Know Thyself - The Best HBCU - Know Thy Self Show, Part 3

The Best HBCU - Know Thy Self Show, Pt 3, Ser 0, Epi 1

Having your life run in perfect balance sounds too good to be true so of course there has to be a catch to it and there is. Bringing your life into alignment with the universe -- your true purpose -- hurts. For me, the most difficult part was discovering that many of the things I thought were true turned out to be wrong. Through dreams, meditation, oracle readings, astrology, coincidences, having new awareness of things I'd seen for years, etc. I learned that much of my thinking was backward and self-destructive. Always, always, always I had to decide if I was going to ignore a newly perceived truth or try to implement the understanding, thus, correcting my behavior.

Why would I put myself through self-imposed torture? For peace. The promise of peace was too much to pass up. What is funny is being at the beginning of a meditation cycle getting ready to address a problem like reacting with paralyzing anxiety in certain situations, feeling scared just to hope that the problem could be solved and then at the end of the first 11 days, looking back over my notes and saying to myself, "I was afraid of that?" The problem would seem so huge at the beginning of a cycle and so small at the end. The Level of personal and spiritual growth that I have received has been phenomenal.

In this video, I discuss Ra Un Nefer Amen's Tree of Life Meditation System, based upon his book the Metu Neter. The Tree of Life Meditation System (TOLM) teaches you how to program your spirit to change your behavior so that you fall into the alignment of the Universe and your life runs in perfect balance. I discuss how you take one problem in your life that you would like to correct and look at it using the system. By examining your problem for one moon cycle, looking at it 11 different ways, you discover insights that offer solutions. Then you encode those solutions into your spirit so that the solution manifests itself. The beauty of the system is that this process helps to correct other problems you may have been unaware of or it shows you insights where you need to make further adjustments. Through consistent use of the system, you will begin to see your life falling into alignment.

I hope that you enjoy this video.
Peace

Know Thyself - The Best HBCU Show - Pt 2

The Best HBCU Show - Pt 2, Ser 0, Epi 1

Yesterday, I introduced my show, The Best HBCU -- Know Thy Self Show. This show chronicles my experiences as I practice the Tree of Life Meditation System as instructed by Ra Un Nefer Amen. This particular episode examines the day during the meditation cycle in which I focus on the deity Sebek, who, simply put, represents the energies of Divine Intelligence. This part of the show is a very brief explanation of the Metu Neter, concerning submitting your ego to your Divine Will. It explains how you are God, but that most likely, your ego, not God, is running your life and that you can change that so that God will run your life in perfect balance and peace. Finally, this video explains that the Metu Neter is designed to teach you how to resurrect God inside of you so that you can have that balance and peace in your life.

All of this may sound very complicated and to some degree, it can be, but only because thinking of yourself as Divine is very new to some people and sacrilegious to others. I have no interest in debating religion. I am more interested in discussing Divinity. In order to see yourself as Divine, you must love yourself. I'm not talking about just looking in the mirror and saying, "I love you." I mean you have to walk your talk and do that in peace, without judgment. You have to forgive yourself and learn to stop beating yourself over the head. You have to know that you are unique and learn to appreciate that, without seeing flaws -- just things that need strengthening and improving.

Here's the big one. You have to love all of your experiences without resentment. WOW!!!!! Learning this lesson hurts because it as to be taught to you over and over again. The Metu Neter teaches you the science of how to understand why things happen to you. What it boils down to is that everything happens to you so that you can reclaim your peace.

Does it feel like I just poured a glass of ice-cold water in your face and then turned around and slapped you? That was what I felt like when I realized that I had to accept the truth of this statement. I could do this because the statement was not made in isolation. The science of the Metu Neter rebuilds you from the ground up by putting everything in a hierarchy (levels) of existence. You do not have to accept this statement until you are ready. There is no force. You build your understanding from desire with the knowledge that the end result will be a life of peace, happiness, love, order, and prosperity.

It's awesome.

Know Thyself -- A Few Issues with Authority

In my astrological chart, Uranus is in my 6th house. This means that freedom of thought is paramount to me. This has gotten me in so much trouble. Not only can't I stand authority, because of my conditioning from childhood trauma, I lacked the courage to go off on my own.

My hatred of authority has been such a major part of my life that it is making up a major part of my healing process. With having Mercury in Virgo, I have decided to examine thoroughly my attitude toward authority. My mother and tyranny are major themes in this process.

I have been very blessed to go through this journey with my mother as she is on her own personal healing journey. My questions to her have caused her to question the role of authority in her own childhood with her parents and the overseer on the Elerby plantation where she grew up.

I'm so glad that I didn't wait until she was dead to start this journey.

Know Thyself -- Love Your Family

I am unmarried, without children so I always assumed that I loved my mother, siblings, nieces, and nephews. That is something that you are not supposed to question. However, when it came down to it, I didn't treat my family as if I loved them. I was mean and oh so surly. My family was my last consideration.

When I began to study metaphysics, I found that love was a big part of it. During a huge argument with one of my sisters, I had to admit to both of us that I did not love her. In fact, I realized that I could not define love. I was shocked at this because I never question what love meant. I just thought it was a feeling.

I created a definition -- to want the best for someone else and to want them to reach their full potential. I still, however, did not put my family higher on my list of priorities. It wasn't until I gave a talk, one Kwanzaa, on Umoja -- Unity -- that I realized the truth spoken by Dr. John Henrik Clarke during a Q&A session at one of his lectures.

A young man, showing off his prowess as a black revolutionary, asked Dr. Clarke what he could do to help awaken the black community to its heritage. Dr. Clarke told the young man to start with his own family. He said to make sure that his children, wife, nieces, nephews, cousins, etc. knew who they were. The young man was very disappointed in this answer. He seemed to want a broader source of recognition, but he had no choice but to accept what was given to him.

During my Umoja talk, I understood that I had not taken Dr. Clarke's advice. All of the problems that we "conscious folks" see that need to be corrected in the community, almost always exist in our own family who some of us (I had included myself) designate as unworthy.

Now, I'm learning to place among my own healing, the healing of my family as my top priority through teaching and acts of love, generosity, patience, and compassion. Ashe, Ma'at!

Know Thyself through Your Work

Another difficult lesson for me from the Metu Neter concerns the will, as in will power. You may have some problems with this as well. For some people, they are very focused and are able to achieve what they set their minds to. I used to envy such people and try to emulate them, but things beyond my control kept cropping up like...Life -- family crises, crippling anxiety, poverty, low self-worth, resentments, gang warfare in the neighborhood, uncertainties about God, etc. It's hard to focus when you've got these types of issues circling all around you.

From my horoscope and readings from the oracle of Tehuti, I learned that using my will power to achieve material success was not my first priority. This was an extremely difficult concept to embrace, especially living in the United States where your worth is measured by your bank account. What a mind job this did on me because I could see the truth of these readings. This is the type of truth that keeps you from wanting to look in the mirror. "Forget about material success," Truth said. "Take care of your issues first."

What am I supposed to live on while I'm doing this, was my question. A friend of mine laughed at me once when we were discussing this. He said that things have a way of taking care of themselves. This answer was even worse. I like to see how things will work out, then take action. I had to admit the truth, however, that I never liked what I saw. My vision had been too clouded by all of the negative issues I was living with. The only way to clear my vision was to deal with my negative issues. There has been no way around it. Believe me, I've looked.

Now, I have family elders who survived segregation and remember ancestors who survived slavery. They understand physical labor, certainly not mental or emotional work or even spiritual work. They learned to leave all of these things in the hands of "The Good Lord." This means that they have very little appreciation for what I'm experiencing. How do I handle this? Let's just say that as my understanding grows so does the quality of my response.

The systems of the slave trade, slavery, and segregation, as I see them, are all a part of a time that I call "winter" -- ruled by the white man. In order for me to settle this in my mind, I had to look at things on a galactic scale, beyond the earth and solar system. Winter has lasted for millenniums and we are nearing the end of it. The earth cannot sustain the drain of natural resources that the "work" of winter inflicted. No longer can we work without conscience.

Europeans would have us believe that man has always lived in conflict, but not by a long shot is this the truth. The nature of man is peace not conflict. This is why the work of winter is breaking down. So many people like me are stopping to take care of those negative issues which will bring us out of winter. I feel honored to be among this group. Truthfully, though, I have to keep reminding myself to feel honor. After all, I still live in a world that honors the bank account above all else. But I keep striving.

Know Thy Self through the Metu Neter

I love studying the Metu Neter by Ra UN Nefer Amen. This book is based upon the oldest religious text in the world -- that which comes from Egypt. The Metu Neter is designed to teach you how to "Know Thy Self" by guiding you toward aligning your ego with you true spiritual self and restoring you back to peace in all situations, no matter what.

It's a lofty claim, I know, but I can't deny they miraculous achievements of the Egyptians nor their peaceful civilization which reigned for thousands of years. My knowledge of world history apart from the biases of European scholars gives me a perspective that allows me to look deeply into the teachings of the Metu Neter. Without this perspective I believe that I would say that this book is just a bunch of hooey.

As such, one of the teachings that is so difficult for me to learn is how to align all of my thoughts, feelings, and actions. Most people today will agree that will power alone is enough to bring about this alignment. I agree that this can work for moments, especially for athletes, one of which I am not; however, for me, it takes a lot more to bring about and sustain this alignment.

Just take my thoughts alone. Negative judgments of people and situations just pop into my head. "Why," I find myself asking sometimes, "does that dark chocolate-skinned sistah wear that blond wig and those blue contact lenses?" or "When will black people ever learn to work together?" I think of a question like these and then my thoughts build scenarios around the subject. None of it is productive and worse, the thought process brings down my energy level -- energy which could have been used to do something more productive like helping me fulfill the purpose for which I am on earth.

The remedy I am using for this is meditation -- reprogramming myself to change my perspective toward becoming a loving person. I have discovered that some people, like my Aunt Pollyanna, are intrinsically loving. They can't help it. Love just oozes out of them. You see that -- how I prefer to say "oozes" instead of "flows"? The loving part of me has been dormant for most of my life, but I have hope. Since I've been on this journey of learning who I am, I can feel the love in me waking up, wanting to be expressed.

Know Thy Self through Astrology

I would like to apologize for my absence. I've been taking my own advice and conducting some self-analysis. Part of this process was learning how to interpret my own astrology chart. Anyone can get their own chart for free at AlwaysAstrology.com. You can read interpretations at that website; however, the chart offers information that you cannot interpret through their site such as the effects of the Midheaven and certain Aspects, which you can find at CafeAstrology.com.


I found some very surprising information in my chart which I could not have discovered anywhere else to my knowledge.

If someone were to ask me what my sign is, I know to reply, "Virgo." This is my Sun sign -- the place where the sun was in the zodiac when I was born on August 25. Virgos are drawn toward helping others. Whatever we do, we want it to be something that will help someone else. What surprised me was how many planets I have in that one sign -- including the Sun, I have Mercury and Pluto, but Uranus is included within the 6th House which is also where my Virgo is located and that House is the house that also draws people toward service. That is a lot of energy pulling at me to help other people.

Was this information true? Yes. I've always had a strong desire to help others, but my success in doing so has almost always been overshadowed by two other aspects which, without the astrological chart, I've always felt but been unable to identify. First, I was born at night. This means that my outward personality (Aries) overshadows my Virgo sign, which is more demure. Second, the planet Saturn is in the same house as my Aries and Saturn was spinning in retrograde.

What does this mean? Very strong internal conflict and feelings of low self-worth. Also, the retrograde hinted at childhood trauma, which I did indeed suffer. Aries wants to fight and be assertive while Saturn feels guilty for not meeting everyone else's demands, which have been great considering how much energy in my life has been drawn towards serving others. With all of these opposite forces pulling at one another, my life has been one long tug-o-war.

The best thing about astrology is that it shows you which areas in your life need to be strengthen, corrected, and enhanced if you have the desire to look. I am learning that taking on the challenge of improving my life is the best way to get to know who I truly am.