Tree of Life Meditation System -- Day 1 -- Amen

Hetep Everyone,

Wow! Today is the new moon and the start of another meditation cycle. The start of each meditation cycle is always very exciting for me because I know that I'm getting ready to change something about my life that will move it forward.

Each meditation cycle is about developing and cultivating my spirituality. It is also about my own personal healing -- healing from the effects of the Willie Lynch syndrome and being a product of this Western society. Mostly, participating in the meditation cycles consecutively helps me to grow closer and closer to claiming my Divinity -- my ultimate goal.

My objective for this meditation cycle is to experience my purpose in God's Divine plan, based upon truthful premises determined by relationships of how my functions (thoughts, feelings, and actions)fit the form I'm trying to create (my purpose).

Well, that sounds like a lot, but basically, what it boils down to is that I want to stop procrastinating and making excuses, learning how to take actions that will lead me to my Divine purpose. If you have followed the other two meditation cycles, you will know that I have suffered from life-long, crippling anxiety. I've been chipping away at this anxiety, but now I want to hammer at it and beat it down so this meditation objective is a huge, huge deal for me. I anticipate being able to address and nullify a lot of issues.

One thing that I learned from the last meditation cycle that I think will be a great benefit to me now is my growing understand of Ra (life force energy, Chi, Kundalini).

I was reading the explanation of the Sesh Metu, Bennu -- the phoenix, in the Metu Neter, vol. 1, p. 407. The following sentence triggered and insight about the fire that causes the ashes. See what you think.

"The ashes are symbolic of having been burned by the heat of Ra (tapas) that is generated in all difficult situations in which we are challenged to live Truth."

I always picture this fire as having the same source as the sun and the core of the earth. I imagine the fire burning away impurities, leaving behind only truth. The image has been effective when I apply it to debilitating emotions. I imagine the emotions burning in the fire of Ra, leaving ashes that cascade down to the ground. This allows me to ask myself whether or not my functions (thoughts, feelings, and actions) fit the form that I am trying to create. This is one of my weapons in the fight against procrastination. It's new for me so I can't claim consistent use. Hopefully, by the end of this meditation cycle, I'll be able to say different.

Now, let me give you the Law of Amen and insights from my meditation last night. I have personalized the Law from the words of Ra Un Nefer Amen in his book, Maat: the 11 Laws of God.

Amen: I am made in the likeness of a peace that nothing can disturb. I reclaim my peace that I may attain to the reason I have come into existence -- the enjoyment of life.

Insights:

• My limited ability to keep my word, make a commitment, or tell the truth, especially in times of strained emotions, is a recognition of my own sense of powerlessness and that someone or something has authority that is superior to my own.
• Living as a Divine Being, I should have no need to recognize another entity as having superior power to my own. Being is being. All power comes from the same source and we all have access to that power.
• Anything that causes me to feel powerless only has the power that I acknowledge it has, meaning that I empower it through my recognition of it. I can simply image things that scare me being burned by the fires of Ra, reducing impurities to ashes, leaving behind truth -- something that should be easy to manage.

Well, that's it for now. Thanks so much for joining me for another mediation cycle. I wish you great fortune. Until next time,
Hetep

Tree of Life Meditation System -- Day 18 -- Seker

Hetep Everyone,

The journey of this meditation cycle has been quite a ride. I've gone from feeling sorry for myself because I did not know how to evaluate my worth, to looking at my Self from the point of view of a Divine Being, and then back to looking at my worth to help cultivate my ego into one that is healthy, yet submissive to Ausar. This last area has been the most revealing.

I have discovered that I basically have been a very sad person, malnourished of joy. To counteract this, I have been actively seeking images of joy for the things that I do on a daily basis. Sometimes, this is very difficult because I am so used to complaining, that I find I have no idea what joyful images I can use to replace the ones that are sad. I am committed, however, to finding joyful images. I desire greatly to practice the belief that there is always something to be glad about if you look hard enough for it.

Why is this so important?

Life force energy (Ra, Chi, Kundalini) is greatly assisted by joy (Het-Heru energy) and greatly drained by negative emotions. My profound sadness is a reflection of my depleted life force energy. Joyful images inspire joyful thoughts, feelings, and actions; thus, a joyful life -- a life worth living; a life worthy of a Divine Being.

The opposite, of course, is true. Negative images inspire negative (limited) thoughts, feelings, and actions; thus, a negative life -- a devalued life; a life beset by the limitations of only being a human being. This is a life that has no hope of reaching the energy level of the unfathomable spiritual power of Seker.

Well, that's it for now. Until next time,
Hetep

Until next time,
Hetep

Know Thyself -- Pollyanna and The Glad Game

There came a point in my life when I became tired of feeling angry all of the time. I realized that I did not know what joy was. That was one heck of an insight because I was 38 years old. So, I asked the Universe to help me to experience joy.

I came across a definition of happiness in the Metu Neterthat expressed exactly what I was looking for. It states, "To embrace the joy of inner peace and tranquility -- unassailable by externals, is happiness." The part that got me was "unassailable". Was it possible to find a happiness that could not be attacked? I opened myself up to this possibility.

What came to me was the idea to watch the movie Pollyanna -- just for fun. I watched both the 1960 Hayley Mills version and the 2004 BBC version. The later BBC version sparked me to read the original 1913 version of the book. There was something in the Glad Game that I couldn't put my finger on. I kept re-watching the movie and rereading the book. Normally, after a reference to "heathens", I never would have touched the book again or watched the movie again, but the appeal of the Glad Game was much stronger than my repulsion.

It took me months to work out what I was observing. Here's a breakdown of it. In the Metu Neter vol. 2, I learned that the sun is not merely a burning ball of fire. It generates its own heat perpetually because of the density of its core. We have such a core within our own body. It is an energy that the Ancient Egyptians called Ra, the Hindu call Kundalini, and the Chinese call Chi. It has other names, depending on the culture, but the energy is the same. It is a life force energy that animates our body.

Just as the sun attracts the planets and holds them in its orbit, our life force energy attracts objects to us and creates the world around us. It is what allows the Law of Attraction to work. This is a real force. It is what martial artists use to break boards and cement blocks without hurting themselves. In fact, the National Geographic has a really good episode called Superhuman Powers that demonstrates many uses of this force. Ancient cultures developed these kinds of powers. Generally speaking, the further back you go into their individual histories as interpreted by their own historians, uninfluenced by Westerners, the more you will find that these human "technologies" were used for peaceful means, not so much military conflict. Had this knowledge been used primarily to promote the military as the West surely would have done, the world would have been obliterated thousands of years ago.

Few Westerners are aware that this power lives in them. This is why people joke about having a Pollyanna attitude, positing that this attitude is naive and overlooks reality. Nonetheless, we are all born with a life force. Is it possible that Eleanor H. Porter considered this when she created the character Pollyanna? Well, she could have been a student of Leo Tolstoy who studied transcendental meditation and freed all of his serfs. The name of his home, coincidentally, was Yasnaya Polyana. There may be a connection. In any case, the Glad Game, when played, enhances your life force.

Here's how the Glad Game works: You Literally stop and find something to be glad about in every situation, especially when you think things have gone wrong. Gratitude has a much higher vibration than misery. Through gratitude, you attract into your life the things that you want to have. Through misery, a lower vibration, you usually attract into your life more of the things that you don't want. Your focus and your feelings determine what keeps showing up in your life.

The character Pollyanna is sunshine. She attracts and holds people in her orbit like a lit candle flame attracting moths. Also, by teaching the game to others, like that same lit candle, she gave light to others without diminishing her own. In fact, when her light went out after an experience too overwhelming for her tender 11 years, others came to relight it for her.

There is a lot more to my experience with the story of Pollyanna, but I'll have to tell it later. Suffice it to say that my course was set. No more will I settle for thoughts, feelings, or actions that promote my anger. I try to banish, angry thoughts and feelings and apologize with remorse for angry actions. It is work because I have to make conscious efforts to change, and, thanks to the Metu Neter, I am reprogramming my subconscious through meditation to make the changes permanent parts of my personality. All of this has been worthwhile and made life seem much less of a burden.