Tree of Life Meditation System -- Day 2 -- Ausar

Hetep Everyone,

Here, is my meditation objective for this meditation cycle: I want to see my transformation into a Divine Being as I learn to pause and consciously observe my decision processes before I act.

In order to choose transformation over what I already know, it makes sense to me that I must have better images, thoughts, and affirmations to transform into. Where do these better concepts come from? Ausar, the energy of which can only come from the pauses and nonjudgmental observations. I, the ego (Auset), do not have to force this knowledge. It will rise up out of me. This is the resurrection of Ausar.

However, pausing and observing without judgment will take lots and lots of practice, because I have to keep choosing to do it. The image that came to me was that of the movie Malcolm X, when (if I remember the scene correctly) Elijah Muhammad explains to Malcolm that people will choose to drink dirty water if they don't know that there is a better choice. Well, you know how there is that saying that when you know better, you do better? In order to embrace that statement, I have to define "know" according to the Metu Neter -- knowledge comes from experience, not information.

For me, in terms of choosing transformation as opposed to habitually choosing that which is familiar to me, the most important part is the nonjudgmental observation. Over and over again, I have to observe my choices. This is what I have to get good at so that eventually, like a baby newly walking, who, from experience, learns that walking is better than crawling, I will choose from knowledge, transformation and evolution.

Here is the Law of Ausar, personalized form the words of Ra Un Nefer Amen in his book, Maat: the 11 Laws of God.

Ausar: My nature is an unconquerable peace; therefore, nothing and no one in the world can be against me. All experiences come to me to promote my reclamation of peace so that I may acquire wisdom and power.

How do I break the Law of Ausar by not pausing and observing?

I do not embrace my connection to the unknown and unfamiliar, thus, I limit my transformation -- my evolution.

That is all for now. I wish you great fortune. Until next time,
Hetep

Tree of Life Meditation System -- Day 2 -- Ausar

Hetep Everyone,

Last night, I realized that I could no longer deny that resenting white supremacy and Western culture is a violation of Ausar (Unity). This doesn't alleviate my desire for justice, reparations, or restitution. It just means that I don't have to display, every minute of my life, anger, frustration, the jealousy of privilege, debilitating anxiety, etc. that the resentment fertilizes.

The resentment is hurtful and draining of the energy that could go into creating the world and life that is filled with manifesting my Divine purpose. I've carried this resentment around so long that it has become normal for me so it will be interesting learning to live without it.

Here is the Law of Ausar, personalized from the words of Ra Un Nefer Amen in his book Maat: the 11 Laws of God, followed by the insight from my meditation.

Ausar: My nature is an unconquerable peace; therefore, nothing and no one in the world can be against me. All experiences come to me to promote my reclamation of peace that I may acquire wisdom and power.


Insight: I resent Western Society and white supremacy in any form. This resentment is a huge disturbance to my peace and my ability to acquire unity, wisdom, and power. This resentment is very heavy to carry around. It impedes Ra (my life force), and, therefore, my access to my Divine true self.

Well, that's it for now. I wish you great fortune. Until next time,
Hetep

Tree of Life Meditation System -- Day 2 -- Ausar

Hetep Everyone,

As I was sitting here trying to decide what to say, I glanced at the wording of my current objective, "I want to experience my worth as a Divine Being."

I've been focusing on the wrong side of things. I've been focusing on why and how I feel unworthy instead of focusing on experiencing my Self as Divine. I know what feeling unworthy feels like, but what does it feel like to feel Divine? Wow! This is only Day 2. Do you know what this means? By the end of this meditation cycle, most probably, I'm going to know what it feels like based upon experience, not just theory. Whoa! See, it's insights like these that keep me wanting to perform the meditation cycle, new moon after new moon.

What will be the end result? No idea. I hope that I will be much more forgiving of myself and more compassionate. I hope that I will be more willing to try new things and perform more consistently with the things I want to keep doing. What I'm truly hoping for is a paradigm shift. We will see.

Just so that my meditation from last night does not get wasted, let me share with you what I discovered. First, let me give you the Law of Ausar. I like to personalize the law based upon the words of Ra Un Nefer Amen from his book, Maat, The 11 Laws of God.

Ausar: My nature is an unconquerable peace; therefore, nothing and no one in the world can be against me. All experiences come to me to promote my reclamation of peace that I may acquire wisdom and power.

Insight -- My worthiness has always been tied to money and academic stature, not Divinity. Also, my worthiness has been tied to how well I followed the rules, not how well I fulfilled my purpose in the Divine Plan of the All -- the Creator of all.

I want to stop right here. There is a lot to consider, but there's no hurry. So, until next time,
Hetep

Tree of Life Meditation System - Day 2 - Ausar

Hetep Everyone,

My efforts with the Tree of Life Meditation System last night went much better. I was able to meditate on how I break the Law of Ausar by not manifesting the money that I want. Let me first say two things about this.

First, meditating at night is extremely important. Try never to miss it, but forgive yourself quickly if you do. Here are a couple of reasons why you should meditate at night:

• Meditating between the hours of 9pm and 12am aligns you with the energy of Auset. This is metaphorized by her devotion to resurrect Ausar. When you meditate during these hours, you are cultivating your commitment to have Ausar run your life with the same precision that he runs your internal bodily functions.
• At this stage of the meditation system, you are only committing to look at your problem to gain insight. Whatever insight you gain at night, you take into the underworld of Ausar -- that is your unconscious understanding. There it will be processed for you to work with, using your waking conscience (Heru).

The second thing that I want to say is that I always try to reread in the Tree of Life Meditation System the chapter corresponding to each day before I meditate. As I read, I think about how my problem hinders me from practicing the corresponding law. I always gain new insight. The more insights I gain, the more my perspective changes. Eventually, I no longer see my problem as a problem. It becomes a minor imbalance that needs adjusting. This may take a few nights, until which, I am almost always anxious about the problem, but like I said in the previous post, I can always expect to see major changes in my life no matter how poorly I perform during the meditation cycle. Persistence, not perfection, is the key. Hang in there.

Here is the Law of Ausar. Again, I have personalized the law from the way that Ra Un Nefer Amen wrote it in Maat, The 11 Laws of God:

Ausar -- My nature is an unconquerable peace; therefore, nothing and no one in the world can be against me. All experiences come to me to promote my reclamation of peace that I may acquire wisdom and power.

Here are some of the insights that I was able to gain last night:

• I forget to identify myself as Ausar, my unlimited indwelling intelligence. This means that I identify myself through the eyes of my ego, which is subjected to earth-bound physical limitations.
• It is difficult for me to accept that Ausar, my indwelling intelligence, is the source of my prosperity and sustenance.

Okay, like I said, this is not the point where problems are fixed. This is where I see my mistakes and I can see that they are huge failings. There is no need to beat myself up about this because, fortunately, the second half of the meditation cycle deals with programming my spirit. All is well, Ashe!

Until next time, in peace, love, and joy,

I say "Hetep."