Tree of Life Meditation System -- Day 8 -- Het-Heru

Hetep Everyone,

Once again, here is my meditation objective for this meditation cycle: I want to see my transformation into a Divine Being as I learn to pause and consciously observe my decision processes before I act.

If the world were perfect, what would it look like? For me, everyone would live according to the 11 laws of Maat or some version of it -- not just pay lip service. We would be taught these laws in the womb and have perfect examples of living the laws all around us. Beyond this, however, I don't have a clue. What would I do in such an environment? What would you do if you had nothing to worry about and your work and family were fulfilling and balanced?

Trying to answer those questions is a whole lot better than worrying, but somehow, it seems too big for me now. Why don't I just start small? What if I could get what I wanted, in perfect balance? This is a new concept for me because I've spent most of my life running away from what I've wanted. However, all of my preparation since this past year has gone into answering this question through personal experience. Look out world.

Here is the Law of Het-Heru, personalized form the words of Ra Un Nefer Amen in his book, Maat: the 11 Laws of God.

Het-Heru: It is not what I imagine. It is who is imagining it. Am I a human or a Divine Being?

How do I break the Law of Het-Heru by not pausing and observing?

I can't imagine what is on the other side of the equation. How do I truly want to live? I don't fully realize that I can have what I want right now.

That is all for now. I wish you great fortune. Until next time,
Hetep

Tree of Life Meditation System -- Day 5 -- Maat

Hetep Everyone,

Once again, here, is my meditation objective for this meditation cycle: I want to see my transformation into a Divine Being as I learn to pause and consciously observe my decision processes before I act.

Many of my posts contain writings about my desire to transform into a Divine Being. Of course, what I mean by that is that I want to resurrect the dormant Ausar energies that are all ready inside of me. The question in the back of my mind has always been what will this new perception I seek look like?

I've been using as my model the perception of reality that already exists; however, I know that the perception I want is one that I cannot see, the one that is more wonderful than I can imagine in my current limited state of existence. My meditation has brought me a way to access a new vision. Something really obvious.

I have memorized the 11 Laws of Maat and can recite them. Also, I have memorized an affirmation to accompany the laws. The problem is that I don't speak the language of the laws. Each law represents a field of energy and descriptive aspects that can be applied to personalities and situations. Some of these traits or shaping factors can be found in the Metu Neter vol. 1, pages 266-299 and 371-378.

If I add these aspects to my repertoire for the laws, then I should have enough verbiage to begin to speak the language of the laws and form coinciding images. The point of this is to use the energies of Sebek (language) and Het-Heru (images) to help reprogram my perception.

This may sound extreme, but continuing to reinforce the images and thoughts that have proved so limiting to me seems to me to be extreme. It's worth a shot.

Here is the Law of Maat, personalized form the words of Ra Un Nefer Amen in his book, Maat: the 11 Laws of God.

Maat: God needs me in order to come into the world. Fulfilling God's need is the highest act of love and only through my love for God can I fulfill my love for others. I become the love of God in the world for the protection of the world.

How do I break the Law of Maat by not pausing and observing?

I reinforce the same language and images that I am familiar with, perpetuating the same reality. This limits how I observe my thoughts, feelings and actions and it limits the new reality I can create.

That is all for now. I wish you great fortune. Until next time,
Hetep

Tree of Life Meditation System -- Day 14 -- Het-Heru

Hetep Everyone,

Last night's meditation was designed to reprogram the images I use to energize my actions toward achieving my meditation objective.

Once again, here is my objective: I want to experience my purpose in God's Divine plan based upon truthful premises, determined by relationships of how my functions (thoughts, feelings, and actions) fit the form I'm trying to create (my purpose).

I was, through mediumistic trance, to link joy to achieving my objective while chanting the word of power (heka), "kling."

I woke up this morning with a more clear definition of joy -- an excitement; the love for doing; when your hands shake because you know you're about to turn nothing into something or transform something into something better.

These images, applied to my functions (thoughts feelings and actions), will help to make it easier to create the form of my purpose.

Well, that's it for now. I wish you great fortune. Until next time,
Hetep

Tree of Life Meditation System -- Day 10 -- Auset

Hetep Everyone,

Thoughts pop into my mind all day. Most times -- no, I can't truthfully say that anymore -- quite often, these thoughts are awful, very negative scenarios. They come in the forms of daydreams, absorptions, moments of absent-mindedness, or emotional states. All of these forms are types of trances as described by Ra Un Nefer Amen in his book, Tree of Life Meditation System, page 200.

These forms of thought belong to the territory of Auset. It is Heru's job to interrupt these types of thoughts as they do not serve my efforts to subjugate my ego identity (Auset) to my Divine Being (Ausar). Growing stronger at interrupting these thoughts means that I am strengthening my skills at Men Ab meditation. This is a wakeful meditation, specifically designed to teach us how to vigilantly interrupt or block thoughts that do not serve our Divinity.

In addition to those runaway thoughts being negative and dis-serving, they are almost always false. They feed and energize dis-serving illusions that are difficult to discern. Almost always, this leads to dis-serving behavior and decisions based upon false information.

Being unable to distinguish between illusion and truth has gotten so bad for me that I have been unable to rely on my intuition. It's been like a vicious circle, chasing my own tail, trying to determine truth from illusion. In trying to develop the skills of Men Ab, I was working from the premise that the cultivation was a complex process, but now I feel that if I just learn to block those awful thoughts, I'll be able to advance from there as I grow in my understanding.

What does this have to do with my meditation objective? Once again, here is my objective: I want to experience my purpose in God's Divine plan based upon truthful premises, determined by relationships of how my functions (thoughts, feelings, and actions) fit the form I'm trying to create (my purpose).

Here is possibly the greatest insight I have received from this meditation cycle.

Choice is the main focus of conscious, deliberate meditation whether it is Men Ab or trance. If you have followed my meditation posts for a while, then you already know that I do not respond well to being or feeling forced to do things. I adopted this attitude to help me heal from childhood trauma. I have worked hard to learn how to change my perception to desire doing what needs to be done. That way, no force is necessary.

In fact, when those negative thoughts lean toward me feeling that I am forced to do something, I determine the truth of the thought by remembering that Maat's feather represents the lightness of the application of Divine Law. There is no coercion. We must choose. If we are not paying attention, we won't even know that we are being beckoned to follow the laws. This concept helps me to easily dismiss some of my negative thoughts.

Choosing to fit my functions (thoughts, feelings and actions) to the form of creating my Divine purpose is a way of providing structured guidelines for Men Ab meditations -- blocking negative, dis-serving thoughts that hinder my efforts.

The other side of choice, in terms of Heru, is that not only does Heru energy block those awful, behavior-stimulating thoughts, the energy can be used to replace those thoughts with visions and beliefs that support the behavior to create the form of my Divine purpose. It's sort of like a block and counter-punch at the same time.

The Heru energy is designed to fight the energy of Set. Set energy is the energy that we use to justify doing what we know is wrong -- like the saying, "The devil made me do it." Heru wins if we transcend Set's energy and make choices that advance our Divinity on earth. Set wins if we just spend a lot of time debating the issues of transcendence, not to mention, choosing what develops our ego selves.

To quote, Ra Un Nefer Amen from his book, Tree of Life Meditation System, page 177:

Heru is the set of energized ideas aimed at manifesting behavior on the basis of the identity of the waking consciousness with Ausar...Set is the set of energized ideas aimed at manifesting behavior on the basis of the identity of the waking consciousness with the person.

The key here for me is "energized ideas." These energized ideas work for or against our Divinity. The ideas become energized by the energies of spheres 7 (Het-Heru) and 8 (Sebek). The medium through which these energies travel is Auset energy -- trance.

We are now back where we started. Auset energy -- trance energy -- in the forms of daydreams, absorptions, moments of absent-mindedness, or emotional states represent the means of energizing the ideas that support either Divinity (Ausar) or ego (AuSet). I must add to the list of forms of trance, mediumistic trance -- formal sit-down sessions of meditation.

It boils down to this. Either we energize those dis-serving ideas unconsciously or deliberately (Set) or we consciously choose (Heru) to direct the content of our daydreams, absorptions, moments of absent-mindedness, emotional states, and, especially, mediumistic trance sessions. Mediumistic trance greatly assists our desire to use the Heru energy to consciously direct the content of our waking trance states toward our Divinity.

Here is the Law of Auset, personalized from the words of Ra Un Nefer Amen in his book, Maat: the 11 Laws of God.

Auset: I am prepared to sacrifice everything in order to become the vessel of God on earth. In return, I will receive everything.

How do I break the Law of Auset?

I have been guilty of ignoring and trivializing my cultivation of all forms of trance states.

Well, that's it for now. I wish you great fortune. Until next time,
Hetep

Tree of Life Meditation System -- Day 8 -- Het-Heru

Hetep Everyone,

Ra, the life force energy, is necessary to vitalize the images of Het-Heru. These images program our spirit. They either progress spiritual development or decay it. I want always to consciously choose images that progress my spiritual development.

For me, one of the results or benefits of projecting love energy has been experiencing a great deal of vitality -- a higher intensity of my life force energy.

What does this have to do with my meditation objective? Once again, here it is: I want to experience my purpose in God's Divine plan based upon truthful premises, determined by relationships of how my functions (thoughts, feelings, and actions) fit the form I'm trying to create (my purpose).

Holding in my mind an image of the form that I'm trying to create will make it easier to create that form. Vitalizing the image with the Ra, life force energy, will help creating the form even easier.

Here is the Law of Het-Heru, personalized from the words of Ra Un Nefer Amen in his book, Maat: the 11 Laws of God.

Het-Heru: It is not what I imagine. It is who is imagining. Am I a human or a Divine Being?

How do I break the Law of Het-Heru?

Sometimes, it is difficult for me to see the form I am trying to create, my purpose.

Well, that's it for now. I wish you great fortune. Until next time,
Hetep

Tree of Life Meditation System -- Day 18 -- Seker

Hetep Everyone,

The journey of this meditation cycle has been quite a ride. I've gone from feeling sorry for myself because I did not know how to evaluate my worth, to looking at my Self from the point of view of a Divine Being, and then back to looking at my worth to help cultivate my ego into one that is healthy, yet submissive to Ausar. This last area has been the most revealing.

I have discovered that I basically have been a very sad person, malnourished of joy. To counteract this, I have been actively seeking images of joy for the things that I do on a daily basis. Sometimes, this is very difficult because I am so used to complaining, that I find I have no idea what joyful images I can use to replace the ones that are sad. I am committed, however, to finding joyful images. I desire greatly to practice the belief that there is always something to be glad about if you look hard enough for it.

Why is this so important?

Life force energy (Ra, Chi, Kundalini) is greatly assisted by joy (Het-Heru energy) and greatly drained by negative emotions. My profound sadness is a reflection of my depleted life force energy. Joyful images inspire joyful thoughts, feelings, and actions; thus, a joyful life -- a life worth living; a life worthy of a Divine Being.

The opposite, of course, is true. Negative images inspire negative (limited) thoughts, feelings, and actions; thus, a negative life -- a devalued life; a life beset by the limitations of only being a human being. This is a life that has no hope of reaching the energy level of the unfathomable spiritual power of Seker.

Well, that's it for now. Until next time,
Hetep

Until next time,
Hetep

Tree of Life Meditation System -- Day 14 -- Het-Heru

Hetep Everyone,

This meditation cycle is about experiencing my worth as a Divine Being. I've discovered that one of the obstacles for achieving this goal is my tendency to have crippling anxiety attacks, making it difficult for me to function properly or consistently. These anxiety attacks are triggered by preconditioned responses to experiences that feel like the sources of trauma which have occurred throughout my life since my infancy. These anxiety attacks are based upon illusions that seem real. My responses to the illusions are feelings of powerlessness and a sense of being stripped of authority. In most cases, the situation does not warrant such responses, but, because my emotions are real, I cannot accurately evaluate the situation, and, therefore, cannot provide a proper response.

What is the solution? I'm discovering that there are many solutions.

• I could learn to pause and see through the illusions.
• I could use the technique that I used to heal part of my anxiety -- regressive meditation, going back to the point in my infancy that I have identified as the source or one of the sources of the anxiety.
• I could cultivate my understanding of my Divine purpose. I have a funny feeling, however, that I am living my purpose, sharing my journey of healing with you. Perhaps I expected that fulfilling my purpose would be something huge and glamorous, creating lots and lots of money.
  
  Maybe, instead of cultivating an understanding of my purpose, I should cultivate acceptance of it.
• I could cultivate joy (passion) for living my purpose.
• I could cultivate my Ra (life force energy) and direct it toward living my purpose.

I have a great many psychological barriers protecting the sources of my anxiety. My goal is just to keep hammering at them in different ways until they shatter.

During this meditation cycle, I tried looking at my Self as a Divine Being and discovered that, alone, this was not enough. I needed to go back and look at my egoic self. This is what I am doing now. It's very painful, but tolerable, as long as I continue to exercise patience with myself.

One thing that I have noticed is that it is difficult for me to see myself having what I want or even to picture what I want for myself. This is a Pam-being-kind-to-Pam problem -- one that is perfect for Het-Heru.

Okay, just to put all of this together, if I use my Ra (life force) to stimulate my imagination, I could create images in which I see my actions of accepting my Divine purpose, and, therefore, my worth as a Divine Being.

Along these lines, I want to share this quote with you from Ra Un Nefer Amen's book, Tree of Life Meditation System (T.O.L.M.)p. 186.

"Actions cannot be carried out without energy. The energies through which we are motivated (that provide the motor power -e-motions, passions) to act in the world, are invoked and organized by the images manipulated through the faculty of imagination."

All of this, of course, has to be taken into mediumistic trance meditation in order to program this information into my spirit so that I can use it as an act of will and automatic response.

Well, that's it for now. Until next time,
Hetep

Tree of Life Meditation System -- Day 8 -- Het-Heru

Hetep Everyone,

I see myself as a human,filled with limitations. Mostly, my perception of life is influenced by a paradigm of scarcity. I don't have enough time, patience, energy, money, space, love, compassion, resources, etc.

From an intellectual standpoint, I know that the Creator of all operates from a paradigm of abundance. Think about this. You plant one seed. It grows and produces numerous fruits, which each have seeds that could be planted, also producing numerous fruits.

Scarcity is a concept given to us by people who want to hoard their bounty.

When it comes to grocery stores, paying rent, going to work, scarcity seems pretty real, but real is what we choose to identify as real. People who think "outside of the box" have different supportive perceptions, and, therefore, different realities.

My head knows all of this. Now, I just have to get my heart and will to learn it.

Here is the Law of Het-Heru, personalized from the words of Ra Un Nefer Amen in his book Maat: the 11 Laws of God.

Het-Heru: It is not what I imagine. It is who is imagining. Am I a human or a Divine Being?

How do I break the Law of God by not experiencing my worth as a Divine Being?

I still see myself as a human and not a Divine Being.

That's it for now. Until next time,
Hetep

Tree of Life Meditation System -- 14 -- Het-Heru

Hetep Everyone,

Last night's meditation concerned Het-Heru. At this stage, each meditation has specific objectives. Here are the Het-Heru objectives from Ra Un Nefer Amen's Tree of Life Meditation System:

• To develop the ability to invoke emotions, especially joy, at will.

• To develop the awareness that our imagination is the means through which we cultivate our emotions, and is therefore the source of our wishes, wants, and supposed needs.

Let's start with the first objective. For some reason, throughout all of the meditation cycles that I've performed, I just haven't focused on this one too much. I think it has quite a lot to do with lack of belief that it's really possible to go from say anxiety to joy at will. It's one of the things I intend to work on. Until such time, I will admit that with all of the trauma in my life that has led to my having life-long crippling anxiety, the time between attacks and recovery has greatly lessened since I've been using the meditation system and this is without having anxiety recovery as a specific objective. That's life-changing.

Now, for the second objective -- This one is easier for me to reason out...I am to become consciously aware that I use my imagination to cultivate my emotions. Our imagination are very easy to change when we are consciously aware that we are using it. The problem is that we aren't always aware that our emotions are fed by our imagination.

Okay, I'm feeling anxious about something that I want to do, but believe that it will not manifest so my imagination of disappointment feeds my anxiety and I get locked into being anxious like it's a reaping loop. I get so locked into my emotion that I am unaware of anything else. This is why awareness must be cultivated through mediumistic trance and a program like the meditation system. This will make it easier to detach myself from my emotions and concentrate on the fact that my emotions are fed by illusions from my imagination. It's a way to understand that my anxiety is not real, but based upon something that is as insubstantial as smoke.

My theme for this meditation cycle is to manifest money that I want. I discovered through the earlier part of the cycle that the images I've been running through my mind have not been supportive of my desires. Anxiety has been such a severe problem throughout my entire life that, as I stated in an earlier post, I may need to have this as a theme for an entire cycle. I don't know yet, and, probably won't know until the end of this cycle. Will I finally stop allowing anxiety to stop me from manifesting the money I want? I can't wait to find out.

In the meantime, I must persist as imperfectly as I do, trusting that the meditations will leak through to my waking consciousness as experience has taught me to be possible.

That's it for now. Until next time,
Hetep

Tree of Life Meditation System -- Day 10 -- Auset

Hetep Everyone,

I did not meditate last night. I wanted to confess this so that you could understand what I meant when I said in earlier posts that sometimes my performance during the meditation cycle is lousy. This assessment is a bit strong because I've done much, much worse. But my point is that this is about persistence, not perfection. Not meditating, however, doesn't mean that I didn't get any insights from my nightly ritual of meditation and sleep; it means that my insights did not come from a formal sit-down trance meditation.

Trance meditation is the territory of Auset. Trance meditation consists of changes in consciousness that we go through every day as well as formally sitting down and putting yourself in a calm state that causes you to feel as if you could float away if you wanted.

Everyday trances, according to Ra Un Nefer Amen's Tree of Life Meditation System, includes "daydreams, absorption, moments of absent mindedness, and emotional states." He goes on to point out that during these states of consciousness, as well as formal trance meditation, our minds are receptive to programming our reality. This means that whatever images, beliefs, and ideas that surround us (everything in our environment that we can identify, including our own thoughts, feelings, and actions) become even more entrenched and reinforced into what we believe to be our reality.

The entire point of the Tree of Life Meditation System is to program our thoughts, feelings, and actions with the experiential knowledge that we have the power to change our reality.

Auset, the 9th Sphere on the Tree of Life is the beginning of this programming. Sebek, the 8th Sphere (thoughts, ideas, beliefs), is the second step or tool of programming. Het-Heru, the 7th Sphere(images, joy), is the third and final step or tool.

As stated above, trance relaxes the mind so much that programming what we determine to be reality occurs. It may be difficult to accept "daydreams, absorption, moments of absent mindedness, and emotional states" as trance states in which programming our reality occurs, but think about how often the same images and thoughts repeatedly run through your mind, reinforcing emotions or intentions. Usually, this repetition builds until a result is produced. Perhaps the most common example would be how we provoke arguments. Since we quite often enter into "daydreams, absorption, moments of absent mindedness, and emotional states" without conscious effort, we usually don't see the roles we play in provoking arguments. It's "always" someone else's fault.

Formal trance, through the energies of Auset, means that we consciously program our intentions into our subconscious mind. This means also that we consciously use our power to change our reality to what we choose it to be, replacing hopelessness and despair with optimism and expectation.

If you have read some of my earlier posts, then you will know that I have suffered trauma in my childhood and imposed trauma upon myself during my adulthood; therefore, most of my meditation objectives have dealt with healing my psychological wounds and, as a byproduct, healing the physical wounds (illnesses) caused by my psychological wounds. These wounds took decades to manifest with a lot of situations in which I was forced or I forced myself to do things that went against my Being.

This is one of the main reasons why I prefer using the trance meditation of Auset to heal, but this meditation cycle has revealed to me that I MUST balance my trance meditation with Men Ab meditation. Since I'm trying to avoid copyright issues, I selected this picture of the Black Madonna and Child which is meant to represent its original source, Auset and Heru. Heru, the son of Auset, governs Men Ab meditation -- a waking meditation. This means that Heru governs our images and thoughts (Spheres 7 and 8 on the Tree of Life) while we are awake, watching them like a hawk. The nightly meditation (Auset's devotion to Ausar) conceives and nurtures the infant, Heru who becomes the hawk-headed man -- the waking meditation of the day. Consciously programming our reality begins with the mother, Auset.

This puts an entirely different spin on the Madonna and child concept.

Here is the Law of Auset personalized from the words of Ra Un Nefer Amen in his Maat: The 11 Laws of God:

Auset: I am prepared to sacrifice everything in order to become God's vessel on earth. In return, I will receive everything.

Insights: In order to survive the trauma of my life, I consciously chose to escape reality through images and thoughts, books, movies, television, intellectualism, etc. This is the area of my life where I discovered my freedom, but it was not a physical freedom. It was not even a psychological freedom, but it was a type of freedom that helped me to survive.

My efforts to tame and cultivate this mental freedom that I built for myself have been thwarted by a resistance that may by on the level of a death grip. Nevertheless, I must persist if I am to change my physical reality.

Well, this is it for now.
Until next time,

Hetep

Tree of Life Meditation System -- Day 8 -- Het-Heru

Hetep Everyone,

We are surrounded by images that our five senses can detect and identify, defining our reality. We use a lot of our energy to orient ourselves in this reality. Few of us give conscious thought to the images with which we surround ourselves. If we were to give images more thought, we would be much better at directing our emotions.

When I speak of images, I'm not just thinking in terms of two dimensional pictures. I'm also referencing three-dimensional images, including people, pets, houses, cars, symbolic images like political, economic, and social systems, governments, the environment, etc. Images are unlimited by time and space so also, I think in terms of thought processes and the hidden that our senses have not been trained to detect like electromagnetic fields and possibilities and actions that lead to events beyond our sight.

Images are so powerful that one of the first steps in changing reality is changing the images to reflect that reality. Once you develop an emotional attachment or meaning to that image, you will be motivated to take the action necessary to enhance the reality of that image.

Advertisers are brilliant at applying this concept and getting you emotionally hooked on buying their products. Advertisers are not the only ones who do this. We do this every day of our lives. Everything that we are surrounded by is there either because we placed it there or we put ourselves in the situation to be where that image was.

This is one heck of a presumptuous statement, you might say. Well, it is, but I'm also speaking on a cosmic level, considering the fact that we choose our own births. Okay, I don't want to lose track of the subject of images so I'll save the birth issue for another discussion. What really interests me is consciously choosing our images. Just in case you're interested, Feng Shui is a very good place to begin to consciously choose your own images.

Many of us who study the Metu Neter do so because we want to uplift ourselves and our communities out of oppression. We seem to be very clear on what we don't want, but what is it that we really want? Think of the joy we could cultivate from developing those images and the beliefs that could empower them toward manifestation. What if we put all of the energy that we use to complain about what we don't have into creating what we want? What kind of communities and societies would we build? It's a lot to consider.

Here is the Law of Het-Heru, personalized from the words of Ra Un Nefer Amen in his book Maat: The 11 Laws of God.

Het-Heru: It is not what I imagine. It is who is imagining. Am I a Human or a Divine Being?

Insight: For starters, I want to cultivate images that reflect the Divine, Creative being that I am and nurture how this affects my family. I'm witnessing the spreading and growth of peace throughout my family members where desperation reigned. It's slow going, but it's growing. If I don't judge my family for judging me, I find that they eventually accept me.

Another thing about family that I think is true is that all of the problems that we want to fix out there in the community exist in our families. Helping my family is helping the community. From myself to family to community to world -- I think that's a good plan.

That's it for now. Until next time,
Hetep