Tree of Life Meditation System -- Day 7 -- Heru

Hetep Everyone,

Once again, here is my meditation objective for this meditation cycle: I want to see my transformation into a Divine Being as I learn to pause and consciously observe my decision processes before I act.

I thought that giving myself permission to observe my choices, exercising my freedom to choose, would yield the benefits of making better choices, but the opposite has occurred. My choices are lousy, but something keeps telling me to hang in there -- to keep observing objectively. I don't like the choices that I'm making. These choices are familiar to me. I would always make these choices and then beat myself up as punishment. I have a feeling that it's important for me to know that I don't have to punish myself and that this process is not about getting away with something wrong either. I have to get it into my head that I am free to choose.

I've been looking at the Metu Neter vol. 4. It looks like this past year has been preparing me for my work with vol. 4. However, the work requires great commitment, but again, it's all voluntary. I choose how committed I want to be. What I did find in vol. 4 was an answer to a question that I had been posing over and over again without receiving a satisfactory answer.

Here's the question: What do I get for all of this work? Where's this taking me? According to vol. 4, I will receive divine counsel from the Neteru, miracles, and perfect harmony, but the most interesting part to me was the fact that, like the Tree of Life Meditation System, the work is to be repeated. The benefits and growth that I have received since working the meditation system consistently have been immeasurable in terms of spiritual development and psychological healing; however, vol. 4 offers a lot more direction and focus to assist with a paradigm shift toward living the laws instead of merely using them as academic exercises.

One of the best results from this past year's work, which emerged subtly, has been my being able to see the brighter side of things. By that I mean, I feel much more positive. I'm much more aware of when I'm participating in a negative conversation. I find myself stopping or attempting to transform negative conversations. I just don't want to be around them. I used to be the first to start them by complaining about things. Now, I find that I am consciously trying to stop complaining. It's a whole new way of life for me.

Here is the Law of Heru, personalized form the words of Ra Un Nefer Amen in his book, Maat: the 11 Laws of God.

Heru: I have the power but not the right to ignore God's law. I choose to follow the law of God with the love and joy that grows from understanding so that the wisdom and power of God's spirit will flow through my being.

How do I break the Law of Heru by not pausing and observing?

I do not fully understand what is involved in having the freedom to make my choices. I am still compelled to choose based upon my lower nature.

That is all for now. I wish you great fortune. Until next time,
Hetep

Tree of Life Meditation System -- Day 7 -- Heru

Hetep Everyone,

As I awaken to my power to influence change through love (giving without expectation of return), I find that when I consciously project love energy, I receive it back in almost overwhelming proportions. I've been experimenting with my family members. During my meditation, I envision my family members and send them energy. The energy is given freely without their knowledge or expectations of results.

Since I've been doing this, I find that I have to give hugs and touch their cheeks or backs more. I say, "I love you," a lot more. I'm more filled with compassion and understanding. I'm much less offended by their actions, especially knowing that sending them love instead of anger can help bring out truth and, therefore, resolution. I'm much more quick to apologize for my own offending acts.

I have no idea what the recipients of this "new" me think. I'm known as having a very quick temper and saying things that cut like a jagged blade. They seem, however, to be receptive.

The strange part about all of this is that if I don't project this love energy, all of my bad habits come back into the foreground. Being connected to this energy feels like being a conduit. If I don't allow the current to flow through me, then I'm useless, but when it does flow through me, I'm fulfilled.

What does this have to do with my meditation objective? Once again, here it is: I want to experience my purpose in God's Divine plan based upon truthful premises, determined by relationships of how my functions (thoughts, feelings, and actions) fit the form I'm trying to create (my purpose).

When I used the word, "conduit," I was trying to convey more than just being a means for love energy to travel through. The energy is filled with so much more than love. It's filled with the power to bring about the equilibrium I seek.

Because all of this is so new, I still forget to fit my functions to the form I'm trying to manifest. Fortunately, because the love energy feels so good, I want to continue to project it through my meditation. I just want to keep wanting to do this.

Here is the Law of Heru, personalized from the words of Ra Un Nefer Amen in his book, Maat: the 11 Laws of God.

Heru: I have the power, but not the right to ignore God's Law. I choose to follow the Law of God with the love and joy that grows from understanding so that the wisdom and power of God's spirit will flow through my being.

How do I break the Law of Heru?

Throughout my day, I forget to choose to follow the Law of God.

Well, that's it for now. I wish you great fortune. Until next time,
Hetep

Tree of Life Meditation System -- Day 7 -- Heru

Hetep Everyone,

Peace be Still.
Peace (Amen) be Still (Heru).
Amen be Heru.
Heru be Amen.
Still be Peace.
Be..."I Am"
Still, I am Peace.

Heru is the energy of learning to become still. Through stillness, wisdom, the eye of Tehuti, can reveal itself. With this understanding, I want to discuss an interpretation of the dream that I wrote about in my last posting. Here is the dream:

I became conscious of having a nightmare. Something was dead and trying to attack me. Normally, I would do a "poor me" and ask why or how I had attracted this energy and then I would run from it. This time, I stood my ground. I asked the image what it wanted. I called on the ancestors and other beneficent spirits for help. I called on alchemy. I told the image to transform -- to reveal its truth. The image became a kaleidoscope, transforming into different shapes that looked like all sorts of symbols and sometimes, distorted, frightening faces. I was reminded of images of ghosts that I had seen from the DVD, the Tibetan Book of the Dead. I tried to shine light energy on the scene to get the images to reveal their true nature. Eventually, the black background of the images began to crack and split, revealing green land, blue sky, and sunshine. I became less conscious of my dreaming, following deeper into sleep.

In the dream, I stand my ground. I become still and ask the images to reveal their true nature. I call on everything I can think of to give the images the energy they need in order to reveal their truth. I was calling on transformation. Is this one of the meanings of alchemy?

When I began this meditation cycle to experience my worth as a Divine Being, I knew that I was calling into manifestation experiences that would force me to call upon my worth as a Divine Being. I knew that it would not feel pleasant or comfortable. Of course, this is baring itself out. I wanted this experience so that I could obtain the knowledge of my worth, something only I could give to myself. I want to get rid of feelings of unworthiness in all circumstances.

What have I learned so far?

• Worthiness or unworthiness are concepts to which I give meaning, concepts that I do not even have to acknowledge as valuable. I've been trained to make these judgments and, therefore, can retrain myself away from these concepts.
• I need further understanding of what it means to be a Divine Being. I just know that through this understanding, I will understand my Self as a creator, living a creative purpose in perfect balance.
• I am resurrecting Ausar.

Here is the Law of Heru, personalized from the words of Ra Un Nefer Amen in his book, Maat: the 11 Laws of God

Heru: I have the power, but not the right, to ignore God's Law. I choose to follow the Law of God with the Love and Joy that grows from understanding so that the wisdom and power of God's spirit will flow through my being.

How do I break the Law of Heru by not experiencing my worth as a Divine Being?

I have not learned enough about becoming still.

This is all for now. Until next time,
Hetep