Tree of Life Meditation System -- Day 10 -- Auset

Hetep Everyone,

Once again, here is my meditation objective for this meditation cycle: I want to see my transformation into a Divine Being as I learn to pause and consciously observe my decision processes before I act.

Sometimes, I find myself slipping back into old habits. I don't meditate when I would like to or I don't eat the way I would like to. I just act as if I know nothing about spirituality. I get caught up in my lower nature of fears, anxieties, other people's dramas, etc. I have discovered that when I get this lost, I can find my way back by breathing. If I can reestablish my desired breathing patterns, then everything else eventually falls back into place.

Well, I have been practicing something similar with thinking. Thinking, as you may already know, can lead to ego. This may be why: thinking is filled with judging, assessing, and evaluating. These activities seem to be the basis of the unchecked ideas and images that flood our minds when we think. This type of thinking is egoic because we are always comparing our thoughts, feelings, and actions to those of others and we do this with situations as well. So, I'm trying to pause my thoughts in the following manner: to stop thinking, I must stop judging, assessing, and evaluating. I've had a lot of success in catching myself being caught up in my own ego. Ego, you may recall, is the territory of Auset.

Here is the Law of Auset, personalized form the words of Ra Un Nefer Amen in his book, Maat: the 11 Laws of God.

Auset: I am prepared to sacrifice everything in order to become God's vessel on earth. In return, I will receive everything.

How do I break the Law of Auset by not pausing and observing?

I still operate from my ego, my lower nature.

That is all for now. I wish you great fortune. Until next time,
Hetep

Tree of Life Meditation System -- Day 2 -- Ausar

Hetep Everyone,

Here, is my meditation objective for this meditation cycle: I want to see my transformation into a Divine Being as I learn to pause and consciously observe my decision processes before I act.

In order to choose transformation over what I already know, it makes sense to me that I must have better images, thoughts, and affirmations to transform into. Where do these better concepts come from? Ausar, the energy of which can only come from the pauses and nonjudgmental observations. I, the ego (Auset), do not have to force this knowledge. It will rise up out of me. This is the resurrection of Ausar.

However, pausing and observing without judgment will take lots and lots of practice, because I have to keep choosing to do it. The image that came to me was that of the movie Malcolm X, when (if I remember the scene correctly) Elijah Muhammad explains to Malcolm that people will choose to drink dirty water if they don't know that there is a better choice. Well, you know how there is that saying that when you know better, you do better? In order to embrace that statement, I have to define "know" according to the Metu Neter -- knowledge comes from experience, not information.

For me, in terms of choosing transformation as opposed to habitually choosing that which is familiar to me, the most important part is the nonjudgmental observation. Over and over again, I have to observe my choices. This is what I have to get good at so that eventually, like a baby newly walking, who, from experience, learns that walking is better than crawling, I will choose from knowledge, transformation and evolution.

Here is the Law of Ausar, personalized form the words of Ra Un Nefer Amen in his book, Maat: the 11 Laws of God.

Ausar: My nature is an unconquerable peace; therefore, nothing and no one in the world can be against me. All experiences come to me to promote my reclamation of peace so that I may acquire wisdom and power.

How do I break the Law of Ausar by not pausing and observing?

I do not embrace my connection to the unknown and unfamiliar, thus, I limit my transformation -- my evolution.

That is all for now. I wish you great fortune. Until next time,
Hetep

Tree of Life Meditation System -- Day 1 -- Amen

Hetep Everyone,

Here, is my meditation objective for this meditation cycle: I want to see my transformation into a Divine Being as I learn to pause and consciously observe my decision processes before I act.

What does this mean? One of the things that I learned in the last meditation cycle was how very important it is for me to work on my transformation as a Divine Being. By this I mean that I already am a Divine Being; however, that part of me is still submerged by my ego (Auset). I must transform my ego so that it becomes receptive to my divinity, allowing it (Ausar) to resurrect itself. That is what this entire journey is about for me, living as Ausar. From my understanding, pausing (Men Ab -- Heru) and observing with the eye of Tehuti is the key to living as Ausar 24 hours a day.

I want to become conscious of the repetition of the processes I use to make decisions. I have been looking for a way to transform without feeling that I am forced to do so. One of the affirmations in Ra Un Nefer Amen's Tree of Life Meditation System states, "God does not compel me to do what is right..." If there is any force applied at all it is done, not with a whip, but Maat's feather. What if the mere at of observing myself without judgment is a major key to assisting my transformation. I think the theory is worth a meditation cycle, especially since it will help me to stop judging myself.

Here is how I came to this idea: DNA contains a replicating function. In an earlier post, I compared this replication to our thought processes -- how we repeat the same thoughts over and over again while replaying the accompanying images. I was really good at using this replication to produce actions that led to consequences that I really did not want. I realized that if I paused the thought, I could pause the replication and intensification of the emotions. As a result, I'm much better at transforming my emotions.

I'm still growing into the application of this understanding, however, which is the reason for this cycle's objective of pausing and observing. During the time I am able to pause, it is my intention to apply a formula that has come to me: From form to formlessness = transformation/reformation. In observing the formlessness of form, I wish to perceive better images, thoughts, and affirmations, which should stimulate better transformations (realities), leading to my Divinity.

Not pausing means that I automatically repeat similar thoughts, feelings and actions -- the same reality that I already know; thus, no transformation.

Here is the Law of Amen, personalized form the words of Ra Un Nefer Amen in his book, Maat: the 11 Laws of God.

Amen: I am made in the likeness of a peace that nothing can disturb. I reclaim my peace that I may attain to the reason I have come into existence -- the enjoyment of life.

How do I break the Law of Amen by not pausing and observing?

I deny the formlessness of Amen and thus the potential to create what is yet to be born.

That is all for now. I wish you great fortune. Until next time,
Hetep

Tree of Life Meditation System -- Day 12 -- Auset

Hetep Everyone,

This is the programming phase of the meditation cycle. For the next 10 days, I will be reprogramming my spirit to accept my meditation objective.

Once again, here is my objective: I want to experience my purpose in God's Divine plan based upon truthful premises, determined by relationships of how my functions (thoughts, feelings, and actions) fit the form I'm trying to create (my purpose).

I will program this objective into my spirit by aligning my spirit with the energies of the deities of the Tree of Life. The programming begins with Auset (Sphere 9), at the base of the Tree of Life. This energy allows me to express remorse for my thoughts, feelings, and actions that are preventing me from living as a Divine Being. Also, this energy assists me in opening my spirit so that it becomes receptive to resurrecting the Ausar energy, which will allow me to manifest my meditation objective.

Well, that's all for now. I wish you great fortune. Until next time,
Hetep

Tree of Life Meditation System -- Day 10 -- Auset

Hetep Everyone,

Thoughts pop into my mind all day. Most times -- no, I can't truthfully say that anymore -- quite often, these thoughts are awful, very negative scenarios. They come in the forms of daydreams, absorptions, moments of absent-mindedness, or emotional states. All of these forms are types of trances as described by Ra Un Nefer Amen in his book, Tree of Life Meditation System, page 200.

These forms of thought belong to the territory of Auset. It is Heru's job to interrupt these types of thoughts as they do not serve my efforts to subjugate my ego identity (Auset) to my Divine Being (Ausar). Growing stronger at interrupting these thoughts means that I am strengthening my skills at Men Ab meditation. This is a wakeful meditation, specifically designed to teach us how to vigilantly interrupt or block thoughts that do not serve our Divinity.

In addition to those runaway thoughts being negative and dis-serving, they are almost always false. They feed and energize dis-serving illusions that are difficult to discern. Almost always, this leads to dis-serving behavior and decisions based upon false information.

Being unable to distinguish between illusion and truth has gotten so bad for me that I have been unable to rely on my intuition. It's been like a vicious circle, chasing my own tail, trying to determine truth from illusion. In trying to develop the skills of Men Ab, I was working from the premise that the cultivation was a complex process, but now I feel that if I just learn to block those awful thoughts, I'll be able to advance from there as I grow in my understanding.

What does this have to do with my meditation objective? Once again, here is my objective: I want to experience my purpose in God's Divine plan based upon truthful premises, determined by relationships of how my functions (thoughts, feelings, and actions) fit the form I'm trying to create (my purpose).

Here is possibly the greatest insight I have received from this meditation cycle.

Choice is the main focus of conscious, deliberate meditation whether it is Men Ab or trance. If you have followed my meditation posts for a while, then you already know that I do not respond well to being or feeling forced to do things. I adopted this attitude to help me heal from childhood trauma. I have worked hard to learn how to change my perception to desire doing what needs to be done. That way, no force is necessary.

In fact, when those negative thoughts lean toward me feeling that I am forced to do something, I determine the truth of the thought by remembering that Maat's feather represents the lightness of the application of Divine Law. There is no coercion. We must choose. If we are not paying attention, we won't even know that we are being beckoned to follow the laws. This concept helps me to easily dismiss some of my negative thoughts.

Choosing to fit my functions (thoughts, feelings and actions) to the form of creating my Divine purpose is a way of providing structured guidelines for Men Ab meditations -- blocking negative, dis-serving thoughts that hinder my efforts.

The other side of choice, in terms of Heru, is that not only does Heru energy block those awful, behavior-stimulating thoughts, the energy can be used to replace those thoughts with visions and beliefs that support the behavior to create the form of my Divine purpose. It's sort of like a block and counter-punch at the same time.

The Heru energy is designed to fight the energy of Set. Set energy is the energy that we use to justify doing what we know is wrong -- like the saying, "The devil made me do it." Heru wins if we transcend Set's energy and make choices that advance our Divinity on earth. Set wins if we just spend a lot of time debating the issues of transcendence, not to mention, choosing what develops our ego selves.

To quote, Ra Un Nefer Amen from his book, Tree of Life Meditation System, page 177:

Heru is the set of energized ideas aimed at manifesting behavior on the basis of the identity of the waking consciousness with Ausar...Set is the set of energized ideas aimed at manifesting behavior on the basis of the identity of the waking consciousness with the person.

The key here for me is "energized ideas." These energized ideas work for or against our Divinity. The ideas become energized by the energies of spheres 7 (Het-Heru) and 8 (Sebek). The medium through which these energies travel is Auset energy -- trance.

We are now back where we started. Auset energy -- trance energy -- in the forms of daydreams, absorptions, moments of absent-mindedness, or emotional states represent the means of energizing the ideas that support either Divinity (Ausar) or ego (AuSet). I must add to the list of forms of trance, mediumistic trance -- formal sit-down sessions of meditation.

It boils down to this. Either we energize those dis-serving ideas unconsciously or deliberately (Set) or we consciously choose (Heru) to direct the content of our daydreams, absorptions, moments of absent-mindedness, emotional states, and, especially, mediumistic trance sessions. Mediumistic trance greatly assists our desire to use the Heru energy to consciously direct the content of our waking trance states toward our Divinity.

Here is the Law of Auset, personalized from the words of Ra Un Nefer Amen in his book, Maat: the 11 Laws of God.

Auset: I am prepared to sacrifice everything in order to become the vessel of God on earth. In return, I will receive everything.

How do I break the Law of Auset?

I have been guilty of ignoring and trivializing my cultivation of all forms of trance states.

Well, that's it for now. I wish you great fortune. Until next time,
Hetep

Tree of Life Meditation System -- Day 12 -- Auset

Hetep Everyone,

Day 12 is the programming phase of the meditation cycle. At this point, I am to tally something called a Spiritual Quotient. This is a measurable account of my alignment with my True Self as a Divine Being.

During the first phase of the cycle, the examining phase, I studied my worth as a Divine Being from the perspectives of each deity or principle on the Tree of Life. Ra Un Nefer Amen, in his book, Tree of Life Meditation System, devotes one chapter per deity to explain these perspectives and possible ways in which I, as the meditator, break each law by not having already what I have requested in the meditation cycle.

At the end of each chapter are questions that help me to assess how well I am complying with each law. Affirmative answers are awarded points. The more points I have at the end of the examining phase, the higher my Spiritual Quotient.

It is difficult for me to amass points because I have difficulty complying with the laws. I could beat myself up and say, "Oh, you're a sinner," but that would not be true. The point of the meditation cycle is to program my spirit, to train myself, to comply with the laws. This takes time and lots of practice. It is almost impossible to read the laws and practice them consistently without training.

You would not expect a 300lb couch potato to run a marathon and then judge him for collapsing after the first quarter mile. But, if he were properly trained and committed to the conditioning, he could, over time, learn to do it -- with joy and enthusiasm. The same thing applies to following the laws.

My spiritual quotient is always very low -- less than 20. As Ra Un Nefer Amen puts it in Tree of Life Meditation System, " A person with a score below 109 is spiritually unstable and greatly dependent on circumstances for stability in their lives" (p. 217). I don't worry about this because I'm committed to following the meditation cycles and I have a lot of areas in my life that need to be reprogrammed. I can see progress.

Once I receive my spiritual quotient, the next step for me is to perform a meditation dedicated to the Sorrows of Auset. This helps me to reflect on genuine remorse for not living my life as a Divine Being and either to manifest my request or to remove my desire for the request.

Following this meditation, I would perform a second meditation in which I envision myself as my True Self -- Divine Being -- performing in a manor consistent with the 11 Laws. By this time, from my studies of myself, I would have some idea of what this manor would be, whether it would be seeing my Self receiving what I requested or performing an action in which my request was no longer needed.

For my Sorrows of Auset meditation, I visualized myself learning how to love me -- my person, my egoic self. I never learned to do this. I would always act under the assumption that I loved myself without any regard for the fact that I was never trained how to do it.

Why would I need training for something that is supposed to be "natural"? I've lived in trauma most of my life, some of it imposed upon me and a lot of it self-imposed. I am a descendant of the Willie Lynch legacies of slavery and segregation. Almost everyone I know suffers from this trauma. I think that training myself how to love myself is pivotal to living my life both as an earth-bound being and as a Divine Being with an infinite existence.

Well, this is all for now. Until next time,
Hetep

Tree of Life Meditation System -- Day 10 -- Auset

Hetep Everyone,

I think I may have made a big, but correctable mistake. When I began this meditation cycle, I wanted not just to understand my worth, but to experience it as a Divine Being. I realized that I was focusing a great deal on understanding why I felt unworthy. Since I was manifesting reasons for feeling unworthy instead of solutions for feeling worthy, I realized that I could focus more on being a Divine Being, which surely should lead to solutions that would allow me to feel worthy.

I believe that this plan is working. I have manifested a tremendous insight. When speaking to a community elder about wanting to feel more worthy, she said my problem was a "Pam-being-kind-to-Pam problem." She meant that I can be very kind to others, but I have a huge problem being kind to myself.

One Sista said about me that I don't feel that I deserve the kindness and that she understood it because she had the same problem -- that this is a part of the legacy left to us by Willie Lynch. She told me that feeling unworthy is a bigger problem in the black community than I could imagine and that I was not alone.

My mistake was that although I heard what these women said, I did not internalize it. I brushed aside the importance of being kind to myself.

Before I get into this I must say that one aspect of Auset is that Auset energy represents the personality, the ego -- the side of me that wants to feel worthy. I want to give you the law of Auset and then discuss how I am breaking this law.

Here is the Law of Auset, personalized from the words of Ra Un Nefer Amen in his book, Maat: the 11 Laws of God.

Auset: I am prepared to sacrifice everything in order to become God's vessel on earth. In return, I will receive everything.

How do I break the Law of Auset by not experiencing my worth as a Divine Being?

Auset represents the 9th Sphere on the Tree of Life. The complement to Auset is Ausar, the 1st Sphere. Since Auset represents the ego, then Ausar represents the Divine Being. These two faculties are like pedals on a bicycle. Both are needed to move the vehicle. Having only one will not work.

In my effort to focus only on my Self as a Divine Being (an aspect of Ausar), I may have been trying to ride a bicycle with only one pedal.

I'm going to listen to my elder and my Sista and learn to be kind to myself while still being submissive to my Self as a Divine Being. I'll begin by listening to India.Arie's I'm Having a Private Party. Ashe!

That is it for now. Until next time,
Hetep

Tree of Life Meditation System -- Day 17 -- Maat

Hetep Everyone,

Ra Un Nefer Amen tells us that Divine Law is an expression of the inter-relationship between all things. What in the world does this mean? When I first began the Tree of Life Meditation System (TOLM), I always skipped over this information because I didn't understand it. I don't claim to fully understand it, but this is as much a mission of mine as mastering Men Ab and Waking meditation.

The way I picture the inter-relationship and interdependency of Divine Law is like a machine (bicycle-type) with 11 wheels bound by one chain all turning together to move you forward. There must be a great deal of order and structure to coordinate this movement or it won't work. This means that movements are free, but limited to their own space. This is Maat keeping everything in order so that structural integrity is maintained.

When I started this meditation cycle, I wanted to manifest some money. This was the first time that I had done a cycle concerning something so tangible. I was very skeptical about being able to meet my objective. My life experiences have conditioned my perspective so that I expect disappointment and fear success. If you've read some of my earlier posts then you may have a clearer picture as to how this backwardness developed. Only my work with the TOLM system has given me the courage to attempt to achieve this particular objective.

Every time I begin a cycle, I never know what will reveal itself.The reason for this has mostly to due with Maat. Maat must keep everything in balance. There is no need for me to manifest money if I am not ready to be a good steward of it. First, my weaknesses as a steward must be exposed so that they can be strengthened. Once strengthened, structure and balance will have been established. Then I will be ready to manage successfully the money I receive. Bring my spirit into alignment first, then give me what I want, if it will not disturb the balance of anyone or anything else. This is Maat, maintaining order. This is why spiritual alignment is spiritual cultivation.

Cultivating the spirit takes time, patience, and dedication. This scenario doesn't quite fit with our modern culture, which worships, through deed and action, the instantaneous. According to the Metu Neter, before our five senses can detect the physical objects which have manifested, those objects must first develop through 10 other invisible spheres of creation -- Amen, Sphere 0 through Auset, Sphere 9. If you can believe (Know) that this is true, this means that almost all of processes of existence are invisible.

Think of a pregnant woman. In this Western culture, before they invented machines that could create pictures of the gestation process, people had to simply trust and be patient until the child came. The Metu Neter provides the information we need to understand the processes of spiritual, and, therefore, physical transformation.

In the Tree of Life Meditation System, I found chapter 10, the chapter on Maat to be perhaps the most boring chapter in the book. It's kind of like watching a planted seed grow before it breaks ground. Reading this chapter, like cultivating your spirit is an act of knowing that all of the work you put into it has a great potential for bearing the sweetest fruit -- the fruit on the Tree of Life.

That's it for now. Until next time,
Hetep

Tree of Life Meditation System -- Day 12 -- Auset

Hetep Everyone,

We have reached a turning point in the Tree Of Life Meditation cycle. Last night, I was supposed to tally up my Spiritual Quotient. An SQ is the score that tells you how much in alignment you are with the Divine energies of the Tree of Life. My scores are always so low that I've pretty much stopped counting them. Usually, I get something like 16 points. This is a vast improvement considering how long my score remained zero.

A score that shows enough improvement to talk about is around 109. This means that you have months of consistency at taking great care to cultivate your health, life force, and images and thoughts to support your journey toward becoming a Divine Being on earth. When you are able to pass the test of following all of the Laws of Maat simultaneously, then you are ready to proceed to the highest levels of spirituality, Godhood or Goddesshood on earth. Ra Un Nefer Amen, in his Tree of Life Meditation System , recommends only attempting to reach the level of Maat, suggesting that this is enough work to keep you busy for the rest of your life's incarnation. In essence, don't be in a hurry. It's the journey that counts -- persistence, not perfection.

So much for the Spiritual Quotient. The real business is reprogramming my Self. As I said in an earlier post, Auset, 9th Sphere on the Tree of Life, is the beginning of reprogramming. This part of the cycle consists of two meditations:

• First, reflection upon how I break the Law of Auset and meditating on genuine remorse for breaking the Law. This is important. Remorse is a deep sense of guilt. Without this guilt, called the Sorrows of Auset, there is no genuine desire to change.
• Second, establishing Ausar as the identification of my true indwelling Self. Ausar is the highest on the Tree of Life, second only to Amen. Ausar is the unifier of all reality. This is the energy, the Deity, the God that I seek to run my life instead of my limited ego self. It is at this point where I visualize my Self following the Law of Auset by consistently committing to nightly meditation. Funnily enough, I've never sought to program into my spirit actually committing to nightly meditation. I've always left it to my waking ego conscience, which explains why I've been so inconsistent. Duh!

Once we work our way back down to Amen, there will be another assessment period to see how the programming took. Usually, by that time, something in my life will have changed. It's always a surprise. I've learned that the Universe hardly ever works the way I think it will.

Until next time,
Hetep

Tree of Life Meditation System -- Day 10 -- Auset

Hetep Everyone,

I did not meditate last night. I wanted to confess this so that you could understand what I meant when I said in earlier posts that sometimes my performance during the meditation cycle is lousy. This assessment is a bit strong because I've done much, much worse. But my point is that this is about persistence, not perfection. Not meditating, however, doesn't mean that I didn't get any insights from my nightly ritual of meditation and sleep; it means that my insights did not come from a formal sit-down trance meditation.

Trance meditation is the territory of Auset. Trance meditation consists of changes in consciousness that we go through every day as well as formally sitting down and putting yourself in a calm state that causes you to feel as if you could float away if you wanted.

Everyday trances, according to Ra Un Nefer Amen's Tree of Life Meditation System, includes "daydreams, absorption, moments of absent mindedness, and emotional states." He goes on to point out that during these states of consciousness, as well as formal trance meditation, our minds are receptive to programming our reality. This means that whatever images, beliefs, and ideas that surround us (everything in our environment that we can identify, including our own thoughts, feelings, and actions) become even more entrenched and reinforced into what we believe to be our reality.

The entire point of the Tree of Life Meditation System is to program our thoughts, feelings, and actions with the experiential knowledge that we have the power to change our reality.

Auset, the 9th Sphere on the Tree of Life is the beginning of this programming. Sebek, the 8th Sphere (thoughts, ideas, beliefs), is the second step or tool of programming. Het-Heru, the 7th Sphere(images, joy), is the third and final step or tool.

As stated above, trance relaxes the mind so much that programming what we determine to be reality occurs. It may be difficult to accept "daydreams, absorption, moments of absent mindedness, and emotional states" as trance states in which programming our reality occurs, but think about how often the same images and thoughts repeatedly run through your mind, reinforcing emotions or intentions. Usually, this repetition builds until a result is produced. Perhaps the most common example would be how we provoke arguments. Since we quite often enter into "daydreams, absorption, moments of absent mindedness, and emotional states" without conscious effort, we usually don't see the roles we play in provoking arguments. It's "always" someone else's fault.

Formal trance, through the energies of Auset, means that we consciously program our intentions into our subconscious mind. This means also that we consciously use our power to change our reality to what we choose it to be, replacing hopelessness and despair with optimism and expectation.

If you have read some of my earlier posts, then you will know that I have suffered trauma in my childhood and imposed trauma upon myself during my adulthood; therefore, most of my meditation objectives have dealt with healing my psychological wounds and, as a byproduct, healing the physical wounds (illnesses) caused by my psychological wounds. These wounds took decades to manifest with a lot of situations in which I was forced or I forced myself to do things that went against my Being.

This is one of the main reasons why I prefer using the trance meditation of Auset to heal, but this meditation cycle has revealed to me that I MUST balance my trance meditation with Men Ab meditation. Since I'm trying to avoid copyright issues, I selected this picture of the Black Madonna and Child which is meant to represent its original source, Auset and Heru. Heru, the son of Auset, governs Men Ab meditation -- a waking meditation. This means that Heru governs our images and thoughts (Spheres 7 and 8 on the Tree of Life) while we are awake, watching them like a hawk. The nightly meditation (Auset's devotion to Ausar) conceives and nurtures the infant, Heru who becomes the hawk-headed man -- the waking meditation of the day. Consciously programming our reality begins with the mother, Auset.

This puts an entirely different spin on the Madonna and child concept.

Here is the Law of Auset personalized from the words of Ra Un Nefer Amen in his Maat: The 11 Laws of God:

Auset: I am prepared to sacrifice everything in order to become God's vessel on earth. In return, I will receive everything.

Insights: In order to survive the trauma of my life, I consciously chose to escape reality through images and thoughts, books, movies, television, intellectualism, etc. This is the area of my life where I discovered my freedom, but it was not a physical freedom. It was not even a psychological freedom, but it was a type of freedom that helped me to survive.

My efforts to tame and cultivate this mental freedom that I built for myself have been thwarted by a resistance that may by on the level of a death grip. Nevertheless, I must persist if I am to change my physical reality.

Well, this is it for now.
Until next time,

Hetep

Tree of Life Meditation System - Day 2 - Ausar

Hetep Everyone,

My efforts with the Tree of Life Meditation System last night went much better. I was able to meditate on how I break the Law of Ausar by not manifesting the money that I want. Let me first say two things about this.

First, meditating at night is extremely important. Try never to miss it, but forgive yourself quickly if you do. Here are a couple of reasons why you should meditate at night:

• Meditating between the hours of 9pm and 12am aligns you with the energy of Auset. This is metaphorized by her devotion to resurrect Ausar. When you meditate during these hours, you are cultivating your commitment to have Ausar run your life with the same precision that he runs your internal bodily functions.
• At this stage of the meditation system, you are only committing to look at your problem to gain insight. Whatever insight you gain at night, you take into the underworld of Ausar -- that is your unconscious understanding. There it will be processed for you to work with, using your waking conscience (Heru).

The second thing that I want to say is that I always try to reread in the Tree of Life Meditation System the chapter corresponding to each day before I meditate. As I read, I think about how my problem hinders me from practicing the corresponding law. I always gain new insight. The more insights I gain, the more my perspective changes. Eventually, I no longer see my problem as a problem. It becomes a minor imbalance that needs adjusting. This may take a few nights, until which, I am almost always anxious about the problem, but like I said in the previous post, I can always expect to see major changes in my life no matter how poorly I perform during the meditation cycle. Persistence, not perfection, is the key. Hang in there.

Here is the Law of Ausar. Again, I have personalized the law from the way that Ra Un Nefer Amen wrote it in Maat, The 11 Laws of God:

Ausar -- My nature is an unconquerable peace; therefore, nothing and no one in the world can be against me. All experiences come to me to promote my reclamation of peace that I may acquire wisdom and power.

Here are some of the insights that I was able to gain last night:

• I forget to identify myself as Ausar, my unlimited indwelling intelligence. This means that I identify myself through the eyes of my ego, which is subjected to earth-bound physical limitations.
• It is difficult for me to accept that Ausar, my indwelling intelligence, is the source of my prosperity and sustenance.

Okay, like I said, this is not the point where problems are fixed. This is where I see my mistakes and I can see that they are huge failings. There is no need to beat myself up about this because, fortunately, the second half of the meditation cycle deals with programming my spirit. All is well, Ashe!

Until next time, in peace, love, and joy,

I say "Hetep."