Tree of Life Meditation System

Hetep Everyone,

I had in mind picking up where I had left off on Day 16, but the notes that I jotted down, I've just discovered were written too haphazardly to use so I'm going to have to start where I am.

I've been using my meditation to cultivate my energy to transform my will so that I live my purpose.

I have been making videos to speak the words I normally write. Here is one: (My technique is bound to improve the more I do this. I hope that you are forgiving.)



Well, this is all that I have to say for now, except Happy New Year.

Until next time,
Hetep

An Apology

Hetep Everyone,

I want to apologize. I have been unable to post for a couple of days, but this is because I am having some breakthroughs that I am quite unable to explain. Suffice it to say that at this point, I need to experience my insights rather than discuss them. Perhaps I will be ready to post again in a couple of days.

I beg your indulgence.

With respect,
Hetep

Tree of Life Meditation System -- Day 15 -- Heru

Hetep Everyone,

In a reading that I did using the Oracle cards of Tehuti, concerning my role in God's Divine plan for me, I received positive Maat and negative Ausar. It took me a while to grow into the understanding of how I could use this information. First, I was flattered that I was actually learning the Law, but I was deeply ashamed of what the combined metutu meant. I knew the Law, but not how to apply it.

I was reminded of a quote from Ra Un Nefer Amen's book, Tree of Life Meditation System, pages 231-232:

"It is of utmost importance to understand that spiritual growth does not take place from studying of scriptures, spiritual literature, doing rituals, meditating, deity or ancestor possession, etc. They are merely means of preparing you to live truth at the crossroads."

The Maat/Ausar reading warned me against having too much knowledge without any understanding of the All and that placed me in the midst of evil. I've made some mistakes. The mistakes have been worse, because of my greater potential for misunderstanding. I knew that I needed to cultivate a greater understanding of Ausar, but I didn't know how. What I did know to do was to apply a greater effort in sharing and loving unconditionally with a compassionate understanding that I needed a whole picture before making decisions and judgments.

Knowing my need to develop my aspects of Maat and Ausar meant that I would be able to successfully practice these aspects only when I could stop and think about what I was doing. Given my weak skills in Men Ab (Heru, waking trance meditation), I felt inadequate.

One of the things that I have been doing is developing techniques to stimulate my Ra (life force energy). This seems to be working. I want to project light energy all of the time. I used to fear that I would drain my own life force by doing this, but I actively generate this energy every day, filling my being with it so that I have an abundance for my Self and enough to project to others. In fact, the act of projecting the energy helps to restore the energy I project. In essence, sharing light energy amplifies the energy so that it grows exponentially.

As an example of what I'm talking about, for each person you share the light energy with, you receive the light energy back like 10-fold. The energy amplifies the energies of all spheres on the Tree of Life. I am beginning to believe that learning to cultivate this energy and projecting it to others in its purest form is one of the main reasons that we are here on this physical plane.

The upshot of actively cultivating my Ra is that I'm feeling more comfortable with my efforts. As I share this energy, I imagine my Ausar (Divine Being) sharing energy with the Ausar energy of others. I like this imagery because it is pure. When I think of someone else's Ausar, I imagine my pineal gland connecting with theirs. In that sense, there is no judgment of the person because I only see the pineal gland and it is pure melanin. This helps me to be much more compassionate, especially if I give the energy to someone with whom I have a problem. If Ausar meets Ausar, there is no doubt that the problem will be resolved.

As for Heru, I am more hopeful for improving my Men Ab skills than ever before.

Well, that's it for now. I wish you great fortune. Until next time,
Hetep

Tree of Life Meditation System -- Day 14 -- Het-Heru

Hetep Everyone,

Last night's meditation was designed to reprogram the images I use to energize my actions toward achieving my meditation objective.

Once again, here is my objective: I want to experience my purpose in God's Divine plan based upon truthful premises, determined by relationships of how my functions (thoughts, feelings, and actions) fit the form I'm trying to create (my purpose).

I was, through mediumistic trance, to link joy to achieving my objective while chanting the word of power (heka), "kling."

I woke up this morning with a more clear definition of joy -- an excitement; the love for doing; when your hands shake because you know you're about to turn nothing into something or transform something into something better.

These images, applied to my functions (thoughts feelings and actions), will help to make it easier to create the form of my purpose.

Well, that's it for now. I wish you great fortune. Until next time,
Hetep

Tree of Life Meditation System -- Day 13 -- Sebek

Hetep Everyone,

Last night's meditation was designed to reprogram my beliefs. I was, through mediumistic trance, to energize my beliefs (affirmations) which support my identification with Ausar as my Self, my True Self.

What does this mean?

Ausar is the embodiment of Amen, a peace that nothing can challenge where I expect neither gain nor loss, neither pain nor pleasure. It is a state where everything is formless, meaning that everything is possible. Ausar is the perfect balance or alignment of all possibilities manifesting in my life -- the running of my external life with the same level of "clockwork" precision as is running in my physical body. This allows my to have all of the prosperity and sustenance that I need. This is my fulfillment.

I, as a Divine Being, am Ausar, making all of this happen because I am connected with the All, Amen. My head knows this, but my heart is still unsure.

My Sebek meditation was designed to replace my doubtful beliefs with ones that are certain so that I can fulfill my Divine Purpose.

Well, that's it for now. I wish you great fortune. Until next time,
Hetep

Tree of Life Meditation System -- Day 12 -- Auset

Hetep Everyone,

This is the programming phase of the meditation cycle. For the next 10 days, I will be reprogramming my spirit to accept my meditation objective.

Once again, here is my objective: I want to experience my purpose in God's Divine plan based upon truthful premises, determined by relationships of how my functions (thoughts, feelings, and actions) fit the form I'm trying to create (my purpose).

I will program this objective into my spirit by aligning my spirit with the energies of the deities of the Tree of Life. The programming begins with Auset (Sphere 9), at the base of the Tree of Life. This energy allows me to express remorse for my thoughts, feelings, and actions that are preventing me from living as a Divine Being. Also, this energy assists me in opening my spirit so that it becomes receptive to resurrecting the Ausar energy, which will allow me to manifest my meditation objective.

Well, that's all for now. I wish you great fortune. Until next time,
Hetep

Tree of Life Meditation System -- Day 11 -- Geb

Hetep Everyone,

The complement of Geb is Amen. Geb is form; Amen is formlessness. They cannot be separated. What is great about this, that I am finally starting to understand, is that everything can be changed. What appears to have form (shape, time and space) only really appears to have form because we perceive it to have form. By changing our perception, we can change form, and, therefore, what we perceive to be real.

In the midst of an emotional attack, I have the power to remember that the situation causing the emotion can be changed. I just have to focus on the outcome that I want to perceive and use the techniques that the meditation system teaches to program my vision into my spirit. If it is in equilibrium with the Divine, the outcome will eventually manifest itself. Creating a pattern of success by working with this system consistently offers the assurance of a peace (Amen) that nothing can challenge.

What does this have to do with my meditation objective? Once again, here is my objective: I want to experience my purpose in God's Divine plan based upon truthful premises, determined by relationships of how my functions (thoughts, feelings, and actions) fit the form I'm trying to create (my purpose).

My efforts throughout this meditation cycle are to create the form (Geb) of my purpose by perceiving the truthfulness within my functions, making changes where needed. It is easier for me to make the necessary changes when I know that everything is formless, and, therefore, can be changed.

Here is the Law of Geb, personalized from the words of Ra Un Nefer Amen in his book, Maat: the 11 Laws of God.

Geb: I know that from heaven I came and to heaven I must return. I seek not enduring works on earth.

How do I break the Law of Geb?

Often, I forget that form is also formless, and, therefore, can be changed. This prevents me from behaving as a Divine Being and fulfilling my Divine purpose.

Well, that's it for now. I wish you great fortune. Until next time,
Hetep

Tree of Life Meditation System -- Day 10 -- Auset

Hetep Everyone,

Thoughts pop into my mind all day. Most times -- no, I can't truthfully say that anymore -- quite often, these thoughts are awful, very negative scenarios. They come in the forms of daydreams, absorptions, moments of absent-mindedness, or emotional states. All of these forms are types of trances as described by Ra Un Nefer Amen in his book, Tree of Life Meditation System, page 200.

These forms of thought belong to the territory of Auset. It is Heru's job to interrupt these types of thoughts as they do not serve my efforts to subjugate my ego identity (Auset) to my Divine Being (Ausar). Growing stronger at interrupting these thoughts means that I am strengthening my skills at Men Ab meditation. This is a wakeful meditation, specifically designed to teach us how to vigilantly interrupt or block thoughts that do not serve our Divinity.

In addition to those runaway thoughts being negative and dis-serving, they are almost always false. They feed and energize dis-serving illusions that are difficult to discern. Almost always, this leads to dis-serving behavior and decisions based upon false information.

Being unable to distinguish between illusion and truth has gotten so bad for me that I have been unable to rely on my intuition. It's been like a vicious circle, chasing my own tail, trying to determine truth from illusion. In trying to develop the skills of Men Ab, I was working from the premise that the cultivation was a complex process, but now I feel that if I just learn to block those awful thoughts, I'll be able to advance from there as I grow in my understanding.

What does this have to do with my meditation objective? Once again, here is my objective: I want to experience my purpose in God's Divine plan based upon truthful premises, determined by relationships of how my functions (thoughts, feelings, and actions) fit the form I'm trying to create (my purpose).

Here is possibly the greatest insight I have received from this meditation cycle.

Choice is the main focus of conscious, deliberate meditation whether it is Men Ab or trance. If you have followed my meditation posts for a while, then you already know that I do not respond well to being or feeling forced to do things. I adopted this attitude to help me heal from childhood trauma. I have worked hard to learn how to change my perception to desire doing what needs to be done. That way, no force is necessary.

In fact, when those negative thoughts lean toward me feeling that I am forced to do something, I determine the truth of the thought by remembering that Maat's feather represents the lightness of the application of Divine Law. There is no coercion. We must choose. If we are not paying attention, we won't even know that we are being beckoned to follow the laws. This concept helps me to easily dismiss some of my negative thoughts.

Choosing to fit my functions (thoughts, feelings and actions) to the form of creating my Divine purpose is a way of providing structured guidelines for Men Ab meditations -- blocking negative, dis-serving thoughts that hinder my efforts.

The other side of choice, in terms of Heru, is that not only does Heru energy block those awful, behavior-stimulating thoughts, the energy can be used to replace those thoughts with visions and beliefs that support the behavior to create the form of my Divine purpose. It's sort of like a block and counter-punch at the same time.

The Heru energy is designed to fight the energy of Set. Set energy is the energy that we use to justify doing what we know is wrong -- like the saying, "The devil made me do it." Heru wins if we transcend Set's energy and make choices that advance our Divinity on earth. Set wins if we just spend a lot of time debating the issues of transcendence, not to mention, choosing what develops our ego selves.

To quote, Ra Un Nefer Amen from his book, Tree of Life Meditation System, page 177:

Heru is the set of energized ideas aimed at manifesting behavior on the basis of the identity of the waking consciousness with Ausar...Set is the set of energized ideas aimed at manifesting behavior on the basis of the identity of the waking consciousness with the person.

The key here for me is "energized ideas." These energized ideas work for or against our Divinity. The ideas become energized by the energies of spheres 7 (Het-Heru) and 8 (Sebek). The medium through which these energies travel is Auset energy -- trance.

We are now back where we started. Auset energy -- trance energy -- in the forms of daydreams, absorptions, moments of absent-mindedness, or emotional states represent the means of energizing the ideas that support either Divinity (Ausar) or ego (AuSet). I must add to the list of forms of trance, mediumistic trance -- formal sit-down sessions of meditation.

It boils down to this. Either we energize those dis-serving ideas unconsciously or deliberately (Set) or we consciously choose (Heru) to direct the content of our daydreams, absorptions, moments of absent-mindedness, emotional states, and, especially, mediumistic trance sessions. Mediumistic trance greatly assists our desire to use the Heru energy to consciously direct the content of our waking trance states toward our Divinity.

Here is the Law of Auset, personalized from the words of Ra Un Nefer Amen in his book, Maat: the 11 Laws of God.

Auset: I am prepared to sacrifice everything in order to become the vessel of God on earth. In return, I will receive everything.

How do I break the Law of Auset?

I have been guilty of ignoring and trivializing my cultivation of all forms of trance states.

Well, that's it for now. I wish you great fortune. Until next time,
Hetep

Tree of Life Meditation System -- Day 9 -- Sebek

Hetep Everyone,

Black life is chaos. Think of all of the interruptions from family members that are disruptive: illnesses from stress; anger and resentment; over-indulgences that selfishly affect others; etc., not to mention the effects of being a descendant of Africa in Western society with the legacies of slavery, segregation, and colonialism while still dealing with the white supremacy systems of today. All of these things and more keep many, many of us in a constant state of flux, making establishing an ordered routine nearly impossible. There always seems to be some type of drama going on which we either deal with or ignore, whether we cause it ourselves or it comes from someone in our personal sphere.

What does this have to do with my meditation objective? Once again, here it is: I want to experience my purpose in God's Divine plan based upon truthful premises, determined by relationships of how my functions (thoughts, feelings, and actions) fit the form I'm trying to create (my purpose).

As I continue to grow in my understanding of God's Law, my challenge is to find structure in the midst of chaos so that I can consistently fit my functions to the form I am trying to create.

Here is the Law of Sebek, personalized from the words of Ra Un Nefer Amen in his book, Maat: the 11 Laws of God.

Sebek: It is not what I think or affirm. It is who is thinking and affirming. Am I a human or a Divine Being?

How do I break the Law of Sebek?

I believe that finding structure in the midst of chaos is nearly impossible.

Well, that's it for now. I wish you great fortune. Until next time,
Hetep

Tree of Life Meditation System -- Day 8 -- Het-Heru

Hetep Everyone,

Ra, the life force energy, is necessary to vitalize the images of Het-Heru. These images program our spirit. They either progress spiritual development or decay it. I want always to consciously choose images that progress my spiritual development.

For me, one of the results or benefits of projecting love energy has been experiencing a great deal of vitality -- a higher intensity of my life force energy.

What does this have to do with my meditation objective? Once again, here it is: I want to experience my purpose in God's Divine plan based upon truthful premises, determined by relationships of how my functions (thoughts, feelings, and actions) fit the form I'm trying to create (my purpose).

Holding in my mind an image of the form that I'm trying to create will make it easier to create that form. Vitalizing the image with the Ra, life force energy, will help creating the form even easier.

Here is the Law of Het-Heru, personalized from the words of Ra Un Nefer Amen in his book, Maat: the 11 Laws of God.

Het-Heru: It is not what I imagine. It is who is imagining. Am I a human or a Divine Being?

How do I break the Law of Het-Heru?

Sometimes, it is difficult for me to see the form I am trying to create, my purpose.

Well, that's it for now. I wish you great fortune. Until next time,
Hetep

Tree of Life Meditation System -- Day 7 -- Heru

Hetep Everyone,

As I awaken to my power to influence change through love (giving without expectation of return), I find that when I consciously project love energy, I receive it back in almost overwhelming proportions. I've been experimenting with my family members. During my meditation, I envision my family members and send them energy. The energy is given freely without their knowledge or expectations of results.

Since I've been doing this, I find that I have to give hugs and touch their cheeks or backs more. I say, "I love you," a lot more. I'm more filled with compassion and understanding. I'm much less offended by their actions, especially knowing that sending them love instead of anger can help bring out truth and, therefore, resolution. I'm much more quick to apologize for my own offending acts.

I have no idea what the recipients of this "new" me think. I'm known as having a very quick temper and saying things that cut like a jagged blade. They seem, however, to be receptive.

The strange part about all of this is that if I don't project this love energy, all of my bad habits come back into the foreground. Being connected to this energy feels like being a conduit. If I don't allow the current to flow through me, then I'm useless, but when it does flow through me, I'm fulfilled.

What does this have to do with my meditation objective? Once again, here it is: I want to experience my purpose in God's Divine plan based upon truthful premises, determined by relationships of how my functions (thoughts, feelings, and actions) fit the form I'm trying to create (my purpose).

When I used the word, "conduit," I was trying to convey more than just being a means for love energy to travel through. The energy is filled with so much more than love. It's filled with the power to bring about the equilibrium I seek.

Because all of this is so new, I still forget to fit my functions to the form I'm trying to manifest. Fortunately, because the love energy feels so good, I want to continue to project it through my meditation. I just want to keep wanting to do this.

Here is the Law of Heru, personalized from the words of Ra Un Nefer Amen in his book, Maat: the 11 Laws of God.

Heru: I have the power, but not the right to ignore God's Law. I choose to follow the Law of God with the love and joy that grows from understanding so that the wisdom and power of God's spirit will flow through my being.

How do I break the Law of Heru?

Throughout my day, I forget to choose to follow the Law of God.

Well, that's it for now. I wish you great fortune. Until next time,
Hetep

Tree of Life Meditation System -- Day 6 -- HeruKhuti

Hetep Everyone,

Letting go is an act of joy, not merely a leap of faith. This speaks to the Dogon saying that you can find the universe in a seed. If you seek out joy in the situations you are faced with, no matter what they are, giving up worrying and feeding your emotions, then you find a universe that you haven't seen before.

For me, taking something on faith meant I had nothing to do with what happened, leaving me to imagine the worst possible scenarios, but last night I had a profound experience that was a wonderful wake-up call.

I was with my sister. She needed to take her daughter some food at work. We were about to go and get the food when my sister's two-year-old grandson announced that he needed to go to the bathroom. My sister asked me to take him while she left us to go and get the food. I was annoyed at being left behind. It was getting late and I was tired.

In my mind, I started going through the formula I posted on yesterday's blog entry:

* Detach from what I think is reality.
* Accept what's happening.
* Immerse myself in my situation.
* Seek out images of joy for going with the flow.
* Look for opportunities of transformation. Every situation is an opportunity for creation. Be what you are -- Divine.

After going to the bathroom, I decided to take my nephew for a walk. As I started to look for images of joy (trees, crispness of the night, the moon), I began to become conscious of my nephew's hand in mine. I started to listen to what he was saying, not as babble, but as the communications of a two-year-old telling me what he saw. He begin to direct the path of our walk so I let him.

We came upon a tee that I really liked. I pointed it out to him. He saw the acorns on the ground first. They were huge even though the oak tree was very young. He was determined to hold as many acorns in his little hands as he possibly could. By the time we stuffed his little coat pocket with acorns, my sister had returned.

Becoming conscious of the absolute privilege and pleasure of being in my nephew's company was not the only profound thing that happened. As my energy grew from the pleasure I was experiencing, I began to understand that I was in a situation where creation could take place. I asked myself what I could create in that situation. Suddenly possibilities were endless. Recognizing that I was in a situation of endless possibilities gave me pure joy, which I was able to share with my nephew while he shared his world with me.

How does this tie into my meditation cycle objective? Here is the objective: I want to experience my purpose in God's Divine plan for me based upon truthful premises determined by relationships of how my functions (thoughts, feelings, and actions) fit the form I'm trying to create (my purpose).

I keep imagining that this objective speaks to really grandiose manifestations, but what I am experiencing is excitement for being consciously aware of my thoughts, feelings, and actions and the opportunities for creating new possibilities from old perspectives.

Here is the Law of HeruKhuti, personalized from the words of Ra Un Nefer Amen in his book Maat: the 11 Laws of God.

HeruKhuti: I know that God neither punishes, nor protects, nor rewards. I have the comfort of controlling these for myself.

How do I break the Law of HeruKhuti?

I have not cultivated the comfort that I can experience from controlling what happens to me.

Well, that's all for now. I wish you great fortune. Until next time,
Hetep

Tree of Life Meditation System -- Day 5 -- Maat

Hetep Everyone,

Imagine that you have never heard of the concept of siblings. You meet someone and he introduces you to his mother. You travel to another part of the world and you meet someone different who introduces you to her mother, but the mother is the same mother you've already met. You don't know what a sibling is so you think that someone could be lying.

How can you explain this? Two different people from two different parts of the world both claim that this one woman is their mother. How can they both be telling the truth? The only way to explain this phenomenon is to understand that both people come from the same source (the mother) and that the mother can have multiple children.

Everything that happens to us is based upon this type of inter-relationship, but without knowing the source, we can't see the connections. Let me remind you of my meditation cycle objective:

I want to experience my purpose in God's Divine plan for me based upon truthful premises determined by relationships of how my functions (thoughts, feelings, and actions) fit the form I'm trying to create (my purpose).

When the above insight came to me, I had to ask the following question:

What is the inter-relationship between my feeling powerful and worthy verses my taking actions that fit my functions to form fulfilling my Divine purpose?

The answer had nothing to do with emotions, but everything to do with letting go. I wrote out this formula:

• Detach from what I think is reality.
• Accept what's happening.
• Immerse myself in my situation.
• Seek out images of joy for going with the flow.
• Look for opportunities of transformation. Every situation is an opportunity for creation. Be what you are -- Divine.

I realized that I had no idea what I had expected feeling worthy and powerful enough to fulfill my Divine purpose would be like. All I know is that I'm feeling it. The answer lies in letting go.

I'm not talking about a leap of faith. Amen is peace -- no things and everything, where everything is formless and, therefore, can be changed. Ausar is unity, making sure that all changes are balanced and in alignment. Tehuti shows you what to change and how. Seker gives you the power through Love -- giving without expectation of receiving.

All of this means that I can change anything I want as long as I follow Maat: the 11 Laws of God. This isn't about seeking permission from deities outside of myself. All of these deities are different aspects of energy vibrations that are a part of me waiting for me to tap into them. I must give permission to myself. I am the judge of my own worthiness and power, not some outside source.

Here is the Law of Maat, personalized from the words of Ra Un Nefer Amen in his book Maat: the 11 Laws of God.

Maat: God needs me in order to come into the world. Fulfilling God's need is the highest act of love and only through my love for God can I fulfill my love for others. I become the love of God in the world for the protection of the world.


How do I break the Law of Maat?

I have been unable to experience my purpose in God's Divine plan for me because I have been unable to see how my functions fit the form of that plan.

Well, that's it for now. I wish you great fortune. Until next time,
Hetep

Tree of Life Meditation System -- Day 4 -- Seker

Hetep Everyone,

My current meditation cycle objective is: I want to experience my purpose in God's Divine plan based upon truthful premises determined by relationships of how my functions (thoughts, feelings, and actions) fit the form I'm trying to create (my purpose).

Does what I create fit the form of fulfilling my Divine purpose? Do my functions fit this form? I do not have clear answers for these questions because I am not sure of what my purpose is. I know that it has something to do with living and teaching lessons of peace and love.

This is the reason I write this blog, to share the lessons I've learned and the lessons I'm learning. Although I have conducted oracle readings, my sense of unworthiness and powerlessness is blocking me from clearly seeing my purpose. Right now, the only guide that I am certain of is to continue my process of healing; learning and applying the principles of Maat: the 11 Laws of God; and sharing what I know. So let me get to what I would like to share tonight.

One aspect of Amen is that everything has the potential to change because everything is unconditional -- formless at its most fundamental, subatomic level. This means that if you look deep enough at something that you think is solid (existing in time and space), you will find emptiness, formlessness and tremendously, unfathomable potential to reshape matter into something else. This is why you hear the old saying that life is an illusion. It is also the basis of that philosophical question, "How do you know that a chair is a chair?"

Everything changes because everything has the potential to change. That potential is dynamic consciousness. Whether we are aware of it or not, we are all a part of this consciousness and we all participate in using this potential to create our world. Most of us do this without knowledge of what we are doing.

I choose consciously to use the Metu Neter and the Tree of Life Meditation Systemso that I can participate in changing my life, creating it in perfect balance and harmony. Here is one lesson that I am learning about my potential to effect change: If I can't change the form (situation), then I can change the function (my thoughts, feelings and actions) and vice versa. When one changes, both will change automatically.

Developing my spirituality allows my higher consciousness to work in this manner: Ausar -- Unity -- makes sure that my changes don't screw things up so that even what looks like screw-ups eventually align in perfect balance; Tehuti -- Wisdom -- tells me how and what to change; and Seker -- spiritual power -- is based upon love (giving without expectation of return), ensuring that the changes I make are effective (changes that don't lead to disharmonious conflict) because I am following Maat -- all 11 Laws of God.

My greatest challenge in learning the lessons that will allow me to effectively participate in my life is believing in my own authority and worthiness, not only to make the changes, but to know that the changes are real and lasting.

Here is the Law of Seker, personalized from the words of Ra Un Nefer Amen in his book Maat: the 11 laws of God.

Seker: When the emotions of Man manifest in response to the word of God, they have the power to influence the course of any and all events in the world.

How do I break the Law of Seker?

I am unable to trust completely my own power and worthiness to make effective changes in my life.

Well, that is all for now. I wish you great fortune. Until next time,
Hetep

Tree of Life Meditation System -- Day 3 -- Tehuti

Hetep Everyone,

Here, again, is my meditation objective for this meditation cycle. I want to experience my purpose in God's Divine plan, based upon truthful premises determined by relationships of how my functions (thoughts, feelings, and actions) fit the form I'm trying to create (my purpose).

One of the reasons I want to experience my purpose in God's Divine plan is to claim my life so that it runs in perfect alignment (unity). Most of my life has been an undirected mess, lacking in fulfillment. I want to change this.

A second reason is that I want to redirect the thoughts and the images that pop into my head toward an empowering focus that creates the life I am supposed to be living. Habitually, I focus on the most awful outcomes and have to redirect my thoughts. More than almost anything, I want to know what to focus on in order to create my life in perfect balance.

I have always had a problem being consistent in my actions. I've spent many meditation cycles trying to address this problem, indirectly. There seem to be so many layers of issues blocking me that I've been addressing the issues. Linking my functions, that is, my thoughts, feelings, and actions, to the form I'm trying to create, is one way I believe to learn to be consistent through direct means. This implies that I must be conscious of my actions -- a state of mind that I tend to forget.

When I remember to be conscious of my functions, I try to use the aspects of Tehuti to determine whether or not my functions are truthful to the forms I'm trying to create. If I really am aware, I try to match this form to discovering my purpose. The discovery of my purpose is something that I hope to achieve by the end of this meditation cycle.

Here is the Law of Tehuti, personalized form the words of Ra Un Nefer Amen in his book, Maat: the 11 Laws of God.

Tehuti: When all of my thoughts, feelings, and actions reflect the word of God, then the power of God's spirit and a peace that nothing can challenge will flow through my being.

How do I break the Law of Tehuti?

I find that my habit of imagining the most awful outcomes for my life is based upon my feelings of unworthiness and whether or not I feel I deserve to have what I want. This answer is almost always "no." Even if I redirect my mind to say, "yes," my mind begins searching for ways to show that I do not deserve it.

In many, many situations, I automatically and unconsciously give away my authority. Almost always, the recipients of this gift are undeserving. The push button seems to be something in me that recognizes someone else or something else as more powerful than myself. This is a conditioning, based upon an untruthful premise, that I want to break and then reprogram to respond with my True Self -- Ausar.

That is all for now. Until next time,
Hetep

Tree of Life Meditation System -- Day 2 -- Ausar

Hetep Everyone,

Last night, I realized that I could no longer deny that resenting white supremacy and Western culture is a violation of Ausar (Unity). This doesn't alleviate my desire for justice, reparations, or restitution. It just means that I don't have to display, every minute of my life, anger, frustration, the jealousy of privilege, debilitating anxiety, etc. that the resentment fertilizes.

The resentment is hurtful and draining of the energy that could go into creating the world and life that is filled with manifesting my Divine purpose. I've carried this resentment around so long that it has become normal for me so it will be interesting learning to live without it.

Here is the Law of Ausar, personalized from the words of Ra Un Nefer Amen in his book Maat: the 11 Laws of God, followed by the insight from my meditation.

Ausar: My nature is an unconquerable peace; therefore, nothing and no one in the world can be against me. All experiences come to me to promote my reclamation of peace that I may acquire wisdom and power.


Insight: I resent Western Society and white supremacy in any form. This resentment is a huge disturbance to my peace and my ability to acquire unity, wisdom, and power. This resentment is very heavy to carry around. It impedes Ra (my life force), and, therefore, my access to my Divine true self.

Well, that's it for now. I wish you great fortune. Until next time,
Hetep

Tree of Life Meditation System -- Day 1 -- Amen

Hetep Everyone,

Wow! Today is the new moon and the start of another meditation cycle. The start of each meditation cycle is always very exciting for me because I know that I'm getting ready to change something about my life that will move it forward.

Each meditation cycle is about developing and cultivating my spirituality. It is also about my own personal healing -- healing from the effects of the Willie Lynch syndrome and being a product of this Western society. Mostly, participating in the meditation cycles consecutively helps me to grow closer and closer to claiming my Divinity -- my ultimate goal.

My objective for this meditation cycle is to experience my purpose in God's Divine plan, based upon truthful premises determined by relationships of how my functions (thoughts, feelings, and actions)fit the form I'm trying to create (my purpose).

Well, that sounds like a lot, but basically, what it boils down to is that I want to stop procrastinating and making excuses, learning how to take actions that will lead me to my Divine purpose. If you have followed the other two meditation cycles, you will know that I have suffered from life-long, crippling anxiety. I've been chipping away at this anxiety, but now I want to hammer at it and beat it down so this meditation objective is a huge, huge deal for me. I anticipate being able to address and nullify a lot of issues.

One thing that I learned from the last meditation cycle that I think will be a great benefit to me now is my growing understand of Ra (life force energy, Chi, Kundalini).

I was reading the explanation of the Sesh Metu, Bennu -- the phoenix, in the Metu Neter, vol. 1, p. 407. The following sentence triggered and insight about the fire that causes the ashes. See what you think.

"The ashes are symbolic of having been burned by the heat of Ra (tapas) that is generated in all difficult situations in which we are challenged to live Truth."

I always picture this fire as having the same source as the sun and the core of the earth. I imagine the fire burning away impurities, leaving behind only truth. The image has been effective when I apply it to debilitating emotions. I imagine the emotions burning in the fire of Ra, leaving ashes that cascade down to the ground. This allows me to ask myself whether or not my functions (thoughts, feelings, and actions) fit the form that I am trying to create. This is one of my weapons in the fight against procrastination. It's new for me so I can't claim consistent use. Hopefully, by the end of this meditation cycle, I'll be able to say different.

Now, let me give you the Law of Amen and insights from my meditation last night. I have personalized the Law from the words of Ra Un Nefer Amen in his book, Maat: the 11 Laws of God.

Amen: I am made in the likeness of a peace that nothing can disturb. I reclaim my peace that I may attain to the reason I have come into existence -- the enjoyment of life.

Insights:

• My limited ability to keep my word, make a commitment, or tell the truth, especially in times of strained emotions, is a recognition of my own sense of powerlessness and that someone or something has authority that is superior to my own.
• Living as a Divine Being, I should have no need to recognize another entity as having superior power to my own. Being is being. All power comes from the same source and we all have access to that power.
• Anything that causes me to feel powerless only has the power that I acknowledge it has, meaning that I empower it through my recognition of it. I can simply image things that scare me being burned by the fires of Ra, reducing impurities to ashes, leaving behind truth -- something that should be easy to manage.

Well, that's it for now. Thanks so much for joining me for another mediation cycle. I wish you great fortune. Until next time,
Hetep

Tree of Life Meditation System -- Assessment

Hetep Everyone,

Today marks the last day of this meditation cycle. It has been a difficult time, mostly because of the changes I have had to go through in order to usher in a new paradigm. (By the way, I'm still in the process of making this shift.) Changing the way you see things, that is, changing your perspective, can be painful.

For me, I've had to cast aside a lot of ideas that just weren't supporting my goal of living as a Divine Being, but did serve me in my efforts to live as a limited human being. You see that phrasing? I didn't even realize how much effort I had been putting into limiting myself. To come to that realization has been very, very painful.

I've been able to see for myself how much I've been feeling sorry for myself. Self-pity is another tough idea that I can cast aside. The concept is based totally on powerlessness. This meditation cycle has taught me techniques of how to shift my perspective to images and ideas that focus on joy, thus, firing up my Ra (life force) so that I can manifest a different reality, based upon the following premise, "If you change the way you see things, then the things you see will change.) This is a much better focus than feeling miserable because I'm feeling sorry for myself.

One thing I do not want to do is to dismiss the pain and suffering that has blinded me all of these years. That pain has been genuine and could not have been resolved by saying, "Get over it!" or "Just stop feeling sorry for yourself!" The sources of the pain have been real. These have included issues I brought into this life from another one; issues that were beyond my control; and, issues that I have created for myself in this life by not knowing how to cope. In addition, because of my personality, I've only been open to certain methods of healing so "Get over it!" has not applied to me as far as I have been concerned.

What I am most excited about having achieved during this meditation cycle is feeling more worthy. I'm glad that I decided to focus on developing my egoic self and acknowledging its needs. This has been a powerful experience for me, especially in my being able to distinguish my natal personality from my eternal Divine Being. They both must be cultivated to come into their own fullness. I am earth-bound, and therefore, I am entitled to a full and rich earth experience as I fulfill my Divine purpose; however, I am an eternal Divine Being, unlimited by time and space. In essence, I am a Divine Being having an earth experience.

Well, that is all for now. I hope that you will continue to follow this blog into the next meditation cycle. I thank you for hanging in there with me. I wish you great fortune in your journey.

Until next time,
Hetep