Tree of Life Meditation System -- Day 12 -- Auset

Hetep Everyone,

Day 12 is the programming phase of the meditation cycle. At this point, I am to tally something called a Spiritual Quotient. This is a measurable account of my alignment with my True Self as a Divine Being.

During the first phase of the cycle, the examining phase, I studied my worth as a Divine Being from the perspectives of each deity or principle on the Tree of Life. Ra Un Nefer Amen, in his book, Tree of Life Meditation System, devotes one chapter per deity to explain these perspectives and possible ways in which I, as the meditator, break each law by not having already what I have requested in the meditation cycle.

At the end of each chapter are questions that help me to assess how well I am complying with each law. Affirmative answers are awarded points. The more points I have at the end of the examining phase, the higher my Spiritual Quotient.

It is difficult for me to amass points because I have difficulty complying with the laws. I could beat myself up and say, "Oh, you're a sinner," but that would not be true. The point of the meditation cycle is to program my spirit, to train myself, to comply with the laws. This takes time and lots of practice. It is almost impossible to read the laws and practice them consistently without training.

You would not expect a 300lb couch potato to run a marathon and then judge him for collapsing after the first quarter mile. But, if he were properly trained and committed to the conditioning, he could, over time, learn to do it -- with joy and enthusiasm. The same thing applies to following the laws.

My spiritual quotient is always very low -- less than 20. As Ra Un Nefer Amen puts it in Tree of Life Meditation System, " A person with a score below 109 is spiritually unstable and greatly dependent on circumstances for stability in their lives" (p. 217). I don't worry about this because I'm committed to following the meditation cycles and I have a lot of areas in my life that need to be reprogrammed. I can see progress.

Once I receive my spiritual quotient, the next step for me is to perform a meditation dedicated to the Sorrows of Auset. This helps me to reflect on genuine remorse for not living my life as a Divine Being and either to manifest my request or to remove my desire for the request.

Following this meditation, I would perform a second meditation in which I envision myself as my True Self -- Divine Being -- performing in a manor consistent with the 11 Laws. By this time, from my studies of myself, I would have some idea of what this manor would be, whether it would be seeing my Self receiving what I requested or performing an action in which my request was no longer needed.

For my Sorrows of Auset meditation, I visualized myself learning how to love me -- my person, my egoic self. I never learned to do this. I would always act under the assumption that I loved myself without any regard for the fact that I was never trained how to do it.

Why would I need training for something that is supposed to be "natural"? I've lived in trauma most of my life, some of it imposed upon me and a lot of it self-imposed. I am a descendant of the Willie Lynch legacies of slavery and segregation. Almost everyone I know suffers from this trauma. I think that training myself how to love myself is pivotal to living my life both as an earth-bound being and as a Divine Being with an infinite existence.

Well, this is all for now. Until next time,
Hetep

Tree of Life Meditation System -- Day 12 -- Auset

Hetep Everyone,

We have reached a turning point in the Tree Of Life Meditation cycle. Last night, I was supposed to tally up my Spiritual Quotient. An SQ is the score that tells you how much in alignment you are with the Divine energies of the Tree of Life. My scores are always so low that I've pretty much stopped counting them. Usually, I get something like 16 points. This is a vast improvement considering how long my score remained zero.

A score that shows enough improvement to talk about is around 109. This means that you have months of consistency at taking great care to cultivate your health, life force, and images and thoughts to support your journey toward becoming a Divine Being on earth. When you are able to pass the test of following all of the Laws of Maat simultaneously, then you are ready to proceed to the highest levels of spirituality, Godhood or Goddesshood on earth. Ra Un Nefer Amen, in his Tree of Life Meditation System , recommends only attempting to reach the level of Maat, suggesting that this is enough work to keep you busy for the rest of your life's incarnation. In essence, don't be in a hurry. It's the journey that counts -- persistence, not perfection.

So much for the Spiritual Quotient. The real business is reprogramming my Self. As I said in an earlier post, Auset, 9th Sphere on the Tree of Life, is the beginning of reprogramming. This part of the cycle consists of two meditations:

• First, reflection upon how I break the Law of Auset and meditating on genuine remorse for breaking the Law. This is important. Remorse is a deep sense of guilt. Without this guilt, called the Sorrows of Auset, there is no genuine desire to change.
• Second, establishing Ausar as the identification of my true indwelling Self. Ausar is the highest on the Tree of Life, second only to Amen. Ausar is the unifier of all reality. This is the energy, the Deity, the God that I seek to run my life instead of my limited ego self. It is at this point where I visualize my Self following the Law of Auset by consistently committing to nightly meditation. Funnily enough, I've never sought to program into my spirit actually committing to nightly meditation. I've always left it to my waking ego conscience, which explains why I've been so inconsistent. Duh!

Once we work our way back down to Amen, there will be another assessment period to see how the programming took. Usually, by that time, something in my life will have changed. It's always a surprise. I've learned that the Universe hardly ever works the way I think it will.

Until next time,
Hetep

Tree of Life Meditation System - Day 1

Hello All,

Today is the day of the New Moon and, therefore, the beginning of a new Tree of Life Meditation (TOLM) Cycle. The TOLM, of course, is based upon Ra Un Nefer Amen's book of the same title.

I was supposed to do the Amen meditation last night, but I was not feeling well and I fell asleep. I have learned not to panic when things like this happen. Experience has taught me to just keep going. Persistence, not perfection, is the key to success.

Well, let me explain how I do things. I select a problem that I want to work on. This month, I want to earn some money that reflects prosperity. Okay, first of all, let me say that I've been doing the TOLM system consecutively for this entire year and this is the first time that my theme has been about a mundane objective. Mostly what I have focused on have been things dealing with unblocking obstacles that have frozen my life. Now, I feel confident enough to pursue this.

Just a side note -- for each objective, no matter how lousy or well I did, I was always able to see some marked improvement in my life. Take heart and keep on pushing.

So, last night, I was supposed to meditate on how I broke the law of Amen by not manifesting the money I want. Here is the reason behind the presumption that I am breaking the law of Amen: if I were not breaking this law, I would be able to manifest the money instantly, merely by thinking of it and seeing it in my hands. Since I am unable to do this, I have to take the long way around and clear out the obstacles that are preventing me from having the money.

I came up with the following understanding of my law-breaking activities today rather than last night. Here is the law of Amen as well as some ways that I am breaking itself:

Amen - I am made in the likeness of a peace that nothing can disturb. I reclaim my peace so that I may attain to the reason that I have come into existence -- the enjoyment of life.

You may have noticed that I have personalized the wording of the law as given by Ra Un Nefer Amen. I find that I prefer to say the law this way.

1. I break the law of Amen by believing that the circumstances in my life where that money feels like "lack" are circumstances that are conditioned. That is to say, that those circumstances are nearly impossible to change.

2. My peace is disturbed when I think about what I don't have.

3. I get anxious when I think about what having that money could do to help others who seem to need it so much.

Okay, this should give you some idea of what it's like to examine my relationship with the deity Amen. I've got a lot of work to do to cultivate the energy of peace. It's okay. Like I said, it's about persistence, not perfection. I always have a spiritual quotient score of "0" for Amen -- for nearly all the deities, in fact. I don't worry about it anymore. It's too overwhelming; however, the rewards I get for trying without worrying are to good to allow me to stop.

Well, that's it for now
Peace, Hetep