than crawling, I will choose from knowledge, transformation and evolution.

Here is the Law of Ausar, personalized form the words of Ra Un Nefer Amen in his book, Maat: the 11 Laws of God.

Ausar: My nature is an unconquerable peace; therefore, nothing and no one in the world can be against me. All experiences come to me to promote my reclamation of peace so that I may acquire wisdom and power.

How do I break the Law of Ausar by not pausing and observing?

I do not embrace my connection to the unknown and unfamiliar, thus, I limit my transformation -- my evolution.

That is all for now. I wish you great fortune. Until next time,
Hetep

Tree of Life Meditation System -- Assessment

Hetep Everyone,

Where do I begin? Let me restate my meditation cycle objective:

I want to experience my purpose in God's Divine plan based upon truthful premises, determined by relationships of how my functions (thoughts, feelings, and actions) fit the form I'm trying to create (my purpose).

Have I met my objective? Yes. First, I am coming into an understanding that can be phrased as an inner-standing (desires emerging from my subconscious) in which I can distinguish between my ego and my true Self. What does this mean?

Rules are guidelines. My approach to the meditation system had been one as if I were trying to avoid the guilt that comes with sin, as in a Christian church. You break a rule; you have sinned; you repent. This meant that I always felt guilty of something all of the time. This caused me great pain and suffering.

I have been meditating on being Ausar -- at one with all. I have been seeing myself as energy on a subatomic level at one with all energy on a subatomic level. For example, food. The electrons, protons, and neutrons in food can be influenced by my thoughts so I look at my food and I think about those subatomic particles. I ask them to cooperate with my body to transform into the highest quality of nutrition for my body. I ask the subatomic particles in my body to cooperate and receive the food in my body as the highest level of nutrition. I cooperate by enjoying the food, chewing it well and paying attention as I chew so that I am honoring our commitment to cooperate. In this way, I, my body, and the food are one.

From a Western point of view, this is stupid. That point of view excludes the consciousness of the subatomic particles, which are alive.

Scientists did an experiment with electrons. They placed two holes in a wall and shot electrons through them. Then, they covered one of the holes and shot the electrons at the wall as if both holes were still open. The electrons aimed at the hole which had been covered stopped and went into the hole that was uncovered. In other words, the electrons made a decision.

For more information on this and experiments that you can read about yourself, you can watch the DVD What the Bleep Do We Know . I feel that this is so important -- asking for cooperation on a subatomic level and honoring the process -- that I'm experimenting with this. This is the best way that I have come up with for aligning my thoughts, feelings, and actions.

Also, check out the experiments with water crystals by Masaru Emoto.

Now, this inner-standing has taken me deeper into alignment with Amen, the Subjective Realm where everything is formless; where all possibilities and potentials exist. This means that all I have to do is follow the 11 laws of Maat as given by Ra Un Nefer Amen in his book Maat: the 11 Laws of God, ask for cooperation, and honor the commitment to cooperation.

So far, the end result of living from this point of view is that people have been telling me that I have been smiling more. Hey, I can handle that!

Well, that's all for now. Until next time,
Hetep

Tree of Life Meditation System -- Day 9 -- Sebek

Hetep Everyone,

Black life is chaos. Think of all of the interruptions from family members that are disruptive: illnesses from stress; anger and resentment; over-indulgences that selfishly affect others; etc., not to mention the effects of being a descendant of Africa in Western society with the legacies of slavery, segregation, and colonialism while still dealing with the white supremacy systems of today. All of these things and more keep many, many of us in a constant state of flux, making establishing an ordered routine nearly impossible. There always seems to be some type of drama going on which we either deal with or ignore, whether we cause it ourselves or it comes from someone in our personal sphere.

What does this have to do with my meditation objective? Once again, here it is: I want to experience my purpose in God's Divine plan based upon truthful premises, determined by relationships of how my functions (thoughts, feelings, and actions) fit the form I'm trying to create (my purpose).

As I continue to grow in my understanding of God's Law, my challenge is to find structure in the midst of chaos so that I can consistently fit my functions to the form I am trying to create.

Here is the Law of Sebek, personalized from the words of Ra Un Nefer Amen in his book, Maat: the 11 Laws of God.

Sebek: It is not what I think or affirm. It is who is thinking and affirming. Am I a human or a Divine Being?

How do I break the Law of Sebek?

I believe that finding structure in the midst of chaos is nearly impossible.

Well, that's it for now. I wish you great fortune. Until next time,
Hetep

Tree of Life Meditation System -- Day 6 -- HeruKhuti

Hetep Everyone,

Letting go is an act of joy, not merely a leap of faith. This speaks to the Dogon saying that you can find the universe in a seed. If you seek out joy in the situations you are faced with, no matter what they are, giving up worrying and feeding your emotions, then you find a universe that you haven't seen before.

For me, taking something on faith meant I had nothing to do with what happened, leaving me to imagine the worst possible scenarios, but last night I had a profound experience that was a wonderful wake-up call.

I was with my sister. She needed to take her daughter some food at work. We were about to go and get the food when my sister's two-year-old grandson announced that he needed to go to the bathroom. My sister asked me to take him while she left us to go and get the food. I was annoyed at being left behind. It was getting late and I was tired.

In my mind, I started going through the formula I posted on yesterday's blog entry:

* Detach from what I think is reality.
* Accept what's happening.
* Immerse myself in my situation.
* Seek out images of joy for going with the flow.
* Look for opportunities of transformation. Every situation is an opportunity for creation. Be what you are -- Divine.

After going to the bathroom, I decided to take my nephew for a walk. As I started to look for images of joy (trees, crispness of the night, the moon), I began to become conscious of my nephew's hand in mine. I started to listen to what he was saying, not as babble, but as the communications of a two-year-old telling me what he saw. He begin to direct the path of our walk so I let him.

We came upon a tee that I really liked. I pointed it out to him. He saw the acorns on the ground first. They were huge even though the oak tree was very young. He was determined to hold as many acorns in his little hands as he possibly could. By the time we stuffed his little coat pocket with acorns, my sister had returned.

Becoming conscious of the absolute privilege and pleasure of being in my nephew's company was not the only profound thing that happened. As my energy grew from the pleasure I was experiencing, I began to understand that I was in a situation where creation could take place. I asked myself what I could create in that situation. Suddenly possibilities were endless. Recognizing that I was in a situation of endless possibilities gave me pure joy, which I was able to share with my nephew while he shared his world with me.

How does this tie into my meditation cycle objective? Here is the objective: I want to experience my purpose in God's Divine plan for me based upon truthful premises determined by relationships of how my functions (thoughts, feelings, and actions) fit the form I'm trying to create (my purpose).

I keep imagining that this objective speaks to really grandiose manifestations, but what I am experiencing is excitement for being consciously aware of my thoughts, feelings, and actions and the opportunities for creating new possibilities from old perspectives.

Here is the Law of HeruKhuti, personalized from the words of Ra Un Nefer Amen in his book Maat: the 11 Laws of God.

HeruKhuti: I know that God neither punishes, nor protects, nor rewards. I have the comfort of controlling these for myself.

How do I break the Law of HeruKhuti?

I have not cultivated the comfort that I can experience from controlling what happens to me.

Well, that's all for now. I wish you great fortune. Until next time,
Hetep

Tree of Life Meditation System -- Day 5 -- Maat

Hetep Everyone,

Imagine that you have never heard of the concept of siblings. You meet someone and he introduces you to his mother. You travel to another part of the world and you meet someone different who introduces you to her mother, but the mother is the same mother you've already met. You don't know what a sibling is so you think that someone could be lying.

How can you explain this? Two different people from two different parts of the world both claim that this one woman is their mother. How can they both be telling the truth? The only way to explain this phenomenon is to understand that both people come from the same source (the mother) and that the mother can have multiple children.

Everything that happens to us is based upon this type of inter-relationship, but without knowing the source, we can't see the connections. Let me remind you of my meditation cycle objective:

I want to experience my purpose in God's Divine plan for me based upon truthful premises determined by relationships of how my functions (thoughts, feelings, and actions) fit the form I'm trying to create (my purpose).

When the above insight came to me, I had to ask the following question:

What is the inter-relationship between my feeling powerful and worthy verses my taking actions that fit my functions to form fulfilling my Divine purpose?

The answer had nothing to do with emotions, but everything to do with letting go. I wrote out this formula:

• Detach from what I think is reality.
• Accept what's happening.
• Immerse myself in my situation.
• Seek out images of joy for going with the flow.
• Look for opportunities of transformation. Every situation is an opportunity for creation. Be what you are -- Divine.

I realized that I had no idea what I had expected feeling worthy and powerful enough to fulfill my Divine purpose would be like. All I know is that I'm feeling it. The answer lies in letting go.

I'm not talking about a leap of faith. Amen is peace -- no things and everything, where everything is formless and, therefore, can be changed. Ausar is unity, making sure that all changes are balanced and in alignment. Tehuti shows you what to change and how. Seker gives you the power through Love -- giving without expectation of receiving.

All of this means that I can change anything I want as long as I follow Maat: the 11 Laws of God. This isn't about seeking permission from deities outside of myself. All of these deities are different aspects of energy vibrations that are a part of me waiting for me to tap into them. I must give permission to myself. I am the judge of my own worthiness and power, not some outside source.

Here is the Law of Maat, personalized from the words of Ra Un Nefer Amen in his book Maat: the 11 Laws of God.

Maat: God needs me in order to come into the world. Fulfilling God's need is the highest act of love and only through my love for God can I fulfill my love for others. I become the love of God in the world for the protection of the world.


How do I break the Law of Maat?

I have been unable to experience my purpose in God's Divine plan for me because I have been unable to see how my functions fit the form of that plan.

Well, that's it for now. I wish you great fortune. Until next time,
Hetep

Tree of Life Meditation System -- Day 4 -- Seker

Hetep Everyone,

My current meditation cycle objective is: I want to experience my purpose in God's Divine plan based upon truthful premises determined by relationships of how my functions (thoughts, feelings, and actions) fit the form I'm trying to create (my purpose).

Does what I create fit the form of fulfilling my Divine purpose? Do my functions fit this form? I do not have clear answers for these questions because I am not sure of what my purpose is. I know that it has something to do with living and teaching lessons of peace and love.

This is the reason I write this blog, to share the lessons I've learned and the lessons I'm learning. Although I have conducted oracle readings, my sense of unworthiness and powerlessness is blocking me from clearly seeing my purpose. Right now, the only guide that I am certain of is to continue my process of healing; learning and applying the principles of Maat: the 11 Laws of God; and sharing what I know. So let me get to what I would like to share tonight.

One aspect of Amen is that everything has the potential to change because everything is unconditional -- formless at its most fundamental, subatomic level. This means that if you look deep enough at something that you think is solid (existing in time and space), you will find emptiness, formlessness and tremendously, unfathomable potential to reshape matter into something else. This is why you hear the old saying that life is an illusion. It is also the basis of that philosophical question, "How do you know that a chair is a chair?"

Everything changes because everything has the potential to change. That potential is dynamic consciousness. Whether we are aware of it or not, we are all a part of this consciousness and we all participate in using this potential to create our world. Most of us do this without knowledge of what we are doing.

I choose consciously to use the Metu Neter and the Tree of Life Meditation Systemso that I can participate in changing my life, creating it in perfect balance and harmony. Here is one lesson that I am learning about my potential to effect change: If I can't change the form (situation), then I can change the function (my thoughts, feelings and actions) and vice versa. When one changes, both will change automatically.

Developing my spirituality allows my higher consciousness to work in this manner: Ausar -- Unity -- makes sure that my changes don't screw things up so that even what looks like screw-ups eventually align in perfect balance; Tehuti -- Wisdom -- tells me how and what to change; and Seker -- spiritual power -- is based upon love (giving without expectation of return), ensuring that the changes I make are effective (changes that don't lead to disharmonious conflict) because I am following Maat -- all 11 Laws of God.

My greatest challenge in learning the lessons that will allow me to effectively participate in my life is believing in my own authority and worthiness, not only to make the changes, but to know that the changes are real and lasting.

Here is the Law of Seker, personalized from the words of Ra Un Nefer Amen in his book Maat: the 11 laws of God.

Seker: When the emotions of Man manifest in response to the word of God, they have the power to influence the course of any and all events in the world.

How do I break the Law of Seker?

I am unable to trust completely my own power and worthiness to make effective changes in my life.

Well, that is all for now. I wish you great fortune. Until next time,
Hetep

Tree of Life Meditation System -- Day 3 -- Tehuti

Hetep Everyone,

Here, again, is my meditation objective for this meditation cycle. I want to experience my purpose in God's Divine plan, based upon truthful premises determined by relationships of how my functions (thoughts, feelings, and actions) fit the form I'm trying to create (my purpose).

One of the reasons I want to experience my purpose in God's Divine plan is to claim my life so that it runs in perfect alignment (unity). Most of my life has been an undirected mess, lacking in fulfillment. I want to change this.

A second reason is that I want to redirect the thoughts and the images that pop into my head toward an empowering focus that creates the life I am supposed to be living. Habitually, I focus on the most awful outcomes and have to redirect my thoughts. More than almost anything, I want to know what to focus on in order to create my life in perfect balance.

I have always had a problem being consistent in my actions. I've spent many meditation cycles trying to address this problem, indirectly. There seem to be so many layers of issues blocking me that I've been addressing the issues. Linking my functions, that is, my thoughts, feelings, and actions, to the form I'm trying to create, is one way I believe to learn to be consistent through direct means. This implies that I must be conscious of my actions -- a state of mind that I tend to forget.

When I remember to be conscious of my functions, I try to use the aspects of Tehuti to determine whether or not my functions are truthful to the forms I'm trying to create. If I really am aware, I try to match this form to discovering my purpose. The discovery of my purpose is something that I hope to achieve by the end of this meditation cycle.

Here is the Law of Tehuti, personalized form the words of Ra Un Nefer Amen in his book, Maat: the 11 Laws of God.

Tehuti: When all of my thoughts, feelings, and actions reflect the word of God, then the power of God's spirit and a peace that nothing can challenge will flow through my being.

How do I break the Law of Tehuti?

I find that my habit of imagining the most awful outcomes for my life is based upon my feelings of unworthiness and whether or not I feel I deserve to have what I want. This answer is almost always "no." Even if I redirect my mind to say, "yes," my mind begins searching for ways to show that I do not deserve it.

In many, many situations, I automatically and unconsciously give away my authority. Almost always, the recipients of this gift are undeserving. The push button seems to be something in me that recognizes someone else or something else as more powerful than myself. This is a conditioning, based upon an untruthful premise, that I want to break and then reprogram to respond with my True Self -- Ausar.

That is all for now. Until next time,
Hetep

Tree of Life Meditation System -- Day 2 -- Ausar

Hetep Everyone,

Last night, I realized that I could no longer deny that resenting white supremacy and Western culture is a violation of Ausar (Unity). This doesn't alleviate my desire for justice, reparations, or restitution. It just means that I don't have to display, every minute of my life, anger, frustration, the jealousy of privilege, debilitating anxiety, etc. that the resentment fertilizes.

The resentment is hurtful and draining of the energy that could go into creating the world and life that is filled with manifesting my Divine purpose. I've carried this resentment around so long that it has become normal for me so it will be interesting learning to live without it.

Here is the Law of Ausar, personalized from the words of Ra Un Nefer Amen in his book Maat: the 11 Laws of God, followed by the insight from my meditation.

Ausar: My nature is an unconquerable peace; therefore, nothing and no one in the world can be against me. All experiences come to me to promote my reclamation of peace that I may acquire wisdom and power.


Insight: I resent Western Society and white supremacy in any form. This resentment is a huge disturbance to my peace and my ability to acquire unity, wisdom, and power. This resentment is very heavy to carry around. It impedes Ra (my life force), and, therefore, my access to my Divine true self.

Well, that's it for now. I wish you great fortune. Until next time,
Hetep

Tree of Life Meditation System -- Day 1 -- Amen

Hetep Everyone,

Wow! Today is the new moon and the start of another meditation cycle. The start of each meditation cycle is always very exciting for me because I know that I'm getting ready to change something about my life that will move it forward.

Each meditation cycle is about developing and cultivating my spirituality. It is also about my own personal healing -- healing from the effects of the Willie Lynch syndrome and being a product of this Western society. Mostly, participating in the meditation cycles consecutively helps me to grow closer and closer to claiming my Divinity -- my ultimate goal.

My objective for this meditation cycle is to experience my purpose in God's Divine plan, based upon truthful premises determined by relationships of how my functions (thoughts, feelings, and actions)fit the form I'm trying to create (my purpose).

Well, that sounds like a lot, but basically, what it boils down to is that I want to stop procrastinating and making excuses, learning how to take actions that will lead me to my Divine purpose. If you have followed the other two meditation cycles, you will know that I have suffered from life-long, crippling anxiety. I've been chipping away at this anxiety, but now I want to hammer at it and beat it down so this meditation objective is a huge, huge deal for me. I anticipate being able to address and nullify a lot of issues.

One thing that I learned from the last meditation cycle that I think will be a great benefit to me now is my growing understand of Ra (life force energy, Chi, Kundalini).

I was reading the explanation of the Sesh Metu, Bennu -- the phoenix, in the Metu Neter, vol. 1, p. 407. The following sentence triggered and insight about the fire that causes the ashes. See what you think.

"The ashes are symbolic of having been burned by the heat of Ra (tapas) that is generated in all difficult situations in which we are challenged to live Truth."

I always picture this fire as having the same source as the sun and the core of the earth. I imagine the fire burning away impurities, leaving behind only truth. The image has been effective when I apply it to debilitating emotions. I imagine the emotions burning in the fire of Ra, leaving ashes that cascade down to the ground. This allows me to ask myself whether or not my functions (thoughts, feelings, and actions) fit the form that I am trying to create. This is one of my weapons in the fight against procrastination. It's new for me so I can't claim consistent use. Hopefully, by the end of this meditation cycle, I'll be able to say different.

Now, let me give you the Law of Amen and insights from my meditation last night. I have personalized the Law from the words of Ra Un Nefer Amen in his book, Maat: the 11 Laws of God.

Amen: I am made in the likeness of a peace that nothing can disturb. I reclaim my peace that I may attain to the reason I have come into existence -- the enjoyment of life.

Insights:

• My limited ability to keep my word, make a commitment, or tell the truth, especially in times of strained emotions, is a recognition of my own sense of powerlessness and that someone or something has authority that is superior to my own.
• Living as a Divine Being, I should have no need to recognize another entity as having superior power to my own. Being is being. All power comes from the same source and we all have access to that power.
• Anything that causes me to feel powerless only has the power that I acknowledge it has, meaning that I empower it through my recognition of it. I can simply image things that scare me being burned by the fires of Ra, reducing impurities to ashes, leaving behind truth -- something that should be easy to manage.

Well, that's it for now. Thanks so much for joining me for another mediation cycle. I wish you great fortune. Until next time,
Hetep

Tree of Life Meditation System -- Day 17 -- Maat

Hetep Everyone,

I'm sure that you have noticed that my posts are off. I will try to catch them up.

I am having some tremendous insights regarding the enjoyment task that I have given myself. The thing that I have noticed most is that I'm less critical of myself and that it's easier to look for things to enjoy rather than things to criticize. I even found myself admonishing my niece for implying that the harsh things in life are true reality and that the enjoyable things are fantasy.

The Law of Amen teaches that both perspectives are true and that our conditioning (training, programming) has taught us that only one perspective can be real. Most probably, our experiences in society have taught us that pain is more real than joy so we scoff at joy. The Metu Neter teaches the system of how to avoid or solve conflicts so that we can consistently have peace, allowing the fulfillment of the Law of Amen.

Here is the Law of Amen, based upon Ra Un Nefer Amen in his book, Maat: The 11 Laws of God, -- You were made in the likeness of a peace that nothing can disturb. Reclaim your peace that you may attain to your reason for coming into existence -- the enjoyment of life. The Law of Amen is set above the Tree of Life, not on it. This means that all of the other ten laws allow you to be able to practice the Law of Amen.

Maat is the coordinator of all the laws. Two of the concepts that help me to grasp the coordination of Maat are interdependence and inter-relationship. Today, these concepts are explained as "holism" or "holistic thinking."

I don't pretend that I can adequately explain these concepts to you because I still am growing into my own understanding of them. However, studying the natal chart of my horoscope and the natal charts of other people has become good practice for my understanding of the way that Maat's coordination works and why it leads to peace and joy.

Every imagined society based upon joy, created from a European perspective that I have seen shows a society that does nothing except play or "Walk Around Heaven All Day," as the song says. It's like everyone's desire for thinking just stops. However, our ancestors left us blueprints that explain what to do with a society based upon joy -- build a society based upon advancing life and creation. They were able to do this because of their advanced understanding of death and loss, far removed from the limitations of pain.

My point is that if you scoff at joy as a societal aim, please reconsider the power of perspective.

This is all for now. Until next time,
Hetep

Tree of Life Meditation System -- Day 11 -- Geb

Hetep Everyone,

This post represents the last day of examining my worthiness as a Divine Being. The next phase of the meditation cycle will involve programming my spirit to accept my sense of worthiness as a Divine Spirit. But before we get to that, let's talk about Geb.

Geb represents all forms of the physical. This includes not only what we can detect through our five senses, but electromagnetic energy. Throughout this meditation cycle, I have become more and more attracted to understanding electromagnetic energy. I want to know how it works through us and how it can be projected as Love energy.

During the day, while taking a series of deep breaths, I have been stimulating my Chakra points by imagining them one-by-one and infusing them with love to increase the energy of my Ra force (life force). I have felt from this a greater capacity of sustaining my emotions on a more even keel, giving me more confidence to manage my daily circumstances. What I have noticed is that I have to do this on a regular basis.

It feels more like plugging myself into a socket to acquire more energy instead of running on battery power, which is only recharged by sleep and food. Given the demands of today's society, sleep and food seem very inadequate sources of energy. If I do not stimulate my Chakras, I do not achieve the energizing effect.

Here is the Law of Geb, personalized from the words of Ra Un Nefer Amen in his book, Maat: the 11 Laws of God.

Geb: I know that from Heaven I came and to Heaven I will return. I seek not enduring works on earth.

How do I break the Law of Geb by not experiencing my worth as a Divine Being?

I have not managed to consistently cultivate my Ra Force.

That is it for now. Until next time,
Hetep

Tree of Life Meditation System -- Day 10 -- Auset

Hetep Everyone,

I think I may have made a big, but correctable mistake. When I began this meditation cycle, I wanted not just to understand my worth, but to experience it as a Divine Being. I realized that I was focusing a great deal on understanding why I felt unworthy. Since I was manifesting reasons for feeling unworthy instead of solutions for feeling worthy, I realized that I could focus more on being a Divine Being, which surely should lead to solutions that would allow me to feel worthy.

I believe that this plan is working. I have manifested a tremendous insight. When speaking to a community elder about wanting to feel more worthy, she said my problem was a "Pam-being-kind-to-Pam problem." She meant that I can be very kind to others, but I have a huge problem being kind to myself.

One Sista said about me that I don't feel that I deserve the kindness and that she understood it because she had the same problem -- that this is a part of the legacy left to us by Willie Lynch. She told me that feeling unworthy is a bigger problem in the black community than I could imagine and that I was not alone.

My mistake was that although I heard what these women said, I did not internalize it. I brushed aside the importance of being kind to myself.

Before I get into this I must say that one aspect of Auset is that Auset energy represents the personality, the ego -- the side of me that wants to feel worthy. I want to give you the law of Auset and then discuss how I am breaking this law.

Here is the Law of Auset, personalized from the words of Ra Un Nefer Amen in his book, Maat: the 11 Laws of God.

Auset: I am prepared to sacrifice everything in order to become God's vessel on earth. In return, I will receive everything.

How do I break the Law of Auset by not experiencing my worth as a Divine Being?

Auset represents the 9th Sphere on the Tree of Life. The complement to Auset is Ausar, the 1st Sphere. Since Auset represents the ego, then Ausar represents the Divine Being. These two faculties are like pedals on a bicycle. Both are needed to move the vehicle. Having only one will not work.

In my effort to focus only on my Self as a Divine Being (an aspect of Ausar), I may have been trying to ride a bicycle with only one pedal.

I'm going to listen to my elder and my Sista and learn to be kind to myself while still being submissive to my Self as a Divine Being. I'll begin by listening to India.Arie's I'm Having a Private Party. Ashe!

That is it for now. Until next time,
Hetep

Tree of Life Meditation System -- Day 9 -- Sebek

Hetep Everyone,

One of the most painful things about the energy of Sebek is discovering that the premise or the paradigm by which you live your life is false. For instance, let's take the subject of worthiness, since the object of this meditation cycle is experiencing my worth as a Divine Being.

I've lived my life expecting others, especially my mother and employers, to define my worth. Learning that this, in itself, devalues my worth and that defining my worth is my responsibility has been painful. How much time and energy have I wasted? How many opportunities for love and joy have I missed, waiting in pain and longing for someone else to approve me or for perfect circumstances to arise so that I could say, "Hey, I'm worthy!"?

Ultimately, those questions are irrelevant. What is relevant is that I accept responsibility for redefining how I determine my worth. That can be scary. Fortunately, the Tree of Life Meditation System is designed for just such a purpose.

Here is the Law of Sebek, personalized from the words of Ra Un Nefer Amen in his book, Maat: the 11 Laws of God

Sebek: It is not what I think or affirm. It is who is thinking and affirming. Am I a human or a Divine Being?

How do I break the Law of Sebek by not experiencing my worth as a Divine Being?

I believe that I need to focus more on defining my worthiness than on understanding my existence as a Divine Being.

That is it for now. Until next time,
Hetep

Tree of Life Meditation System -- Day 8 -- Het-Heru

Hetep Everyone,

I see myself as a human,filled with limitations. Mostly, my perception of life is influenced by a paradigm of scarcity. I don't have enough time, patience, energy, money, space, love, compassion, resources, etc.

From an intellectual standpoint, I know that the Creator of all operates from a paradigm of abundance. Think about this. You plant one seed. It grows and produces numerous fruits, which each have seeds that could be planted, also producing numerous fruits.

Scarcity is a concept given to us by people who want to hoard their bounty.

When it comes to grocery stores, paying rent, going to work, scarcity seems pretty real, but real is what we choose to identify as real. People who think "outside of the box" have different supportive perceptions, and, therefore, different realities.

My head knows all of this. Now, I just have to get my heart and will to learn it.

Here is the Law of Het-Heru, personalized from the words of Ra Un Nefer Amen in his book Maat: the 11 Laws of God.

Het-Heru: It is not what I imagine. It is who is imagining. Am I a human or a Divine Being?

How do I break the Law of God by not experiencing my worth as a Divine Being?

I still see myself as a human and not a Divine Being.

That's it for now. Until next time,
Hetep

Tree of Life Meditation System -- Day 7 -- Heru

Hetep Everyone,

Peace be Still.
Peace (Amen) be Still (Heru).
Amen be Heru.
Heru be Amen.
Still be Peace.
Be..."I Am"
Still, I am Peace.

Heru is the energy of learning to become still. Through stillness, wisdom, the eye of Tehuti, can reveal itself. With this understanding, I want to discuss an interpretation of the dream that I wrote about in my last posting. Here is the dream:

I became conscious of having a nightmare. Something was dead and trying to attack me. Normally, I would do a "poor me" and ask why or how I had attracted this energy and then I would run from it. This time, I stood my ground. I asked the image what it wanted. I called on the ancestors and other beneficent spirits for help. I called on alchemy. I told the image to transform -- to reveal its truth. The image became a kaleidoscope, transforming into different shapes that looked like all sorts of symbols and sometimes, distorted, frightening faces. I was reminded of images of ghosts that I had seen from the DVD, the Tibetan Book of the Dead. I tried to shine light energy on the scene to get the images to reveal their true nature. Eventually, the black background of the images began to crack and split, revealing green land, blue sky, and sunshine. I became less conscious of my dreaming, following deeper into sleep.

In the dream, I stand my ground. I become still and ask the images to reveal their true nature. I call on everything I can think of to give the images the energy they need in order to reveal their truth. I was calling on transformation. Is this one of the meanings of alchemy?

When I began this meditation cycle to experience my worth as a Divine Being, I knew that I was calling into manifestation experiences that would force me to call upon my worth as a Divine Being. I knew that it would not feel pleasant or comfortable. Of course, this is baring itself out. I wanted this experience so that I could obtain the knowledge of my worth, something only I could give to myself. I want to get rid of feelings of unworthiness in all circumstances.

What have I learned so far?

• Worthiness or unworthiness are concepts to which I give meaning, concepts that I do not even have to acknowledge as valuable. I've been trained to make these judgments and, therefore, can retrain myself away from these concepts.
• I need further understanding of what it means to be a Divine Being. I just know that through this understanding, I will understand my Self as a creator, living a creative purpose in perfect balance.
• I am resurrecting Ausar.

Here is the Law of Heru, personalized from the words of Ra Un Nefer Amen in his book, Maat: the 11 Laws of God

Heru: I have the power, but not the right, to ignore God's Law. I choose to follow the Law of God with the Love and Joy that grows from understanding so that the wisdom and power of God's spirit will flow through my being.

How do I break the Law of Heru by not experiencing my worth as a Divine Being?

I have not learned enough about becoming still.

This is all for now. Until next time,
Hetep

Tree of Life Meditation System -- Day 6 -- HeruKhuti

Hetep Everyone,

I want to share a dream with you that I had recently.

I became conscious of having a nightmare. Something was dead and trying to attack me. Normally, I would do a "poor me" and ask why or how I had attracted this energy and then I would run from it. This time, I stood my ground. I asked the image what it wanted. I called on the ancestors and other beneficent spirits for help. I called on alchemy. I told the image to transform -- to reveal its truth. The image became a kaleidoscope, transforming into different shapes that looked like all sorts of symbols and sometimes, distorted, frightening faces. I was reminded of images of ghosts that I had seen from the DVD, the Tibetan Book of the Dead. I tried to shine light energy on the scene to get the images to reveal their true nature. Eventually, the black background of the images began to crack and split, revealing green land, blue sky, and sunshine. I became less conscious of my dreaming, following deeper into sleep.

When I awoke partially, I was disappointed that I had not received a message from the images. Spirit revealed to me that I had received a message: I stood my ground; I didn't have an anxiety attack; I didn't run; and I called on assistance. I prevented my Self from feeling alone and helpless.

That was enough of a message.

When I woke up completely, this is what came to my mind. "You have to be at a certain level to act like a Divine Being so stop beating yourself up."

On the Tree of Life, HeruKhuti is the 5th sphere -- half way up the tree. By starting at the 10th sphere and working my way up, I have plenty of time and room to make mistakes and get things right. I have time to "Know My Self." I have time to heal and to fulfill my purpose. I have time to feel good about being my "I Am."

Here is the Law of HeruKhuti, personalized from the words of Ra Un Nefer Amen in his book Maat: the 11 Laws of God.

HeruKhuti: I know that God neither punishes nor rewards nor protects. I have the comfort of controlling these for myself.

How do I break the Law of HeruKhuti by not experiencing my worth as a Divine Being?

I expect some outside source to protect me, to give me things that will make me feel worthy. I fight myself and the experiences that will reveal my true nature as a peaceful, loving, Divine Being. The song, Let It Be, just came to my mind, so I thought I would include the video. Hope you enjoy it.

Until next time,
Hetep