Hetep Everyone,
Yesterday, I discussed pausing to identify the form and function of thoughts, feelings, actions, and situations that provoke urges and temptations. I used as an example, the temptation of eating a cookie. Through spiritual power -- Seker -- I can resist the cookie if I know that I will gain peace by not eating the cookie. The trouble is that gaining peace (satisfaction) by eating the cookie feels more real to me.
My goal is to know that identifying my Divinity is more powerful and peaceful than feeling satisfied by eating the cookie. It's a small, but necessary step toward my awakening.
That's all for now. Until next time,
Hetep
Sunday, October 31, 2010
Saturday, October 30, 2010
Tree of Life Meditation System -- Assessment -- Maat
Hetep Everyone,
A drop from the ocean contains the qualities of the ocean, but not its quantity. Similarly, I am a piece of God. As such, I am a Divine Being, but not God -- The All. As Above, So Below.
These are great statements, but what do they mean in the midst of temptation, if I forget them? Trance, waking, and Men Ab meditations all are designed to ensure that I remember my Divinity, my identification of my Self as Ausar, but my ego is so strong that it protects itself by directing temptations toward me that lead me away from performing these meditations. All I have to defend my Self is my desire to recognize my Divinity -- Ausar.
What motivation stokes the fires of this desire to identify my Self as Divine? What's the reward? To recognize my Self as a creator, giving God experience.
In theory, this sounds awesome. In practice, the hardest thing for me to believe is that I can influence the world around me. Falling prey to urges and temptations reinforce this belief. How can I be a creator if I cannot stop myself from trying to escape scary situations or overindulging in unhealthy foods?
I am learning slowly...very slowly... to understand, through the energy of Maat, the need to recognize the form and function of my thoughts, feelings, and actions in situations. The purpose of this is to understand that anything that has a form came from formlessness and thus can return to that state and be reshaped simply by changing my perspective of the form and its function.
A cookie is something that I would like to eat only if I apply to it a meaning that makes it palatable. However, if I apply a meaning to the cookie that identifies it as a waste of my time, energy and Divinity, then its function changes from being a source of enjoyable food, to being a source of distraction away from my ability to create the world that I want to live in and how I want to exist in that world as a Divine Being.
The size of the cookie may be small, but its size is irrelevant. What is relevant is the principle of transforming my perspective of form and function in the midst of temptation. If I can do this for something as small as a cookie, then I can apply the same principle in any situation like transforming the meaning of lack to prosperity simply by broadening my view of what is around me.
Learning to use what I have such as learning to desire the sweet taste of fruit above that of a cookie, and then sharing the principle of transforming perspectives with others is Maat in action.
By applying this principle, I can transform my identity of Self and my world, becoming the experience God intended.
This begs the question: What will the world that I want to live in look like?
I don't know yet, but it's fun thinking about the answer.
This is all for now. Until next time,
Hetep
A drop from the ocean contains the qualities of the ocean, but not its quantity. Similarly, I am a piece of God. As such, I am a Divine Being, but not God -- The All. As Above, So Below.
These are great statements, but what do they mean in the midst of temptation, if I forget them? Trance, waking, and Men Ab meditations all are designed to ensure that I remember my Divinity, my identification of my Self as Ausar, but my ego is so strong that it protects itself by directing temptations toward me that lead me away from performing these meditations. All I have to defend my Self is my desire to recognize my Divinity -- Ausar.
What motivation stokes the fires of this desire to identify my Self as Divine? What's the reward? To recognize my Self as a creator, giving God experience.
In theory, this sounds awesome. In practice, the hardest thing for me to believe is that I can influence the world around me. Falling prey to urges and temptations reinforce this belief. How can I be a creator if I cannot stop myself from trying to escape scary situations or overindulging in unhealthy foods?
I am learning slowly...very slowly... to understand, through the energy of Maat, the need to recognize the form and function of my thoughts, feelings, and actions in situations. The purpose of this is to understand that anything that has a form came from formlessness and thus can return to that state and be reshaped simply by changing my perspective of the form and its function.
A cookie is something that I would like to eat only if I apply to it a meaning that makes it palatable. However, if I apply a meaning to the cookie that identifies it as a waste of my time, energy and Divinity, then its function changes from being a source of enjoyable food, to being a source of distraction away from my ability to create the world that I want to live in and how I want to exist in that world as a Divine Being.
The size of the cookie may be small, but its size is irrelevant. What is relevant is the principle of transforming my perspective of form and function in the midst of temptation. If I can do this for something as small as a cookie, then I can apply the same principle in any situation like transforming the meaning of lack to prosperity simply by broadening my view of what is around me.
Learning to use what I have such as learning to desire the sweet taste of fruit above that of a cookie, and then sharing the principle of transforming perspectives with others is Maat in action.
By applying this principle, I can transform my identity of Self and my world, becoming the experience God intended.
This begs the question: What will the world that I want to live in look like?
I don't know yet, but it's fun thinking about the answer.
This is all for now. Until next time,
Hetep
Friday, October 29, 2010
Tree of Life Meditation System -- Assessment -- HeruKhuti
Hetep Everyone,
One of the questions that Ra Un Nefer Amen asks in his book Tree of Life Meditation System is what will happen if you ignore a craving or an urge. Will the world end? No. Nothing drastic will probably happen. However, ignoring such urges or choosing to do the opposite will lead to the development of spiritual power, according to Ra Un Nefer Amen.
This question of what will happen seems to be one that is very difficult to recall during a moment of strong urges. Men Ab and trance meditation are my remedies. I am experimenting with them now to develop my skills to resist such urges.
Another question that I often consider during such times is what is so special about gaining spiritual power? I seem to forget the answer during those moments. One answer that I have found is that I get to experience being a creator. Such moments help me to create the kind of life I want to live. The more skill I develop at resisting temptation, the more I can create my own world. This is the hope that I have.
HeruKhuti's role is to help me use his sword to cut away my emotions so that I stop identifying urges as temptations with power over my will. I cut away my ego and replace it with the energy of all powerful Ausar.
In the case of my meditation objective, I can use this insight to program myself to stop procrastinating and committing other such acts.
That's it for now. Until next time,
Hetep
One of the questions that Ra Un Nefer Amen asks in his book Tree of Life Meditation System is what will happen if you ignore a craving or an urge. Will the world end? No. Nothing drastic will probably happen. However, ignoring such urges or choosing to do the opposite will lead to the development of spiritual power, according to Ra Un Nefer Amen.
This question of what will happen seems to be one that is very difficult to recall during a moment of strong urges. Men Ab and trance meditation are my remedies. I am experimenting with them now to develop my skills to resist such urges.
Another question that I often consider during such times is what is so special about gaining spiritual power? I seem to forget the answer during those moments. One answer that I have found is that I get to experience being a creator. Such moments help me to create the kind of life I want to live. The more skill I develop at resisting temptation, the more I can create my own world. This is the hope that I have.
HeruKhuti's role is to help me use his sword to cut away my emotions so that I stop identifying urges as temptations with power over my will. I cut away my ego and replace it with the energy of all powerful Ausar.
In the case of my meditation objective, I can use this insight to program myself to stop procrastinating and committing other such acts.
That's it for now. Until next time,
Hetep
Thursday, October 28, 2010
Tree of Life Meditation System -- Assessment -- Heru
Hetep Everyone,
I've been talking about the power to create our own reality. Many people are not used to this kind of talk. It is not conducive to conventional Western thought; however, through the introduction of Buddhism and New Age rhetoric, the concept of creating your own reality is becoming more popular.
The Tree of Life Meditation System, which is so old that it can be safely dated by thousands of years or more, has already been designed to teach you, not only how to create your own reality, but to ensure that what you create brings and/or restores Universal harmony. Sounds good to me.
Now to speak in personal terms, I've stated that this level of fulfilling your role as a conscious creator is no easy task. This is primarily so because of the environment in which we live. This environment causes distractions and disruptions within our consciousness through all kinds of systems -- education, economic, entertainment, religion, etc. All of these things get in the way of conscious thoughts and conscious choices. For me, the best way to combat this is to recognize things for what they really are and to consciously choose what I want to see.
This is where Men Ab meditation comes in. One of the best parts of Men Ab for me is the pause -- still the will. For me, this is also the most difficult part. Here's why.
Our brains are much more powerful than we've been led to believe. There is a DVD that I have found to be very helpful in explaining this. It's called, What the Bleep Do We Know. Also, the extended version, What the Bleep!? - Down the Rabbit Hole (QUANTUM Three-Disc Special Edition)
, gives much more details.
What it explains and what you will learn as you continue to study metaphysics is that we are creating our reality all of the time. It's just that most of us are not consciously aware that this is so. Our brains give us thought, feelings, and prompt us toward action with the power of multiple atomic bombs. We are truly forces of energy in a contained space -- our physical bodies. This is why you can feel the vibrations of others because they literally are vibrating.
We need this energy to hold our reality into place. It is our collective thought that keeps this physical reality in place and makes it seem like our reality is unchangeable. The Metu Neter
is a blueprint to not only teach us the nature of reality, but the part we play in it and the power we have to change it.
Now, I'm giving you this information, but the goal of my meditation is to learn this information, not by theory, but by experience so I must start by changing the things in my life that prevent me from experiencing the full potential of meditation in order to change my reality.
One of the affirmations in the Ra Un Nefer Amen's Tree of Life Meditation System is, "My freedom to choose is the essence of my Divinity." In order for me to be able to choose, I have to consciously interpret the meaning of my circumstances otherwise, I am compelled by the circumstances to respond based upon my conditionings and habits.
For example, I'm holding a cookie in my hands. Do I eat it? Men Ab says, "Stop! Consider what you want to place in your mouth -- sugar, refined flour, oil, preservatives, etc. My emotions say, "Be spontaneous. Focus on the enjoyment." If I can develop my skills enough for Men Ab, then I have a choice. Habit will compel me to eat without thinking. Men Ab will force me to consider what I am giving up by eating the cookie. Essentially, I would be giving up my life force and my potential to create my own world. But, it's just a cookie, you say. No. It is my freedom to choose. This is important, essential, fundamental to who I am and how others can control me because I choose not to take full responsibility for my own consciousness.
Well, that is all for now. Until next time,
Hetep
I've been talking about the power to create our own reality. Many people are not used to this kind of talk. It is not conducive to conventional Western thought; however, through the introduction of Buddhism and New Age rhetoric, the concept of creating your own reality is becoming more popular.
The Tree of Life Meditation System, which is so old that it can be safely dated by thousands of years or more, has already been designed to teach you, not only how to create your own reality, but to ensure that what you create brings and/or restores Universal harmony. Sounds good to me.
Now to speak in personal terms, I've stated that this level of fulfilling your role as a conscious creator is no easy task. This is primarily so because of the environment in which we live. This environment causes distractions and disruptions within our consciousness through all kinds of systems -- education, economic, entertainment, religion, etc. All of these things get in the way of conscious thoughts and conscious choices. For me, the best way to combat this is to recognize things for what they really are and to consciously choose what I want to see.
This is where Men Ab meditation comes in. One of the best parts of Men Ab for me is the pause -- still the will. For me, this is also the most difficult part. Here's why.
Our brains are much more powerful than we've been led to believe. There is a DVD that I have found to be very helpful in explaining this. It's called, What the Bleep Do We Know. Also, the extended version, What the Bleep!? - Down the Rabbit Hole (QUANTUM Three-Disc Special Edition)
, gives much more details. What it explains and what you will learn as you continue to study metaphysics is that we are creating our reality all of the time. It's just that most of us are not consciously aware that this is so. Our brains give us thought, feelings, and prompt us toward action with the power of multiple atomic bombs. We are truly forces of energy in a contained space -- our physical bodies. This is why you can feel the vibrations of others because they literally are vibrating.
We need this energy to hold our reality into place. It is our collective thought that keeps this physical reality in place and makes it seem like our reality is unchangeable. The Metu Neter
is a blueprint to not only teach us the nature of reality, but the part we play in it and the power we have to change it.Now, I'm giving you this information, but the goal of my meditation is to learn this information, not by theory, but by experience so I must start by changing the things in my life that prevent me from experiencing the full potential of meditation in order to change my reality.
One of the affirmations in the Ra Un Nefer Amen's Tree of Life Meditation System
is, "My freedom to choose is the essence of my Divinity." In order for me to be able to choose, I have to consciously interpret the meaning of my circumstances otherwise, I am compelled by the circumstances to respond based upon my conditionings and habits.For example, I'm holding a cookie in my hands. Do I eat it? Men Ab says, "Stop! Consider what you want to place in your mouth -- sugar, refined flour, oil, preservatives, etc. My emotions say, "Be spontaneous. Focus on the enjoyment." If I can develop my skills enough for Men Ab, then I have a choice. Habit will compel me to eat without thinking. Men Ab will force me to consider what I am giving up by eating the cookie. Essentially, I would be giving up my life force and my potential to create my own world. But, it's just a cookie, you say. No. It is my freedom to choose. This is important, essential, fundamental to who I am and how others can control me because I choose not to take full responsibility for my own consciousness.
Well, that is all for now. Until next time,
Hetep
Wednesday, October 27, 2010
Tree of Life Meditation System -- Day 21 -- Amen
Hetep Everyone,
Well, we've made it. We have reached the last day of the meditation system, Day 21. This day is dedicated to Amen -- Peace -- Hetep.
Understanding Amen means understanding that everything -- thoughts, feelings, and actions, spiritual, mental, and physical -- all comes from a source that has no form and it all must return to that source. Time and space are not necessarily involved in this process, meaning things can happen instantly or they can take some time. Many variables such as perception and keeping the universe in balanced order are involved.
Okay, that's a lot to try and understand. What it means is that we have much more power over what we perceive to be our reality than we can imagine in our present circumstances (existing as beings in this physical earth realm). If we learn to change our perception, thus, change our emotions, then we can change our reality.
Western thought has trained us to believe that this is impossible and, for most of us, experience as reiterated this. I especially include myself in this statement. This is precisely why I am excited about gaining strong motivation to cultivate the skill of Men Ab and waking meditations. I will be putting theory into practice.
Through other meditation cycles, I have already experienced a change in my reality in terms of how well I get along with my family. This has happened without developing Men Ab skills. What treasures await me with Men Ab skills, applied along with nightly mediumistic trance skills. This is the inter-relationship and interdependence of Heru (Coming By Day) and Auset (Nightly Meditation) -- Mother and Son, Madonna and child.
I have eight more days before the next new moon. Since I was very displeased with my performance within the last week, I will repeat those nightly meditations in preparation for the new moon objective.
I want to thank you for joining me in my journey. I hope that my story is helping you with your journey.
That's it for now. Until next time,
Hetep
Well, we've made it. We have reached the last day of the meditation system, Day 21. This day is dedicated to Amen -- Peace -- Hetep.
Understanding Amen means understanding that everything -- thoughts, feelings, and actions, spiritual, mental, and physical -- all comes from a source that has no form and it all must return to that source. Time and space are not necessarily involved in this process, meaning things can happen instantly or they can take some time. Many variables such as perception and keeping the universe in balanced order are involved.
Okay, that's a lot to try and understand. What it means is that we have much more power over what we perceive to be our reality than we can imagine in our present circumstances (existing as beings in this physical earth realm). If we learn to change our perception, thus, change our emotions, then we can change our reality.
Western thought has trained us to believe that this is impossible and, for most of us, experience as reiterated this. I especially include myself in this statement. This is precisely why I am excited about gaining strong motivation to cultivate the skill of Men Ab and waking meditations. I will be putting theory into practice.
Through other meditation cycles, I have already experienced a change in my reality in terms of how well I get along with my family. This has happened without developing Men Ab skills. What treasures await me with Men Ab skills, applied along with nightly mediumistic trance skills. This is the inter-relationship and interdependence of Heru (Coming By Day) and Auset (Nightly Meditation) -- Mother and Son, Madonna and child.
I have eight more days before the next new moon. Since I was very displeased with my performance within the last week, I will repeat those nightly meditations in preparation for the new moon objective.
I want to thank you for joining me in my journey. I hope that my story is helping you with your journey.
That's it for now. Until next time,
Hetep
Tuesday, October 26, 2010
Tree of Life Meditation System -- Day 20 -- Ausar
Hetep Everyone,
There is one more day left in this meditation cycle. It's been an incredible journey. Since I am following the meditation cycle strictly from my own interpretation of Ra Un Nefer Amen's writings, I often wonder how much more effective I would be with an official instructor. Since I have never heard of an instructor in this area (Shreveport, LA, USA), I've set about teaching myself.
One of the best things, however, about teaching myself these meditation techniques is that I can set my own pace. This means that when I find, as I did in this cycle, that I have a blockage in my spirit that must be corrected before I can achieve my objective, I don't have to feel pressured or anxious.
One word about this. I used to be worried about time passing me by until I concluded that I have all of the time in the Universe. Time for me is limited only by my perception of it. I can choose to live as if there is no time only cycles of learning lessons throughout each life.
The reason I'm emphasizing this is because learning to resurrect Ausar is a growing processes, a cultivation. Why is resurrecting Ausar worth all of the trouble? For me, it is bringing order and balance to my life so that the energy of Ausar runs my life as perfectly as it does on the inside of my body, as steady as a heartbeat.
Since I have been following the meditation system, my life has steadily fallen into place. I feel much stronger and firmer about who I am and why I incarnated into this life. This cycle's meditation objective helped to strengthen my perspectives about money and helped me to grow in ways I had not imagined. I have brighter expectations of consciously experiencing Ausar as the source of my "prosperity and sustenance," as it says in the Metu Neter, vol. 1.
Well, that's it for now. Until next time,
Hetep
There is one more day left in this meditation cycle. It's been an incredible journey. Since I am following the meditation cycle strictly from my own interpretation of Ra Un Nefer Amen's writings, I often wonder how much more effective I would be with an official instructor. Since I have never heard of an instructor in this area (Shreveport, LA, USA), I've set about teaching myself.
One of the best things, however, about teaching myself these meditation techniques is that I can set my own pace. This means that when I find, as I did in this cycle, that I have a blockage in my spirit that must be corrected before I can achieve my objective, I don't have to feel pressured or anxious.
One word about this. I used to be worried about time passing me by until I concluded that I have all of the time in the Universe. Time for me is limited only by my perception of it. I can choose to live as if there is no time only cycles of learning lessons throughout each life.
The reason I'm emphasizing this is because learning to resurrect Ausar is a growing processes, a cultivation. Why is resurrecting Ausar worth all of the trouble? For me, it is bringing order and balance to my life so that the energy of Ausar runs my life as perfectly as it does on the inside of my body, as steady as a heartbeat.
Since I have been following the meditation system, my life has steadily fallen into place. I feel much stronger and firmer about who I am and why I incarnated into this life. This cycle's meditation objective helped to strengthen my perspectives about money and helped me to grow in ways I had not imagined. I have brighter expectations of consciously experiencing Ausar as the source of my "prosperity and sustenance," as it says in the Metu Neter
, vol. 1.Well, that's it for now. Until next time,
Hetep
Monday, October 25, 2010
Tree of Life Meditation System -- Day 19 -- Tehuti
Hetep Everyone,
There are times when the day gets away from me. I am confident that the frequency of these times is lessening. Ra Un Nefer Amen in his book the Tree of Life Meditation System (T.O.L.M.)
says that spirituality is to be practiced, not in seclusion away from the world, but in the thick of things. Living by the Tree of Life system is a process that "grows through the love and joy of understanding" (That's taken from the Law of Heru in Maat: The 11 Laws of God).
I say this because as I grow closer to the end of the 21 days of this meditation cycle, I am finding it more difficult to stay on task, wanting to simply observe my perceptions. I see more clearly how unfocused my thoughts are, but at the same time, I see how much stronger I am in doing the work that I want to do. It is amazing. More and more I seem to be attracting assistants who offer me deeper understanding of the I am doing.
I'm excited about learning Men Ab meditation (Heru -- Sphere 6) through the next cycle. If I can refocus, I will not have to wait for another cycle to practice Men Ab. I can actually start now.
Today, I learned how important it is to reiterate that I am a student who is offering the knowledge of my experience. This is why I share my failings as well as my successes. Persistence, not perfection is the key.
Well, it's late so I'm going to wrap this up and say good night.
Until next time,
Hetep
There are times when the day gets away from me. I am confident that the frequency of these times is lessening. Ra Un Nefer Amen in his book the Tree of Life Meditation System (T.O.L.M.)
says that spirituality is to be practiced, not in seclusion away from the world, but in the thick of things. Living by the Tree of Life system is a process that "grows through the love and joy of understanding" (That's taken from the Law of Heru in Maat: The 11 Laws of God). I say this because as I grow closer to the end of the 21 days of this meditation cycle, I am finding it more difficult to stay on task, wanting to simply observe my perceptions. I see more clearly how unfocused my thoughts are, but at the same time, I see how much stronger I am in doing the work that I want to do. It is amazing. More and more I seem to be attracting assistants who offer me deeper understanding of the I am doing.
I'm excited about learning Men Ab meditation (Heru -- Sphere 6) through the next cycle. If I can refocus, I will not have to wait for another cycle to practice Men Ab. I can actually start now.
Today, I learned how important it is to reiterate that I am a student who is offering the knowledge of my experience. This is why I share my failings as well as my successes. Persistence, not perfection is the key.
Well, it's late so I'm going to wrap this up and say good night.
Until next time,
Hetep
Sunday, October 24, 2010
Tree of Life Meditation System -- Day 18 --Seker
Hetep Everyone,
I want to talk about a subtle change that I've noticed within me. When I first started studying black consciousness, I didn't study spirituality. I studied history and all of the other social sciences that showed what had happened to us as a people. While I was doing this, a practiced the rituals that others around me were doing like honoring the ancestors and saying, "Peace," to other conscious folks, giving them general respect. Deep down, however, I felt an anger so intense that I couldn't even identify it as despair and powerlessness.
From my traumatic childhood alone I felt powerless, but to add on top of this the trauma of what has happened to us as a people filled me with hopelessness so profound that it was unfathomable and unrecognizable. I was simply existing.
One day, I was so low that I felt I was being swallowed up by blackness. A question came to my mind, "What do you know that is real?" You see, I felt that my world was inverted. Everything seemed inside out. An answer to the question surfaced from deep inside of me, "Movement -- energy."
From then on, I wanted to understand what God really was and what gave our Egyptian ancestors the power to do all that they did, including building the pyramids. I wanted to access that power and use it to fight our enemies and restore Mama Africa. This has been a very long journey for me with unexpected results, but just like doing a meditation cycle, you get what restores your balance, not necessarily what you ask for.
The ancestors used spiritual power to manipulate physical energy. This power is sacred and extremely subtle and very easy to overlook. You will never access it if your heart is filled with those negative emotions like anger, hatred, fear, etc. The power is "Love" and it is feminine; this is why it is so subtle. It is the love that brings the harshest criminal down on his knees in front of his mother and begs for mercy and redemption. You know the healing power of a loving mother's hand on such a head.
Given my childhood, I never learned to believe in this power. Given the position of African people around the globe, I never learned to believe in this power, but I wanted to believe in it, desperately.
For the first time since I began to conduct consecutive Tree of Life Meditation cycles, I honestly feel that I may be gaining the experiences needed to begin to believe in this power -- not on the surface, but in my heart so that my actions come from this knowledge as instinctively as blinking my eyes. It's been a long wait. I just want to cultivate this feeling so that it continues to grow.
With this budding feeling of power, I no longer wish to warehouse those feelings of anger that consumed me like an inferno. I just want peace, harmony, and balance. This does not mean that I ignore the "bad" things in life. It means that I know that I have to power to influence them to change.
As I near the end of this meditation cycle, I am proud of my progress. So far, I have not manifested the cash money I asked for, but what I received has been much more valuable -- diminishing fear of not having the money; knowing that money is only a symbol for the goods and services I would purchase with it; and, knowing that there are more ways of getting what I need besides direct purchases -- alliance with those who can assist me. Ashe!
This is all for now. Until next time,
Hetep
I want to talk about a subtle change that I've noticed within me. When I first started studying black consciousness, I didn't study spirituality. I studied history and all of the other social sciences that showed what had happened to us as a people. While I was doing this, a practiced the rituals that others around me were doing like honoring the ancestors and saying, "Peace," to other conscious folks, giving them general respect. Deep down, however, I felt an anger so intense that I couldn't even identify it as despair and powerlessness.
From my traumatic childhood alone I felt powerless, but to add on top of this the trauma of what has happened to us as a people filled me with hopelessness so profound that it was unfathomable and unrecognizable. I was simply existing.
One day, I was so low that I felt I was being swallowed up by blackness. A question came to my mind, "What do you know that is real?" You see, I felt that my world was inverted. Everything seemed inside out. An answer to the question surfaced from deep inside of me, "Movement -- energy."
From then on, I wanted to understand what God really was and what gave our Egyptian ancestors the power to do all that they did, including building the pyramids. I wanted to access that power and use it to fight our enemies and restore Mama Africa. This has been a very long journey for me with unexpected results, but just like doing a meditation cycle, you get what restores your balance, not necessarily what you ask for.
The ancestors used spiritual power to manipulate physical energy. This power is sacred and extremely subtle and very easy to overlook. You will never access it if your heart is filled with those negative emotions like anger, hatred, fear, etc. The power is "Love" and it is feminine; this is why it is so subtle. It is the love that brings the harshest criminal down on his knees in front of his mother and begs for mercy and redemption. You know the healing power of a loving mother's hand on such a head.
Given my childhood, I never learned to believe in this power. Given the position of African people around the globe, I never learned to believe in this power, but I wanted to believe in it, desperately.
For the first time since I began to conduct consecutive Tree of Life Meditation cycles, I honestly feel that I may be gaining the experiences needed to begin to believe in this power -- not on the surface, but in my heart so that my actions come from this knowledge as instinctively as blinking my eyes. It's been a long wait. I just want to cultivate this feeling so that it continues to grow.
With this budding feeling of power, I no longer wish to warehouse those feelings of anger that consumed me like an inferno. I just want peace, harmony, and balance. This does not mean that I ignore the "bad" things in life. It means that I know that I have to power to influence them to change.
As I near the end of this meditation cycle, I am proud of my progress. So far, I have not manifested the cash money I asked for, but what I received has been much more valuable -- diminishing fear of not having the money; knowing that money is only a symbol for the goods and services I would purchase with it; and, knowing that there are more ways of getting what I need besides direct purchases -- alliance with those who can assist me. Ashe!
This is all for now. Until next time,
Hetep
Saturday, October 23, 2010
Tree of Life Meditation System -- Day 17 -- Maat
Hetep Everyone,
Ra Un Nefer Amen tells us that Divine Law is an expression of the inter-relationship between all things. What in the world does this mean? When I first began the Tree of Life Meditation System (TOLM), I always skipped over this information because I didn't understand it. I don't claim to fully understand it, but this is as much a mission of mine as mastering Men Ab and Waking meditation.
The way I picture the inter-relationship and interdependency of Divine Law is like a machine (bicycle-type) with 11 wheels bound by one chain all turning together to move you forward. There must be a great deal of order and structure to coordinate this movement or it won't work. This means that movements are free, but limited to their own space. This is Maat keeping everything in order so that structural integrity is maintained.
When I started this meditation cycle, I wanted to manifest some money. This was the first time that I had done a cycle concerning something so tangible. I was very skeptical about being able to meet my objective. My life experiences have conditioned my perspective so that I expect disappointment and fear success. If you've read some of my earlier posts then you may have a clearer picture as to how this backwardness developed. Only my work with the TOLM system has given me the courage to attempt to achieve this particular objective.
Every time I begin a cycle, I never know what will reveal itself.The reason for this has mostly to due with Maat. Maat must keep everything in balance. There is no need for me to manifest money if I am not ready to be a good steward of it. First, my weaknesses as a steward must be exposed so that they can be strengthened. Once strengthened, structure and balance will have been established. Then I will be ready to manage successfully the money I receive. Bring my spirit into alignment first, then give me what I want, if it will not disturb the balance of anyone or anything else. This is Maat, maintaining order. This is why spiritual alignment is spiritual cultivation.
Cultivating the spirit takes time, patience, and dedication. This scenario doesn't quite fit with our modern culture, which worships, through deed and action, the instantaneous. According to the Metu Neter, before our five senses can detect the physical objects which have manifested, those objects must first develop through 10 other invisible spheres of creation -- Amen, Sphere 0 through Auset, Sphere 9. If you can believe (Know) that this is true, this means that almost all of processes of existence are invisible.
Think of a pregnant woman. In this Western culture, before they invented machines that could create pictures of the gestation process, people had to simply trust and be patient until the child came. The Metu Neter provides the information we need to understand the processes of spiritual, and, therefore, physical transformation.
In the Tree of Life Meditation System, I found chapter 10, the chapter on Maat to be perhaps the most boring chapter in the book. It's kind of like watching a planted seed grow before it breaks ground. Reading this chapter, like cultivating your spirit is an act of knowing that all of the work you put into it has a great potential for bearing the sweetest fruit -- the fruit on the Tree of Life.
That's it for now. Until next time,
Hetep
Ra Un Nefer Amen tells us that Divine Law is an expression of the inter-relationship between all things. What in the world does this mean? When I first began the Tree of Life Meditation System (TOLM), I always skipped over this information because I didn't understand it. I don't claim to fully understand it, but this is as much a mission of mine as mastering Men Ab and Waking meditation.
The way I picture the inter-relationship and interdependency of Divine Law is like a machine (bicycle-type) with 11 wheels bound by one chain all turning together to move you forward. There must be a great deal of order and structure to coordinate this movement or it won't work. This means that movements are free, but limited to their own space. This is Maat keeping everything in order so that structural integrity is maintained.
When I started this meditation cycle, I wanted to manifest some money. This was the first time that I had done a cycle concerning something so tangible. I was very skeptical about being able to meet my objective. My life experiences have conditioned my perspective so that I expect disappointment and fear success. If you've read some of my earlier posts then you may have a clearer picture as to how this backwardness developed. Only my work with the TOLM system has given me the courage to attempt to achieve this particular objective.
Every time I begin a cycle, I never know what will reveal itself.The reason for this has mostly to due with Maat. Maat must keep everything in balance. There is no need for me to manifest money if I am not ready to be a good steward of it. First, my weaknesses as a steward must be exposed so that they can be strengthened. Once strengthened, structure and balance will have been established. Then I will be ready to manage successfully the money I receive. Bring my spirit into alignment first, then give me what I want, if it will not disturb the balance of anyone or anything else. This is Maat, maintaining order. This is why spiritual alignment is spiritual cultivation.
Cultivating the spirit takes time, patience, and dedication. This scenario doesn't quite fit with our modern culture, which worships, through deed and action, the instantaneous. According to the Metu Neter
, before our five senses can detect the physical objects which have manifested, those objects must first develop through 10 other invisible spheres of creation -- Amen, Sphere 0 through Auset, Sphere 9. If you can believe (Know) that this is true, this means that almost all of processes of existence are invisible. Think of a pregnant woman. In this Western culture, before they invented machines that could create pictures of the gestation process, people had to simply trust and be patient until the child came. The Metu Neter provides the information we need to understand the processes of spiritual, and, therefore, physical transformation.
In the Tree of Life Meditation System, I found chapter 10, the chapter on Maat to be perhaps the most boring chapter in the book. It's kind of like watching a planted seed grow before it breaks ground. Reading this chapter, like cultivating your spirit is an act of knowing that all of the work you put into it has a great potential for bearing the sweetest fruit -- the fruit on the Tree of Life.
That's it for now. Until next time,
Hetep
Friday, October 22, 2010
Tree of Life Meditation System -- Day 16 -- HeruKhuti
Hetep Everyone,
It's one thing to say I've got to change the beliefs that feed my anxiety; it's another thing to do it. How do you move from theory to practice? This is exactly the point of the Tree of Life Meditation System (TOLM).
You initiate an intention to unite your will to your spirit regarding a particular objective (Hopefully after having consulted the oracle). Your subconscious is dead to your intention so you must resurrect your subconscious mind -- awaken it to your intentions. Your devotion to this resurrection will eventually lead to manifesting your intentions within your waking consciousness, causing you to effortlessly act and/or attract assistants to manifest your intentions. Using the TOLM system assures that whatever you create will be created in a harmonious balance, bringing and restoring balance to all around you. The process can be a bit rocky, but devotion -- persistence -- is the key.
I am finding that the more order that I can bring to my life, the easier it is for me to remain persistent.
I've been working on a daily schedule based upon the Metu Neter vol. 1. I've been following it for a while and I love it. It helps me bring more order to my thoughts to know when to do what. For someone like me who lives in her thoughts and has a tendency to over analyze everything, too many choices can cause stagnation, and, goodness knows I have enough of that in my life.
I'm going to share the schedule with you. Maybe you will find it useful or maybe it will spark some ideas for you to take the concept further. I would love some feedback on this. Here it goes:
In this crazy world where such boundaries are scoffed at for causing stagnation, I find the schedule comforting. No matter how bad the anxiety attacks are, I can eventually remember that there is a bigger picture and that through the illusive fog of what I perceive to be real, I can find my footing again.
Now, let's talk about Men Ab Meditation and waking trance. An anxiety attack is a trance state. Knowing this and trying to break out of the trance are two different things. Breaking out of this state is like trying to become an objective observer of your dreams, not just a participant within them.
Ra Un Nefer Amen in his book Tree of Life Meditation System (T.O.L.M.) recommends ignoring your feelings without trying to block them. You know I became resentful of him for such a recommendation. The point of the anxiety is to escape, not to stand still and let yourself get hit be feelings you think will kill you. He also says that when the emotions become overwhelming you should use certain special breathing techniques. The problem with this is that at those moments, I don't feel like doing special breathing techniques. I would much rather wallow in my emotional trance state. 
Sometimes imagining HeruKhuti's blade severing my emotions helps, but the only solution to this problem that I have come up with is to cultivate more devotion to mediumistic trance at night and, now, to become just as devoted to Men Ab and waking trance during the day -- in essence, to keep doing what I'm doing. Be persistent and stop worrying about how long it's going to take.
Well, that's it for now. Until next time,
Hetep
It's one thing to say I've got to change the beliefs that feed my anxiety; it's another thing to do it. How do you move from theory to practice? This is exactly the point of the Tree of Life Meditation System (TOLM).
You initiate an intention to unite your will to your spirit regarding a particular objective (Hopefully after having consulted the oracle). Your subconscious is dead to your intention so you must resurrect your subconscious mind -- awaken it to your intentions. Your devotion to this resurrection will eventually lead to manifesting your intentions within your waking consciousness, causing you to effortlessly act and/or attract assistants to manifest your intentions. Using the TOLM system assures that whatever you create will be created in a harmonious balance, bringing and restoring balance to all around you. The process can be a bit rocky, but devotion -- persistence -- is the key.
I am finding that the more order that I can bring to my life, the easier it is for me to remain persistent.
*Warning* -- order does not mean rigidity. People and events flow in and out of your life. If you block this flow, you may miss out on the messages they bring and you may miss the opportunity to be a part of the flow of love and compassion that wants to be a part of your life. It may be difficult to establish boundaries at first, but if your response is nonjudgmental, your boundaries should eventually settle into a steady pattern.
I've been working on a daily schedule based upon the Metu Neter vol. 1. I've been following it for a while and I love it. It helps me bring more order to my thoughts to know when to do what. For someone like me who lives in her thoughts and has a tendency to over analyze everything, too many choices can cause stagnation, and, goodness knows I have enough of that in my life.
I'm going to share the schedule with you. Maybe you will find it useful or maybe it will spark some ideas for you to take the concept further. I would love some feedback on this. Here it goes:
- Tehuti -- Sunset to 9pm -- Choose your objective for the next day
- Auset -- 9pm-12am -- Mediumistic trance meditation -- planting the seed of your objective
- Seker -- 12am-3am -- Ausar journeys to the Underworld -- the seed of your objective is sown and an egg fashioned to be born into the world
- Het-Heru -- 3am-Sunrise -- Gestation period of the egg, creating joy for your objective
- Maat-- Sunrise-9am -- Develop an overall picture of your objective and love for those who will benefit from it.
- Heru -- 9am-12pm -- Resurrection of the King. Pause. Still your will. Command your day by commanding your thoughts, feelings, and actions.
- HeruKhuti -- 12pm-3pm -- Face the hardest tasks. Use the blade of HeruKhuti to sever your ego from your emotions
- Sebek -- 3pm-Sunset -- Seek information from which to choose your objective for the next day.
In this crazy world where such boundaries are scoffed at for causing stagnation, I find the schedule comforting. No matter how bad the anxiety attacks are, I can eventually remember that there is a bigger picture and that through the illusive fog of what I perceive to be real, I can find my footing again.
Now, let's talk about Men Ab Meditation and waking trance. An anxiety attack is a trance state. Knowing this and trying to break out of the trance are two different things. Breaking out of this state is like trying to become an objective observer of your dreams, not just a participant within them.
Ra Un Nefer Amen in his book Tree of Life Meditation System (T.O.L.M.)
recommends ignoring your feelings without trying to block them. You know I became resentful of him for such a recommendation. The point of the anxiety is to escape, not to stand still and let yourself get hit be feelings you think will kill you. He also says that when the emotions become overwhelming you should use certain special breathing techniques. The problem with this is that at those moments, I don't feel like doing special breathing techniques. I would much rather wallow in my emotional trance state. Sometimes imagining HeruKhuti's blade severing my emotions helps, but the only solution to this problem that I have come up with is to cultivate more devotion to mediumistic trance at night and, now, to become just as devoted to Men Ab and waking trance during the day -- in essence, to keep doing what I'm doing. Be persistent and stop worrying about how long it's going to take.Well, that's it for now. Until next time,
Hetep
Thursday, October 21, 2010
Tree of Life Meditation System -- Day 15 -- Heru
Hetep Everyone,
Well, it's happened. The surprise that I told you about in earlier posts has arrived. By surprise, I mean breakthrough. Yesterday, I realized that I had manifested something tangible from the Universe that I had wanted. As a result, I suffered a huge anxiety attack. This has been a repeated pattern in my life which has almost always led to shut downs and self-sabotage (We all handle things in different ways.). Thanks to the Tree of Life Meditation System (TOLM), I was able to recognize the source of anxiety and the symptoms of an oncoming attack.
The source of the attacks is trauma that I suffered during my infancy. Please don't ever think that because babies can't talk that they can't remember. Our brains are so powerful that they hold the memories of experiences of all our lifetimes. We just don't know how to access those memories. Okay, that's not true. This meditation system has that potential. My point is that what happens in our infancy has a huge effect on what kind of adults we become.
I heard a story, I think that it was told by Runoko Rashidi in one of his lectures, about some French scholars who went to Africa to study how Africans raise their children so that the Europeans could help them improve. The French folks discovered that the African children were far more advanced than European children, comparatively. One example, if my memory is correct, was that the African children were potty trained at six months. What was the explanation for this? The children never went without being touched. Even at night, someone always had a loving had on them, reassuring them of their connection to everyone else.
Conversely, here in America, one of the sayings that I've always heard when it comes to babies in the black community is, "Put that baby down! You'll spoil her!"
Dr. Frances Cress Welsing, in her book The Isis Papers recommends giving children unlimited access to your lap (Lap Time) until the age of 4, letting them decide when they're ready to get down.
I'm saying all of this because in our community we have been so far removed by slavery and segregation from the way that our ancestors reared us, that the European ways of neglect seem natural. Worse, hidden deep in our closets are the residual effects of slavery and segregation. I'm talking about child molestation.
This is some old European evil, that must be exposed if we are to heal it and get rid of it.
I remember watching this Katherine Hepburn movie called The Lion in Winter. The movie is set among their royalty in 1183 A.D. They talk about raping young boys like its some sort of delicacy (champagne, caviar, and a little boy, instead of a cigar). It was their nonchalant acceptance of such behavior, spoken within the same context of Christianity, that got me. If it happened among the royals, then it certainly got passed down to the wannabes. Don't even think of telling me that this didn't happen in slavery and that it still doesn't happen.
I believe that most people think that molestation is a female problem, but gender doesn't matter. Slavery brought this to our community and it is still running rampant, perhaps even more now than ever so this post is for everyone.
My mother suffered from what we today call postpartum depression, but she had always suffered from a mild form of mental illness stimulated by growing up during segregation in Shreveport, LA. She suffered a severe breakdown and couldn't take care of us. My father left us with people he trusted so that he could work two jobs. I don't think he ever knew what happened to us. My mother recovered enough to take care of us, but her childhood mental illness was left unchecked so we grew up with even more trauma. However, because of my dad and the fact that my mother's "episodes" were spaced out, although, sporadic, we also had a great deal of American "normalcy." My father died when I was 13. My mother didn't really begin to get the help she needed until I became an adult.
It wasn't for lack of trying. My mother always knew she needed help, but the doctors were white and uncaring. It took her decades to find the right kind of help. She never stopped searching (Applause, Please!).
The effects of her illness, attacks from trusted loved ones, and my father's death at an early age have left my siblings and me devastated, not to mention the succeeding generations. But we persist.
My objectives with the TOLM system so far have been largely to heal the trauma of my childhood and my relationship with my mother, the effects of which have been stupendous. My mother is receptive to anything that will help her heal and astute enough to reject what will not help. The insights that have been revealed to me during the TOLM system have helped us both to heal beyond measure.
Now, it seems that it is time to heal the adult trauma that I have inflicted upon myself through anxiety and self-sabotage.
Normally, I would have interpreted yesterday's anxiety attack as a huge failure and shut down completely, unable to do anything, feeling worthless, inept, and every negative name in the book that you can think of. Because of my success with the TOLM, however, I didn't do this. Set and I (as Heru)went to war and last night, Tehuti loaned me his eye. I'm talking about the metaphorein from Ra Un Nefer Amen's Metu Neter vol. 2, p. 137-160.
Previous cycles of the TOLM system had already revealed to me that my anxiety stems from the cry of the baby girl inside of me who new that no one was going to come to her rescue in the midst of the worst of the worst. Why then would I have my worst anxiety attack of the cycle when I received something that I wanted very much?
For forty years, my expectations in life have been based upon the fact that no help would come. This has tainted my perception of what "help" is. Even when I have been able to recognize "help" as help, I've felt unworthy of it. If I accepted help, I would sabotage it just to prove my unworthiness.
Understanding this blessed insight isn't enough. I've got to change the beliefs that feed it. That means that this meditation cycle has officially shifted focus from my original objective of obtaining money to healing my anxiety. That is not to say that the money won't come, but it is no longer the prize. Ashe!
I need to say something here about compassion. Our people (the African diaspora) have suffered and lost so much at the hands of Europeans and wannabes. Now, when we have the capacity to assess what has happened to us, our brightest scholars are so blinded by hopes of European-influenced opulence that we are seemingly unable to cohesively understand what has happened to us. Even the "conscious" brothas and sistas, are blinded by European assessments of our responses to trauma. You never know what someone is going through or why. We are all different and we all incarnated with different strengths, weaknesses, and agendas. Be compassionate in your assessment of others without judging too quickly or too harshly. If any people deserve a second look and reconsideration, it's us by us.
That's it for now. Until next time,
Hetep
Well, it's happened. The surprise that I told you about in earlier posts has arrived. By surprise, I mean breakthrough. Yesterday, I realized that I had manifested something tangible from the Universe that I had wanted. As a result, I suffered a huge anxiety attack. This has been a repeated pattern in my life which has almost always led to shut downs and self-sabotage (We all handle things in different ways.). Thanks to the Tree of Life Meditation System (TOLM), I was able to recognize the source of anxiety and the symptoms of an oncoming attack.
The source of the attacks is trauma that I suffered during my infancy. Please don't ever think that because babies can't talk that they can't remember. Our brains are so powerful that they hold the memories of experiences of all our lifetimes. We just don't know how to access those memories. Okay, that's not true. This meditation system has that potential. My point is that what happens in our infancy has a huge effect on what kind of adults we become.
I heard a story, I think that it was told by Runoko Rashidi in one of his lectures, about some French scholars who went to Africa to study how Africans raise their children so that the Europeans could help them improve. The French folks discovered that the African children were far more advanced than European children, comparatively. One example, if my memory is correct, was that the African children were potty trained at six months. What was the explanation for this? The children never went without being touched. Even at night, someone always had a loving had on them, reassuring them of their connection to everyone else.
Conversely, here in America, one of the sayings that I've always heard when it comes to babies in the black community is, "Put that baby down! You'll spoil her!"
Dr. Frances Cress Welsing, in her book The Isis Papers recommends giving children unlimited access to your lap (Lap Time) until the age of 4, letting them decide when they're ready to get down.
I'm saying all of this because in our community we have been so far removed by slavery and segregation from the way that our ancestors reared us, that the European ways of neglect seem natural. Worse, hidden deep in our closets are the residual effects of slavery and segregation. I'm talking about child molestation.
This is some old European evil, that must be exposed if we are to heal it and get rid of it.
I remember watching this Katherine Hepburn movie called The Lion in Winter. The movie is set among their royalty in 1183 A.D. They talk about raping young boys like its some sort of delicacy (champagne, caviar, and a little boy, instead of a cigar). It was their nonchalant acceptance of such behavior, spoken within the same context of Christianity, that got me. If it happened among the royals, then it certainly got passed down to the wannabes. Don't even think of telling me that this didn't happen in slavery and that it still doesn't happen.
I believe that most people think that molestation is a female problem, but gender doesn't matter. Slavery brought this to our community and it is still running rampant, perhaps even more now than ever so this post is for everyone.
My mother suffered from what we today call postpartum depression, but she had always suffered from a mild form of mental illness stimulated by growing up during segregation in Shreveport, LA. She suffered a severe breakdown and couldn't take care of us. My father left us with people he trusted so that he could work two jobs. I don't think he ever knew what happened to us. My mother recovered enough to take care of us, but her childhood mental illness was left unchecked so we grew up with even more trauma. However, because of my dad and the fact that my mother's "episodes" were spaced out, although, sporadic, we also had a great deal of American "normalcy." My father died when I was 13. My mother didn't really begin to get the help she needed until I became an adult.
It wasn't for lack of trying. My mother always knew she needed help, but the doctors were white and uncaring. It took her decades to find the right kind of help. She never stopped searching (Applause, Please!).
The effects of her illness, attacks from trusted loved ones, and my father's death at an early age have left my siblings and me devastated, not to mention the succeeding generations. But we persist.
My objectives with the TOLM system so far have been largely to heal the trauma of my childhood and my relationship with my mother, the effects of which have been stupendous. My mother is receptive to anything that will help her heal and astute enough to reject what will not help. The insights that have been revealed to me during the TOLM system have helped us both to heal beyond measure.
Now, it seems that it is time to heal the adult trauma that I have inflicted upon myself through anxiety and self-sabotage.
Normally, I would have interpreted yesterday's anxiety attack as a huge failure and shut down completely, unable to do anything, feeling worthless, inept, and every negative name in the book that you can think of. Because of my success with the TOLM, however, I didn't do this. Set and I (as Heru)went to war and last night, Tehuti loaned me his eye. I'm talking about the metaphorein from Ra Un Nefer Amen's Metu Neter vol. 2, p. 137-160.
Previous cycles of the TOLM system had already revealed to me that my anxiety stems from the cry of the baby girl inside of me who new that no one was going to come to her rescue in the midst of the worst of the worst. Why then would I have my worst anxiety attack of the cycle when I received something that I wanted very much?
For forty years, my expectations in life have been based upon the fact that no help would come. This has tainted my perception of what "help" is. Even when I have been able to recognize "help" as help, I've felt unworthy of it. If I accepted help, I would sabotage it just to prove my unworthiness.
Understanding this blessed insight isn't enough. I've got to change the beliefs that feed it. That means that this meditation cycle has officially shifted focus from my original objective of obtaining money to healing my anxiety. That is not to say that the money won't come, but it is no longer the prize. Ashe!
I need to say something here about compassion. Our people (the African diaspora) have suffered and lost so much at the hands of Europeans and wannabes. Now, when we have the capacity to assess what has happened to us, our brightest scholars are so blinded by hopes of European-influenced opulence that we are seemingly unable to cohesively understand what has happened to us. Even the "conscious" brothas and sistas, are blinded by European assessments of our responses to trauma. You never know what someone is going through or why. We are all different and we all incarnated with different strengths, weaknesses, and agendas. Be compassionate in your assessment of others without judging too quickly or too harshly. If any people deserve a second look and reconsideration, it's us by us.
That's it for now. Until next time,
Hetep
Wednesday, October 20, 2010
Tree of Life Meditation System -- 14 -- Het-Heru
Hetep Everyone,
Last night's meditation concerned Het-Heru. At this stage, each meditation has specific objectives. Here are the Het-Heru objectives from Ra Un Nefer Amen's Tree of Life Meditation System:
Let's start with the first objective. For some reason, throughout all of the meditation cycles that I've performed, I just haven't focused on this one too much. I think it has quite a lot to do with lack of belief that it's really possible to go from say anxiety to joy at will. It's one of the things I intend to work on. Until such time, I will admit that with all of the trauma in my life that has led to my having life-long crippling anxiety, the time between attacks and recovery has greatly lessened since I've been using the meditation system and this is without having anxiety recovery as a specific objective. That's life-changing.
Now, for the second objective -- This one is easier for me to reason out...I am to become consciously aware that I use my imagination to cultivate my emotions. Our imagination are very easy to change when we are consciously aware that we are using it. The problem is that we aren't always aware that our emotions are fed by our imagination.
Okay, I'm feeling anxious about something that I want to do, but believe that it will not manifest so my imagination of disappointment feeds my anxiety and I get locked into being anxious like it's a reaping loop. I get so locked into my emotion that I am unaware of anything else. This is why awareness must be cultivated through mediumistic trance and a program like the meditation system. This will make it easier to detach myself from my emotions and concentrate on the fact that my emotions are fed by illusions from my imagination. It's a way to understand that my anxiety is not real, but based upon something that is as insubstantial as smoke.
My theme for this meditation cycle is to manifest money that I want. I discovered through the earlier part of the cycle that the images I've been running through my mind have not been supportive of my desires. Anxiety has been such a severe problem throughout my entire life that, as I stated in an earlier post, I may need to have this as a theme for an entire cycle. I don't know yet, and, probably won't know until the end of this cycle. Will I finally stop allowing anxiety to stop me from manifesting the money I want? I can't wait to find out.
In the meantime, I must persist as imperfectly as I do, trusting that the meditations will leak through to my waking consciousness as experience has taught me to be possible.
That's it for now. Until next time,
Hetep
Last night's meditation concerned Het-Heru. At this stage, each meditation has specific objectives. Here are the Het-Heru objectives from Ra Un Nefer Amen's Tree of Life Meditation System:
To develop the ability to invoke emotions, especially joy, at will.
To develop the awareness that our imagination is the means through which we cultivate our emotions, and is therefore the source of our wishes, wants, and supposed needs.
Let's start with the first objective. For some reason, throughout all of the meditation cycles that I've performed, I just haven't focused on this one too much. I think it has quite a lot to do with lack of belief that it's really possible to go from say anxiety to joy at will. It's one of the things I intend to work on. Until such time, I will admit that with all of the trauma in my life that has led to my having life-long crippling anxiety, the time between attacks and recovery has greatly lessened since I've been using the meditation system and this is without having anxiety recovery as a specific objective. That's life-changing.
Now, for the second objective -- This one is easier for me to reason out...I am to become consciously aware that I use my imagination to cultivate my emotions. Our imagination are very easy to change when we are consciously aware that we are using it. The problem is that we aren't always aware that our emotions are fed by our imagination.
Okay, I'm feeling anxious about something that I want to do, but believe that it will not manifest so my imagination of disappointment feeds my anxiety and I get locked into being anxious like it's a reaping loop. I get so locked into my emotion that I am unaware of anything else. This is why awareness must be cultivated through mediumistic trance and a program like the meditation system. This will make it easier to detach myself from my emotions and concentrate on the fact that my emotions are fed by illusions from my imagination. It's a way to understand that my anxiety is not real, but based upon something that is as insubstantial as smoke.
My theme for this meditation cycle is to manifest money that I want. I discovered through the earlier part of the cycle that the images I've been running through my mind have not been supportive of my desires. Anxiety has been such a severe problem throughout my entire life that, as I stated in an earlier post, I may need to have this as a theme for an entire cycle. I don't know yet, and, probably won't know until the end of this cycle. Will I finally stop allowing anxiety to stop me from manifesting the money I want? I can't wait to find out.
In the meantime, I must persist as imperfectly as I do, trusting that the meditations will leak through to my waking consciousness as experience has taught me to be possible.
That's it for now. Until next time,
Hetep
Tuesday, October 19, 2010
Tree of Life Meditation System -- Day 13 -- Sebek
Hetep Everyone,
Last night was my second night of the programming phase of the Tree of Life Meditation System. One thing I've learned about programming my spirit is that the affects sneak up on you. One day, you just find that what you want to do is distasteful. You clearly see that what you thought you had to do or die really wasn't all that important. It will be the simplest thing in the world not to do it.
This is something that I have had first hand experience with. What I have not had much experience with is taking action. I stated this in my posts at the beginning of this meditation cycle. I'm excited about seeing the opposite affects of the programming. Will it be for me the simplest thing in the world to do the things I've always wanted to do, but have been too anxious to attempt? Wow! This is some life-changing stuff.
The Sebek meditation, last night, involved programming affirmations (p. 222-227 Ra Un Nefer Amen's Tree of Life Meditation System) into my spirit and today, avoiding thinking and reading anything that was not urgent. For the most part, I did very well. My time mostly was occupied by family members who needed me. I slipped up by watching a TV program before I remembered that I wasn't supposed to watch it. However, I remembered most of the day to refer to the affirmations. I had already memorized several of the affirmations, but I found that I need to add one to my repertoire:
I avoided this affirmation initially because I didn't understand some of it and because I didn't want to admit failure in my spiritual cultivation. Now, I find it very freeing to admit completely that I am a work in progress when it comes to my spiritual cultivation.
The part of the affirmation that I did not understand was "that nothing has an emotional or sensual quality in itself." Now I know that it is our images, thoughts, beliefs, ideas, etc. that give meaning to things causing us to determine them as emotional or sensual and thus act on that interpretation.It's kind of like that testing question, "Is the glass half full or half empty?" We decide for ourselves because both answers are right. It's just that one answer fills you with excitement and anticipation while the other can lead to resentment over what has been lost.
The affirmation implies more, however. It makes the question of half full / half empty irrelevant. You don't have to interpret the meaning of the glass at all. What's more important is whether or not what is inside of the glass going to fit the form and function of your objective. If it doesn't, then leave it. If it does fit, then use it in good health. When you know your purpose, life, and, therefore, choices, becomes much more simple.
My purpose or objective is to pursue actions or invoke the Law of Attraction to gain the money I want and then to program my spirit to desire to take those actions in accordance with the Laws of Maat.
Well, that's it for now. Until next time,
Hetep
Last night was my second night of the programming phase of the Tree of Life Meditation System. One thing I've learned about programming my spirit is that the affects sneak up on you. One day, you just find that what you want to do is distasteful. You clearly see that what you thought you had to do or die really wasn't all that important. It will be the simplest thing in the world not to do it.
This is something that I have had first hand experience with. What I have not had much experience with is taking action. I stated this in my posts at the beginning of this meditation cycle. I'm excited about seeing the opposite affects of the programming. Will it be for me the simplest thing in the world to do the things I've always wanted to do, but have been too anxious to attempt? Wow! This is some life-changing stuff.
The Sebek meditation, last night, involved programming affirmations (p. 222-227 Ra Un Nefer Amen's Tree of Life Meditation System) into my spirit and today, avoiding thinking and reading anything that was not urgent. For the most part, I did very well. My time mostly was occupied by family members who needed me. I slipped up by watching a TV program before I remembered that I wasn't supposed to watch it. However, I remembered most of the day to refer to the affirmations. I had already memorized several of the affirmations, but I found that I need to add one to my repertoire:
Tehuti: I am successful in handling the emotional and sensual challenges in my life because I realize that nothing has an emotional or sensual quality in itself. My emotional and sensual reactions are betrayals of my lack of spiritual cultivation in relation to these objects.
I avoided this affirmation initially because I didn't understand some of it and because I didn't want to admit failure in my spiritual cultivation. Now, I find it very freeing to admit completely that I am a work in progress when it comes to my spiritual cultivation.
The part of the affirmation that I did not understand was "that nothing has an emotional or sensual quality in itself." Now I know that it is our images, thoughts, beliefs, ideas, etc. that give meaning to things causing us to determine them as emotional or sensual and thus act on that interpretation.It's kind of like that testing question, "Is the glass half full or half empty?" We decide for ourselves because both answers are right. It's just that one answer fills you with excitement and anticipation while the other can lead to resentment over what has been lost.
The affirmation implies more, however. It makes the question of half full / half empty irrelevant. You don't have to interpret the meaning of the glass at all. What's more important is whether or not what is inside of the glass going to fit the form and function of your objective. If it doesn't, then leave it. If it does fit, then use it in good health. When you know your purpose, life, and, therefore, choices, becomes much more simple.
My purpose or objective is to pursue actions or invoke the Law of Attraction to gain the money I want and then to program my spirit to desire to take those actions in accordance with the Laws of Maat.
Well, that's it for now. Until next time,
Hetep
Monday, October 18, 2010
Tree of Life Meditation System -- Day 12 -- Auset
Hetep Everyone,
We have reached a turning point in the Tree Of Life Meditation cycle. Last night, I was supposed to tally up my Spiritual Quotient. An SQ is the score that tells you how much in alignment you are with the Divine energies of the Tree of Life. My scores are always so low that I've pretty much stopped counting them. Usually, I get something like 16 points. This is a vast improvement considering how long my score remained zero.
A score that shows enough improvement to talk about is around 109. This means that you have months of consistency at taking great care to cultivate your health, life force, and images and thoughts to support your journey toward becoming a Divine Being on earth. When you are able to pass the test of following all of the Laws of Maat simultaneously, then you are ready to proceed to the highest levels of spirituality, Godhood or Goddesshood on earth. Ra Un Nefer Amen, in his Tree of Life Meditation System , recommends only attempting to reach the level of Maat, suggesting that this is enough work to keep you busy for the rest of your life's incarnation. In essence, don't be in a hurry. It's the journey that counts -- persistence, not perfection.
So much for the Spiritual Quotient. The real business is reprogramming my Self. As I said in an earlier post, Auset, 9th Sphere on the Tree of Life, is the beginning of reprogramming. This part of the cycle consists of two meditations:
Once we work our way back down to Amen, there will be another assessment period to see how the programming took. Usually, by that time, something in my life will have changed. It's always a surprise. I've learned that the Universe hardly ever works the way I think it will.
Until next time,
Hetep
We have reached a turning point in the Tree Of Life Meditation cycle. Last night, I was supposed to tally up my Spiritual Quotient. An SQ is the score that tells you how much in alignment you are with the Divine energies of the Tree of Life. My scores are always so low that I've pretty much stopped counting them. Usually, I get something like 16 points. This is a vast improvement considering how long my score remained zero.
A score that shows enough improvement to talk about is around 109. This means that you have months of consistency at taking great care to cultivate your health, life force, and images and thoughts to support your journey toward becoming a Divine Being on earth. When you are able to pass the test of following all of the Laws of Maat simultaneously, then you are ready to proceed to the highest levels of spirituality, Godhood or Goddesshood on earth. Ra Un Nefer Amen, in his Tree of Life Meditation System , recommends only attempting to reach the level of Maat, suggesting that this is enough work to keep you busy for the rest of your life's incarnation. In essence, don't be in a hurry. It's the journey that counts -- persistence, not perfection.
So much for the Spiritual Quotient. The real business is reprogramming my Self. As I said in an earlier post, Auset, 9th Sphere on the Tree of Life, is the beginning of reprogramming. This part of the cycle consists of two meditations:
- First, reflection upon how I break the Law of Auset and meditating on genuine remorse for breaking the Law. This is important. Remorse is a deep sense of guilt. Without this guilt, called the Sorrows of Auset, there is no genuine desire to change.
- Second, establishing Ausar as the identification of my true indwelling Self. Ausar is the highest on the Tree of Life, second only to Amen. Ausar is the unifier of all reality. This is the energy, the Deity, the God that I seek to run my life instead of my limited ego self. It is at this point where I visualize my Self following the Law of Auset by consistently committing to nightly meditation. Funnily enough, I've never sought to program into my spirit actually committing to nightly meditation. I've always left it to my waking ego conscience, which explains why I've been so inconsistent. Duh!
Once we work our way back down to Amen, there will be another assessment period to see how the programming took. Usually, by that time, something in my life will have changed. It's always a surprise. I've learned that the Universe hardly ever works the way I think it will.
Until next time,
Hetep
Sunday, October 17, 2010
Tree of Life Meditation System -- Day 11 -- Geb
Hetep Everyone,
Geb represents the last deity that we will look at to examine my objective of obtaining the money I want to manifest. Of course, we've already established that this meditation cycle has revealed my need to reexamine my images and beliefs that have blocked me from already having the money I want. Also, we have established that money is merely a symbol for the goods and services that I want, and, as such, I don't have to have money directly, but can manifest the goods and services that I want that money to but for me.
So, Let's look at Geb's role in manifesting my objectives. I'm going to focus on one aspect, physical reality.
Money, goods, and services represent the physical. All of the things in my life that exemplify lack represents the physical. In order for objects to exist in the physical, they must have a form in time and space. This includes thoughts, feelings, and actions. For the most part, we have been trained to believe that the physical has some sense of solidity to it. Even though thoughts change, while they are present, they seem real, holding form in time and space, identifiable by our five senses. This is one of the reasons we believe that the physical represents reality.
This belief that we think we know what reality is holds one of the greatest sources of frustrations for us because it is so limiting. This belief does not recognize our power to influence, to change reality. We get locked into our belief that the form we call reality is solid and immutable.
Geb is the complement to Amen, Sphere 0, meaning they are like opposites of the same coin or pedals on a bicycle. They work together. You can't have one without the other. Amen is peace -- happiness -- one without an equal. Amen is formlessness, a state of all possibilities and potentials. Amen is the highest in the hierarchy of the Tree of Life; Geb is the lowest. Formlessness is the highest; form is the lowest. When we believe that reality is solid and unchangeable, we are eating off of the lowest part of the Tree of Life.
It is my belief in the solidity of reality that is the source of my inability to manifest the money that I want. Intellectually, I know I am unlimited, but my thoughts, feelings, and actions prove otherwise.
Here is the Law of Geb, personalized from the words of Ra Un Nefer Amen in his Maat: The 11 Laws of God:
Geb: I know that from heaven I came and to heaven I must return. I seek not enduring works on earth.
Insight: Programming myself to see through form and its illusion of solidity will be much more valuable to me than money, a mere symbol. Knowing, through experience, that I can influence the change of physical form means that I am not limited to money to get what I want. As long as my actions are guided by the Laws of Maat, my resources are limited only by my perceptions which I can cultivate to become unlimited.
We have reached the turning point of the meditation cycle, after I assess my standing with the energies of the deities, the next part of the cycle will be devoted to programming my subconscious mind to accept the changes that will align my spirit with that of the Universe so that I can manifest my objective.
Well, this is it for now. Until next time.
Hetep
Geb represents the last deity that we will look at to examine my objective of obtaining the money I want to manifest. Of course, we've already established that this meditation cycle has revealed my need to reexamine my images and beliefs that have blocked me from already having the money I want. Also, we have established that money is merely a symbol for the goods and services that I want, and, as such, I don't have to have money directly, but can manifest the goods and services that I want that money to but for me.
So, Let's look at Geb's role in manifesting my objectives. I'm going to focus on one aspect, physical reality.
Money, goods, and services represent the physical. All of the things in my life that exemplify lack represents the physical. In order for objects to exist in the physical, they must have a form in time and space. This includes thoughts, feelings, and actions. For the most part, we have been trained to believe that the physical has some sense of solidity to it. Even though thoughts change, while they are present, they seem real, holding form in time and space, identifiable by our five senses. This is one of the reasons we believe that the physical represents reality.
This belief that we think we know what reality is holds one of the greatest sources of frustrations for us because it is so limiting. This belief does not recognize our power to influence, to change reality. We get locked into our belief that the form we call reality is solid and immutable.
Geb is the complement to Amen, Sphere 0, meaning they are like opposites of the same coin or pedals on a bicycle. They work together. You can't have one without the other. Amen is peace -- happiness -- one without an equal. Amen is formlessness, a state of all possibilities and potentials. Amen is the highest in the hierarchy of the Tree of Life; Geb is the lowest. Formlessness is the highest; form is the lowest. When we believe that reality is solid and unchangeable, we are eating off of the lowest part of the Tree of Life.
It is my belief in the solidity of reality that is the source of my inability to manifest the money that I want. Intellectually, I know I am unlimited, but my thoughts, feelings, and actions prove otherwise.
Here is the Law of Geb, personalized from the words of Ra Un Nefer Amen in his Maat: The 11 Laws of God:
Geb: I know that from heaven I came and to heaven I must return. I seek not enduring works on earth.
Insight: Programming myself to see through form and its illusion of solidity will be much more valuable to me than money, a mere symbol. Knowing, through experience, that I can influence the change of physical form means that I am not limited to money to get what I want. As long as my actions are guided by the Laws of Maat, my resources are limited only by my perceptions which I can cultivate to become unlimited.
We have reached the turning point of the meditation cycle, after I assess my standing with the energies of the deities, the next part of the cycle will be devoted to programming my subconscious mind to accept the changes that will align my spirit with that of the Universe so that I can manifest my objective.
Well, this is it for now. Until next time.
Hetep
Saturday, October 16, 2010
Tree of Life Meditation System -- Day 10 -- Auset
Hetep Everyone,
I did not meditate last night. I wanted to confess this so that you could understand what I meant when I said in earlier posts that sometimes my performance during the meditation cycle is lousy. This assessment is a bit strong because I've done much, much worse. But my point is that this is about persistence, not perfection. Not meditating, however, doesn't mean that I didn't get any insights from my nightly ritual of meditation and sleep; it means that my insights did not come from a formal sit-down trance meditation.
Trance meditation is the territory of Auset. Trance meditation consists of changes in consciousness that we go through every day as well as formally sitting down and putting yourself in a calm state that causes you to feel as if you could float away if you wanted.
Everyday trances, according to Ra Un Nefer Amen's Tree of Life Meditation System, includes "daydreams, absorption, moments of absent mindedness, and emotional states." He goes on to point out that during these states of consciousness, as well as formal trance meditation, our minds are receptive to programming our reality. This means that whatever images, beliefs, and ideas that surround us (everything in our environment that we can identify, including our own thoughts, feelings, and actions) become even more entrenched and reinforced into what we believe to be our reality.
The entire point of the Tree of Life Meditation System is to program our thoughts, feelings, and actions with the experiential knowledge that we have the power to change our reality.
Auset, the 9th Sphere on the Tree of Life is the beginning of this programming. Sebek, the 8th Sphere (thoughts, ideas, beliefs), is the second step or tool of programming. Het-Heru, the 7th Sphere(images, joy), is the third and final step or tool.
As stated above, trance relaxes the mind so much that programming what we determine to be reality occurs. It may be difficult to accept "daydreams, absorption, moments of absent mindedness, and emotional states" as trance states in which programming our reality occurs, but think about how often the same images and thoughts repeatedly run through your mind, reinforcing emotions or intentions. Usually, this repetition builds until a result is produced. Perhaps the most common example would be how we provoke arguments. Since we quite often enter into "daydreams, absorption, moments of absent mindedness, and emotional states" without conscious effort, we usually don't see the roles we play in provoking arguments. It's "always" someone else's fault.
Formal trance, through the energies of Auset, means that we consciously program our intentions into our subconscious mind. This means also that we consciously use our power to change our reality to what we choose it to be, replacing hopelessness and despair with optimism and expectation.
If you have read some of my earlier posts, then you will know that I have suffered trauma in my childhood and imposed trauma upon myself during my adulthood; therefore, most of my meditation objectives have dealt with healing my psychological wounds and, as a byproduct, healing the physical wounds (illnesses) caused by my psychological wounds. These wounds took decades to manifest with a lot of situations in which I was forced or I forced myself to do things that went against my Being.
This is one of the main reasons why I prefer using the trance meditation of Auset to heal, but this meditation cycle has revealed to me that I MUST balance my trance meditation with Men Ab meditation. Since I'm trying to avoid copyright issues, I selected this picture of the Black Madonna and Child which is meant to represent its original source, Auset and Heru. 
Heru, the son of Auset, governs Men Ab meditation -- a waking meditation. This means that Heru governs our images and thoughts (Spheres 7 and 8 on the Tree of Life) while we are awake, watching them like a hawk. The nightly meditation (Auset's devotion to Ausar) conceives and nurtures the infant, Heru who becomes the hawk-headed man -- the waking meditation of the day. Consciously programming our reality begins with the mother, Auset.
This puts an entirely different spin on the Madonna and child concept.
Here is the Law of Auset personalized from the words of Ra Un Nefer Amen in his Maat: The 11 Laws of God
:
Auset: I am prepared to sacrifice everything in order to become God's vessel on earth. In return, I will receive everything.
Insights: In order to survive the trauma of my life, I consciously chose to escape reality through images and thoughts, books, movies, television, intellectualism, etc. This is the area of my life where I discovered my freedom, but it was not a physical freedom. It was not even a psychological freedom, but it was a type of freedom that helped me to survive.
My efforts to tame and cultivate this mental freedom that I built for myself have been thwarted by a resistance that may by on the level of a death grip. Nevertheless, I must persist if I am to change my physical reality.
Well, this is it for now.
Until next time,
Hetep
I did not meditate last night. I wanted to confess this so that you could understand what I meant when I said in earlier posts that sometimes my performance during the meditation cycle is lousy. This assessment is a bit strong because I've done much, much worse. But my point is that this is about persistence, not perfection. Not meditating, however, doesn't mean that I didn't get any insights from my nightly ritual of meditation and sleep; it means that my insights did not come from a formal sit-down trance meditation.
Trance meditation is the territory of Auset. Trance meditation consists of changes in consciousness that we go through every day as well as formally sitting down and putting yourself in a calm state that causes you to feel as if you could float away if you wanted.
Everyday trances, according to Ra Un Nefer Amen's Tree of Life Meditation System, includes "daydreams, absorption, moments of absent mindedness, and emotional states." He goes on to point out that during these states of consciousness, as well as formal trance meditation, our minds are receptive to programming our reality. This means that whatever images, beliefs, and ideas that surround us (everything in our environment that we can identify, including our own thoughts, feelings, and actions) become even more entrenched and reinforced into what we believe to be our reality.
The entire point of the Tree of Life Meditation System
is to program our thoughts, feelings, and actions with the experiential knowledge that we have the power to change our reality. Auset, the 9th Sphere on the Tree of Life is the beginning of this programming. Sebek, the 8th Sphere (thoughts, ideas, beliefs), is the second step or tool of programming. Het-Heru, the 7th Sphere(images, joy), is the third and final step or tool.
As stated above, trance relaxes the mind so much that programming what we determine to be reality occurs. It may be difficult to accept "daydreams, absorption, moments of absent mindedness, and emotional states" as trance states in which programming our reality occurs, but think about how often the same images and thoughts repeatedly run through your mind, reinforcing emotions or intentions. Usually, this repetition builds until a result is produced. Perhaps the most common example would be how we provoke arguments. Since we quite often enter into "daydreams, absorption, moments of absent mindedness, and emotional states" without conscious effort, we usually don't see the roles we play in provoking arguments. It's "always" someone else's fault.
Formal trance, through the energies of Auset, means that we consciously program our intentions into our subconscious mind. This means also that we consciously use our power to change our reality to what we choose it to be, replacing hopelessness and despair with optimism and expectation.
If you have read some of my earlier posts, then you will know that I have suffered trauma in my childhood and imposed trauma upon myself during my adulthood; therefore, most of my meditation objectives have dealt with healing my psychological wounds and, as a byproduct, healing the physical wounds (illnesses) caused by my psychological wounds. These wounds took decades to manifest with a lot of situations in which I was forced or I forced myself to do things that went against my Being.
This is one of the main reasons why I prefer using the trance meditation of Auset to heal, but this meditation cycle has revealed to me that I MUST balance my trance meditation with Men Ab meditation. Since I'm trying to avoid copyright issues, I selected this picture of the Black Madonna and Child which is meant to represent its original source, Auset and Heru. Heru, the son of Auset, governs Men Ab meditation -- a waking meditation. This means that Heru governs our images and thoughts (Spheres 7 and 8 on the Tree of Life) while we are awake, watching them like a hawk. The nightly meditation (Auset's devotion to Ausar) conceives and nurtures the infant, Heru who becomes the hawk-headed man -- the waking meditation of the day. Consciously programming our reality begins with the mother, Auset. This puts an entirely different spin on the Madonna and child concept.
Here is the Law of Auset personalized from the words of Ra Un Nefer Amen in his Maat: The 11 Laws of God
:Auset: I am prepared to sacrifice everything in order to become God's vessel on earth. In return, I will receive everything.
Insights: In order to survive the trauma of my life, I consciously chose to escape reality through images and thoughts, books, movies, television, intellectualism, etc. This is the area of my life where I discovered my freedom, but it was not a physical freedom. It was not even a psychological freedom, but it was a type of freedom that helped me to survive.
My efforts to tame and cultivate this mental freedom that I built for myself have been thwarted by a resistance that may by on the level of a death grip. Nevertheless, I must persist if I am to change my physical reality.
Well, this is it for now.
Until next time,
Hetep
Friday, October 15, 2010
Tree of Life Meditation System -- Day 9 -- Sebek
Hetep Everyone,
In addition to regulating images, Heru also regulates thoughts.Thoughts fall under the territory of Sebek. What we think on a daily basis helps to create the world around us. This can be positive or negative.
All right, let's get down to business. It's very late. I have been unsure of what I wanted to say so I put off posting to this blog. This means that I am faced with the same Heru problem that I have mentioned before -- I refuse to allow myself to perform the Men Ab meditation that can make me more efficient and able to meet my objectives. My thoughts always, in these situations, convince me that procrastinating is okay, at least while I'm procrastinating. This is the power of Sebek -- a trickster energy. Sebek governs my rationalizing and justifying which have nothing to do with ensuring that my thoughts, feelings, and actions are unified to meet the form and function of my objectives.
The other side of Sebek is that this energy can be used to program our thoughts to support the thoughts, feelings, and actions that do meet the form and function of my objectives.
The energy of Sebek is neutral. We can determine for ourselves how we want to use it. The problem is that this society is designed to perpetuate the rationalizing and justifying that blocks spiritual development.
Often, during times of procrastination, I forget why I want to pursue developing my spirituality. I get distracted. Fortunately, the meditation cycle can accommodate this through programming.
Okay, let me wrap this up by giving you the Law of Sebek (Personalized from the words of Ra Un Nefer Amen from his book Maat: The 11 Laws of God).
Sebek: It is not what I think nor what I affirm. It is who is thinking and affirming. Are you a human or a Divine being?
Insight: It is becoming clearer that my expectations (thoughts) help to determine my outcomes. For most of my life, my expectations have been mostly negative, leaving me with negative results. I'm very glad that I have the opportunity to change this.
Until next time,
Hetep
In addition to regulating images, Heru also regulates thoughts.Thoughts fall under the territory of Sebek. What we think on a daily basis helps to create the world around us. This can be positive or negative.
All right, let's get down to business. It's very late. I have been unsure of what I wanted to say so I put off posting to this blog. This means that I am faced with the same Heru problem that I have mentioned before -- I refuse to allow myself to perform the Men Ab meditation that can make me more efficient and able to meet my objectives. My thoughts always, in these situations, convince me that procrastinating is okay, at least while I'm procrastinating. This is the power of Sebek -- a trickster energy. Sebek governs my rationalizing and justifying which have nothing to do with ensuring that my thoughts, feelings, and actions are unified to meet the form and function of my objectives.
The other side of Sebek is that this energy can be used to program our thoughts to support the thoughts, feelings, and actions that do meet the form and function of my objectives.
The energy of Sebek is neutral. We can determine for ourselves how we want to use it. The problem is that this society is designed to perpetuate the rationalizing and justifying that blocks spiritual development.
Often, during times of procrastination, I forget why I want to pursue developing my spirituality. I get distracted. Fortunately, the meditation cycle can accommodate this through programming.
Okay, let me wrap this up by giving you the Law of Sebek (Personalized from the words of Ra Un Nefer Amen from his book Maat: The 11 Laws of God).
Sebek: It is not what I think nor what I affirm. It is who is thinking and affirming. Are you a human or a Divine being?
Insight: It is becoming clearer that my expectations (thoughts) help to determine my outcomes. For most of my life, my expectations have been mostly negative, leaving me with negative results. I'm very glad that I have the opportunity to change this.
Until next time,
Hetep
Thursday, October 14, 2010
Tree of Life Meditation System -- Day 8 -- Het-Heru
Hetep Everyone,
We are surrounded by images that our five senses can detect and identify, defining our reality. We use a lot of our energy to orient ourselves in this reality. Few of us give conscious thought to the images with which we surround ourselves. If we were to give images more thought, we would be much better at directing our emotions.
When I speak of images, I'm not just thinking in terms of two dimensional pictures. I'm also referencing three-dimensional images, including people, pets, houses, cars, symbolic images like political, economic, and social systems, governments, the environment, etc. Images are unlimited by time and space so also, I think in terms of thought processes and the hidden that our senses have not been trained to detect like electromagnetic fields and possibilities and actions that lead to events beyond our sight.
Images are so powerful that one of the first steps in changing reality is changing the images to reflect that reality. Once you develop an emotional attachment or meaning to that image, you will be motivated to take the action necessary to enhance the reality of that image.
Advertisers are brilliant at applying this concept and getting you emotionally hooked on buying their products. Advertisers are not the only ones who do this. We do this every day of our lives. Everything that we are surrounded by is there either because we placed it there or we put ourselves in the situation to be where that image was.
This is one heck of a presumptuous statement, you might say. Well, it is, but I'm also speaking on a cosmic level, considering the fact that we choose our own births. Okay, I don't want to lose track of the subject of images so I'll save the birth issue for another discussion. What really interests me is consciously choosing our images. Just in case you're interested, Feng Shui is a very good place to begin to consciously choose your own images.
Many of us who study the Metu Neter do so because we want to uplift ourselves and our communities out of oppression. We seem to be very clear on what we don't want, but what is it that we really want? Think of the joy we could cultivate from developing those images and the beliefs that could empower them toward manifestation. What if we put all of the energy that we use to complain about what we don't have into creating what we want? What kind of communities and societies would we build? It's a lot to consider.
Here is the Law of Het-Heru, personalized from the words of Ra Un Nefer Amen in his book Maat: The 11 Laws of God.
Het-Heru: It is not what I imagine. It is who is imagining. Am I a Human or a Divine Being?
Insight: For starters, I want to cultivate images that reflect the Divine, Creative being that I am and nurture how this affects my family. I'm witnessing the spreading and growth of peace throughout my family members where desperation reigned. It's slow going, but it's growing. If I don't judge my family for judging me, I find that they eventually accept me.
Another thing about family that I think is true is that all of the problems that we want to fix out there in the community exist in our families. Helping my family is helping the community. From myself to family to community to world -- I think that's a good plan.
That's it for now. Until next time,
Hetep
We are surrounded by images that our five senses can detect and identify, defining our reality. We use a lot of our energy to orient ourselves in this reality. Few of us give conscious thought to the images with which we surround ourselves. If we were to give images more thought, we would be much better at directing our emotions.
When I speak of images, I'm not just thinking in terms of two dimensional pictures. I'm also referencing three-dimensional images, including people, pets, houses, cars, symbolic images like political, economic, and social systems, governments, the environment, etc. Images are unlimited by time and space so also, I think in terms of thought processes and the hidden that our senses have not been trained to detect like electromagnetic fields and possibilities and actions that lead to events beyond our sight.
Images are so powerful that one of the first steps in changing reality is changing the images to reflect that reality. Once you develop an emotional attachment or meaning to that image, you will be motivated to take the action necessary to enhance the reality of that image.
Advertisers are brilliant at applying this concept and getting you emotionally hooked on buying their products. Advertisers are not the only ones who do this. We do this every day of our lives. Everything that we are surrounded by is there either because we placed it there or we put ourselves in the situation to be where that image was.
This is one heck of a presumptuous statement, you might say. Well, it is, but I'm also speaking on a cosmic level, considering the fact that we choose our own births. Okay, I don't want to lose track of the subject of images so I'll save the birth issue for another discussion. What really interests me is consciously choosing our images. Just in case you're interested, Feng Shui is a very good place to begin to consciously choose your own images.
Many of us who study the Metu Neter
do so because we want to uplift ourselves and our communities out of oppression. We seem to be very clear on what we don't want, but what is it that we really want? Think of the joy we could cultivate from developing those images and the beliefs that could empower them toward manifestation. What if we put all of the energy that we use to complain about what we don't have into creating what we want? What kind of communities and societies would we build? It's a lot to consider.Here is the Law of Het-Heru, personalized from the words of Ra Un Nefer Amen in his book Maat: The 11 Laws of God.
Het-Heru: It is not what I imagine. It is who is imagining. Am I a Human or a Divine Being?
Insight: For starters, I want to cultivate images that reflect the Divine, Creative being that I am and nurture how this affects my family. I'm witnessing the spreading and growth of peace throughout my family members where desperation reigned. It's slow going, but it's growing. If I don't judge my family for judging me, I find that they eventually accept me.
Another thing about family that I think is true is that all of the problems that we want to fix out there in the community exist in our families. Helping my family is helping the community. From myself to family to community to world -- I think that's a good plan.
That's it for now. Until next time,
Hetep
Tree of Life Meditation System -- Heru Revisited
Hetep Everyone,
Sleep is a powerful thing. You go to bed with questions and you wake up with answers. You go to bed confused and wake up with clarity. It's wonderful; therefore, I want to continue my discussion on Heru.
Heru was named Horus by the Greeks. Heru is the Christ image, the God who has arisen from the dead. In Kemetic (Ancient Egyptian) terminology, one interpretation of this is that Heru is the representation of our waking consciousness as opposed to the consciousness we use when we are asleep. Sleep is symbolic of death. Not knowing this or, perhaps, wanting to mislead others, Europeans misinterpreted the story of Heru and named the Kemetic book about him, The Book of the Dead. The True title is The Pert Em Hru (Becoming Awake or Coming Forth By Day). Heru is God arisen from the grave -- the grave being your subconscious mind. Heru is God freed from the limitations of simply running our subconscious bodily functions like blinking our eyes.
That same energy that moves our bodily functions in synchronous orbit moves the planets around the sun, the sun around the galaxy, the galaxy around the universe, and the universe around the cosmos. As such, we are made in the likeness of God -- As above, so below. We are creators with the potential to command that energy, but first, we must wake up to the conscious knowledge and experience of it.
On a personal note, I have information about my potential, but not conscious knowledge or experience of it. This is why I persist in my participation of the meditation cycles. I want to consciously experience the power of creating, not just my own reality, but a reality that is harmoniously aligned for all.
This is why I was so disappointed yesterday in my performance. I refused to acknowledge my own power, locking myself into activities that did not fit the form and function of my objectives. I did not use the tools available to me in the Heru Sphere of the Tree of Life. These tools consist of a type of meditation called Men Ab. Briefly, Men Ab consists of:
Using these tools could have restored me back to consciousness. Instead, I was locked in a trance state of dis-empowering thoughts and images all of which were emotional and fear-based. This is okay. It simply means that I am getting to the source of things that have blocked me. Those blockages are alive and want to stay that way.
The blockages are called Set, known today as Satan. Heru fights Set. Our enlightened consciousness (our True Will) fights to subdue our limited ego. This is so much more than mere "will power". Will power is forcing yourself to do something you know you should do. The Will of Heru is thinking, feeling, and acting based upon an indwelling intelligence (the subconscious mind of the True Self). The indwelling intelligence is directly linked to the perfectly balanced power that moves the universe in synchronous harmony. This means that thoughts, feelings, and actions based upon the True Will (Heru) cause no conflict and will result in immediate or eventual creative alignment. We access and cultivate this indwelling intelligence through our nightly meditations. The intelligence rises or resurrects itself through our waking consciousness (Heru), during the day, thus the true title of The Book of the Dead -- The Pert Em Hru (Becoming Awake or Coming Forth By Day)
Heru is symbolized as a hawk because in a hawk-like way, we must monitor our thoughts, feelings, and actions according to our True Will, protecting them from our limited ego (Set). During the day, Set produces for us a reality through images, beliefs, and affirmations. Like a hawk, we must learn to see through Set's illusions with clarity, using our inner eye (known as the Third Eye, Tehuti's Eye, the Pineal Gland) to follow our True Will as we create a more balanced reality.
Now, I am ready to talk about Het-Heru, but I will do so on a different post.
Until next time,
Hetep
Sleep is a powerful thing. You go to bed with questions and you wake up with answers. You go to bed confused and wake up with clarity. It's wonderful; therefore, I want to continue my discussion on Heru.
Heru was named Horus by the Greeks. Heru is the Christ image, the God who has arisen from the dead. In Kemetic (Ancient Egyptian) terminology, one interpretation of this is that Heru is the representation of our waking consciousness as opposed to the consciousness we use when we are asleep. Sleep is symbolic of death. Not knowing this or, perhaps, wanting to mislead others, Europeans misinterpreted the story of Heru and named the Kemetic book about him, The Book of the Dead. The True title is The Pert Em Hru (Becoming Awake or Coming Forth By Day). Heru is God arisen from the grave -- the grave being your subconscious mind. Heru is God freed from the limitations of simply running our subconscious bodily functions like blinking our eyes.
That same energy that moves our bodily functions in synchronous orbit moves the planets around the sun, the sun around the galaxy, the galaxy around the universe, and the universe around the cosmos. As such, we are made in the likeness of God -- As above, so below. We are creators with the potential to command that energy, but first, we must wake up to the conscious knowledge and experience of it.
On a personal note, I have information about my potential, but not conscious knowledge or experience of it. This is why I persist in my participation of the meditation cycles. I want to consciously experience the power of creating, not just my own reality, but a reality that is harmoniously aligned for all.
This is why I was so disappointed yesterday in my performance. I refused to acknowledge my own power, locking myself into activities that did not fit the form and function of my objectives. I did not use the tools available to me in the Heru Sphere of the Tree of Life. These tools consist of a type of meditation called Men Ab. Briefly, Men Ab consists of:
- Pausing -- Stilling the Will -- Stop what you're doing
- Breathing -- taking slow deep breaths similar to those used in nightly meditation
- Using imagery like the Sesh Metut Neter -- imagine wearing the crown shown in the above picture to remind you of uncorrupted power
- Chanting or singing the Hekau -- Words of Power given in the Metu Neter Vol. 1: The Great Oracle of Tehuti and the Egyptian System of Spiritual Cultivation
- Thinking, feeling, or doing what will fit the form and function of your objectives
Using these tools could have restored me back to consciousness. Instead, I was locked in a trance state of dis-empowering thoughts and images all of which were emotional and fear-based. This is okay. It simply means that I am getting to the source of things that have blocked me. Those blockages are alive and want to stay that way.
The blockages are called Set, known today as Satan. Heru fights Set. Our enlightened consciousness (our True Will) fights to subdue our limited ego. This is so much more than mere "will power". Will power is forcing yourself to do something you know you should do. The Will of Heru is thinking, feeling, and acting based upon an indwelling intelligence (the subconscious mind of the True Self). The indwelling intelligence is directly linked to the perfectly balanced power that moves the universe in synchronous harmony. This means that thoughts, feelings, and actions based upon the True Will (Heru) cause no conflict and will result in immediate or eventual creative alignment. We access and cultivate this indwelling intelligence through our nightly meditations. The intelligence rises or resurrects itself through our waking consciousness (Heru), during the day, thus the true title of The Book of the Dead -- The Pert Em Hru (Becoming Awake or Coming Forth By Day)
Heru is symbolized as a hawk because in a hawk-like way, we must monitor our thoughts, feelings, and actions according to our True Will, protecting them from our limited ego (Set). During the day, Set produces for us a reality through images, beliefs, and affirmations. Like a hawk, we must learn to see through Set's illusions with clarity, using our inner eye (known as the Third Eye, Tehuti's Eye, the Pineal Gland) to follow our True Will as we create a more balanced reality.
Now, I am ready to talk about Het-Heru, but I will do so on a different post.
Until next time,
Hetep
Wednesday, October 13, 2010
Tree of Life Meditation System -- Day 7 -- Heru
Hetep Everyone,
I'm a bit late with this posting. My meditation last night and review of Ra Un Nefer Amen's The Tree of Life Meditation System revealed that my daydreams are not consistent with my objectives. This is very important because thoughts, feelings, and actions should be one. This is a very weak point for me so much so that it may take another meditation cycle for me to correct. I will have to wait and see. In the mean time, I will keep pursuing my meditation.
Here is the Law of Heru. I've personalized it from the words of Ra Un Nefer Amen in his Maat: The 11 Laws of God:
Heru: I have the power, but not the right to ignore God's Law. I choose to follow the Law of God with the Love and Joy that grows from understanding so that the wisdom and power of God's spirit will flow through my being.
I'm extremely disappointed with the results of my day, concerning the Heru energy, but I am also happy to discover that I have been neglecting the way I monitor the images I accept into my life. Now, I can work to correct this problem. It will be more appropriate for me to discuss this on tomorrow because Het-Heru, the theme of tonight's meditation, deals specifically with images.
So, until next time,
Hetep
I'm a bit late with this posting. My meditation last night and review of Ra Un Nefer Amen's The Tree of Life Meditation System revealed that my daydreams are not consistent with my objectives. This is very important because thoughts, feelings, and actions should be one. This is a very weak point for me so much so that it may take another meditation cycle for me to correct. I will have to wait and see. In the mean time, I will keep pursuing my meditation.
Here is the Law of Heru. I've personalized it from the words of Ra Un Nefer Amen in his Maat: The 11 Laws of God
:Heru: I have the power, but not the right to ignore God's Law. I choose to follow the Law of God with the Love and Joy that grows from understanding so that the wisdom and power of God's spirit will flow through my being.
I'm extremely disappointed with the results of my day, concerning the Heru energy, but I am also happy to discover that I have been neglecting the way I monitor the images I accept into my life. Now, I can work to correct this problem. It will be more appropriate for me to discuss this on tomorrow because Het-Heru, the theme of tonight's meditation, deals specifically with images.
So, until next time,
Hetep
Tuesday, October 12, 2010
Tree of Life Meditation System -- Day 6 -- HeruKhuti
Hetep Everyone,
Last night, I focused on HeruKhuti during my Tree of Life Meditation. My objective is to acquire some money that I want, but the meditation is revealing my need to deal with the fears that have prevented me from having the money already. Fear is the perfect complication for HeruKhuti to resolve.
While studying the deities, I discovered that HeruKhuti was the most intimidating for me. What makes this especially awkward is that HeruKhuti is one of my incarnation objectives for this lifetime. I could hardly believe it when the reading revealed this card. I wanted to put it back. My ego had told me resolutely that my incarnation objective was Sebek, dealing with my intellect. All of my thoughts, feelings, and actions pointed me in that direction. It wasn't until I did my astrology chart that I understood my confusion.
The planet Mercury and Sebek are comparable. Mercury rules Virgo where my Sun sign lies in the 6th House, which also is ruled by Mercury. This explained to me why my tendency is to be cerebral; however, I was born at night, making my Ascendant dominant. My Ascendant is Aries, ruled by Mars, which is comparable to HeruKhuti. Even my Feng Shui reading revealed fire energy, which is HeruKhuti energy, helping me to see that the earth tones (Sebek - Virgo energy)with which I loved to surround myself were adding to my imbalance. I just discovered this imbalance this year.
What a major conflict in perspective. I was bitter when I found out that this fire energy that I've been suppressing all of my life is supposed to manifest itself. When I told my mother that my horoscope showed that I had a quick temper, she said, "You just now finding that out?" Truthfully, it was news to me. I never acknowledged my own anger because I was too busy concentrating on the anger-provoking, stupid things that other people did. Seeing and feeling my own anger has been eye-opening, to say the least.
Anyway, I can no longer hide from HeruKhuti. What I called myself running from was HeruKhuti's knife and punishment. You can see it in the picture that I've provided.
I've always felt guilty, not that I've done anything especially wrong. I've just felt judged and found lacking some something, waiting for punishment of crimes I could never see that I had committed. There's nothing rational about this. It's just been a feeling haunting me for most of my life. The threat of HeruKhuti weighed heavily on me so I shoved it to the back of my mind.
Deeper studies of HeruKhuti have taught me that I had been seeing this energy through the eyes of my Christian upbringing. No. HeruKhuti is not some white God in the sky waiting to drag me off somewhere. The Law of HeruKhuti makes it plain that I control my punishments, protection, and rewards by following the Laws of Maat and treating my Self, others, and the environment according to those laws.
The best news that I discovered about HeruKhuti is that this Law is the 5th Sphere on the Tree of Life, meaning that I've got a lot of room to grow into it. I don't have to force my Self to act as if my spiritual development has already reached the 5th Sphere. Such an act isn't even truthful. I'm still in the bosom of Auset, wrapped in motherly love and compassion as I heal from the wounds of living and grow in spirit as a Divine Being.
I aspire toward HeruKhuti; therefore, I will know when I've arrived.
Here is the Law of HeruKhuti personalized from the words of Ra Un Nefer Amen in his Maat: The 11 Laws of God:
HeruKhuti: I know that God neither punishes, not protects nor rewards. I have the comfort of controlling these for my Self.
The insight that my meditation revealed was that instead of fearing HeruKhuti's knife, I should use it to sever, cut away, my fear for acting to obtain the money I want.
Until next time,
Hetep
Last night, I focused on HeruKhuti during my Tree of Life Meditation. My objective is to acquire some money that I want, but the meditation is revealing my need to deal with the fears that have prevented me from having the money already. Fear is the perfect complication for HeruKhuti to resolve.
While studying the deities, I discovered that HeruKhuti was the most intimidating for me. What makes this especially awkward is that HeruKhuti is one of my incarnation objectives for this lifetime. I could hardly believe it when the reading revealed this card. I wanted to put it back. My ego had told me resolutely that my incarnation objective was Sebek, dealing with my intellect. All of my thoughts, feelings, and actions pointed me in that direction. It wasn't until I did my astrology chart that I understood my confusion.
The planet Mercury and Sebek are comparable. Mercury rules Virgo where my Sun sign lies in the 6th House, which also is ruled by Mercury. This explained to me why my tendency is to be cerebral; however, I was born at night, making my Ascendant dominant. My Ascendant is Aries, ruled by Mars, which is comparable to HeruKhuti. Even my Feng Shui reading revealed fire energy, which is HeruKhuti energy, helping me to see that the earth tones (Sebek - Virgo energy)with which I loved to surround myself were adding to my imbalance. I just discovered this imbalance this year.
What a major conflict in perspective. I was bitter when I found out that this fire energy that I've been suppressing all of my life is supposed to manifest itself. When I told my mother that my horoscope showed that I had a quick temper, she said, "You just now finding that out?" Truthfully, it was news to me. I never acknowledged my own anger because I was too busy concentrating on the anger-provoking, stupid things that other people did. Seeing and feeling my own anger has been eye-opening, to say the least.
Anyway, I can no longer hide from HeruKhuti. What I called myself running from was HeruKhuti's knife and punishment. You can see it in the picture that I've provided.
I've always felt guilty, not that I've done anything especially wrong. I've just felt judged and found lacking some something, waiting for punishment of crimes I could never see that I had committed. There's nothing rational about this. It's just been a feeling haunting me for most of my life. The threat of HeruKhuti weighed heavily on me so I shoved it to the back of my mind.
Deeper studies of HeruKhuti have taught me that I had been seeing this energy through the eyes of my Christian upbringing. No. HeruKhuti is not some white God in the sky waiting to drag me off somewhere. The Law of HeruKhuti makes it plain that I control my punishments, protection, and rewards by following the Laws of Maat and treating my Self, others, and the environment according to those laws.
The best news that I discovered about HeruKhuti is that this Law is the 5th Sphere on the Tree of Life, meaning that I've got a lot of room to grow into it. I don't have to force my Self to act as if my spiritual development has already reached the 5th Sphere. Such an act isn't even truthful. I'm still in the bosom of Auset, wrapped in motherly love and compassion as I heal from the wounds of living and grow in spirit as a Divine Being.
I aspire toward HeruKhuti; therefore, I will know when I've arrived.
Here is the Law of HeruKhuti personalized from the words of Ra Un Nefer Amen in his Maat: The 11 Laws of God
:HeruKhuti: I know that God neither punishes, not protects nor rewards. I have the comfort of controlling these for my Self.
The insight that my meditation revealed was that instead of fearing HeruKhuti's knife, I should use it to sever, cut away, my fear for acting to obtain the money I want.
Until next time,
Hetep
Monday, October 11, 2010
Tree of Life Meditation System -- Day 5 -- Maat
Hetep Everyone,
I was very excited about my meditation last night. My objective seems to be shifting. This happens quite often. I begin the meditation cycle with one objective and it shifts into something else that needs to be resolved before I can continue with what I originally intended or I no longer see a need for my original objective.
This seems to have occurred. The objective seems to have shifted to my fear of taking action -- a much needed objective.
Now, let's discuss Maat. Most people who study Maat understand that this energy deals with love, sharing, order, and, of course, truth. Ra Un Nefer Amen, in The Tree of Life Meditation System, discusses Maat, at length, in terms of form and function, truth of premise, interdependence, and inter-relationships. This is weighty stuff, but I've been wading through it. It seems that understanding these concepts allows us to apply Maat in practical terms, but, and this is huge, we must be free of emotions in order to use this aspect of Maat.
Fear is one of those emotions that entices us to commit acts of desperation. If you are about to commit a desperate act, what will cause you to stop and think of whether or not the function of your action will fit the form you are trying to create? For that matter, what will cause you to stop and consider the consequences of your actions?
Well, one of the major benefits of the Tree of Life Meditation System is the opportunity of calmly considering the functions of your thoughts, feelings, and actions while weighing them against the forms you create. The importance of this is that we are given the tools to move our lives as creators rather than products or victims of someone else's creations.
Following is the Law of Maat (personalized from the words of Ra Un Nefer Amen found in Maat, the 11 Laws of God) and some of the insights I gained during my meditation.
Maat -- God needs me in order to come into the world. Fulfilling God's need is the highest act of love and only through my love for God can I fulfill my love for others. I become the love of God in the world for the protection of the world.
Since my objective has shifted from obtaining money that I want to resolving the fears that have blocked me from having already manifested the money, I was led, through meditation, to ask myself two questions:
I was very excited about my meditation last night. My objective seems to be shifting. This happens quite often. I begin the meditation cycle with one objective and it shifts into something else that needs to be resolved before I can continue with what I originally intended or I no longer see a need for my original objective.
This seems to have occurred. The objective seems to have shifted to my fear of taking action -- a much needed objective.
Now, let's discuss Maat. Most people who study Maat understand that this energy deals with love, sharing, order, and, of course, truth. Ra Un Nefer Amen, in The Tree of Life Meditation System
, discusses Maat, at length, in terms of form and function, truth of premise, interdependence, and inter-relationships. This is weighty stuff, but I've been wading through it. It seems that understanding these concepts allows us to apply Maat in practical terms, but, and this is huge, we must be free of emotions in order to use this aspect of Maat. Fear is one of those emotions that entices us to commit acts of desperation. If you are about to commit a desperate act, what will cause you to stop and think of whether or not the function of your action will fit the form you are trying to create? For that matter, what will cause you to stop and consider the consequences of your actions?
Well, one of the major benefits of the Tree of Life Meditation System is the opportunity of calmly considering the functions of your thoughts, feelings, and actions while weighing them against the forms you create. The importance of this is that we are given the tools to move our lives as creators rather than products or victims of someone else's creations.
Following is the Law of Maat (personalized from the words of Ra Un Nefer Amen found in Maat, the 11 Laws of God) and some of the insights I gained during my meditation.
Maat -- God needs me in order to come into the world. Fulfilling God's need is the highest act of love and only through my love for God can I fulfill my love for others. I become the love of God in the world for the protection of the world.
Since my objective has shifted from obtaining money that I want to resolving the fears that have blocked me from having already manifested the money, I was led, through meditation, to ask myself two questions:
- What premise (truth), form, and function do my fear serve?
- What premise (truth), form, and function will acquiring money serve? The answers to these questions are helping me to place my fear, thoughts, feelings, and actions into a prioritized perspective, giving me the conscious choice of viewing my situation through the eyes of desperation or empowerment. Until next time, Hetep
Sunday, October 10, 2010
Tree of Life Meditation System -- Day 4 -- Seker
Hetep Everyone,
Last night's Tree of Life Meditation for Seker was of supreme quality. I remembered everything:
Contracting the perineum while holding my breath really makes a big difference when attempting to reach the trance state where answers can be discovered.
A lot of times, I get complacent about my meditation techniques and do not achieve good results. I allow myself to be satisfied that I've at least meditated. This is sloppiness and laziness. This is one of the chief reasons for staying committed to doing the Tree of Life Meditation System each monthly cycle. My consistent participation in TOLM helps to ensure that I catch and correct this sloppiness. Persistence, not perfection makes a difference.
One benefit of performing a good meditation is receiving a gem of an insight, which did occur for me. My confirmation of this was awakening at the Seker hour (12am-3am) with the insight firmly on my mind.
Enough stalling. Let me give you the Law of Seker and the insight.This is the law according to Ra Un Nefer Amen in Maat the 11 Laws of God.
Seker -- When the emotions of Man manifest in response to the Word of God, they have the power to influence the course of any and all events in the world.
Insight -- Seker, 3rd Sphere on the Tree of Life is about Spiritual Power and your ability to influence the course of the events in your life, as the Law states. We are, of course, barred from this power until we attain the fullness of our Spirituality, but we can tap into bits and pieces of it, even if it is by "accident."
The insight that I received after a review of the Seker chapter in The Tree of Life Meditation book by Ra Un Nefer Amen was that I am endowed with the ability to achieve things even though I lack external and intellectual resources. Further, I have difficulty imagining myself possessing the money that I want. Instead, I was directed in the meditation to return to my understanding of perception.
Astrologically speaking, it is easier for me to grasp the concept of perception than physical manifestation. My Mercury is in the sign of the House that it rules -- Virgo, which is where my sun sign is placed. My tendency leans more toward thought than action. Those with different astrology birth chart readings will react to what I'm about to say differently, as should be expected.
My understanding of perception is that we see what most benefits our states of mind, belief systems, and values. This is how we limit our interpretation of reality. We see what we want to see even though much, much more might be there.
Here is an example: I try to mentally stimulate my Chakras, imagining their colors and placement in my body. I was sitting in the kitchen one day while I was doing this and I started looking for the Chakra colors (colors of the rainbow) around the room. I didn't intentionally place any of the colors in the kitchen, I just felt that they should be there. Sure enough, I found all of them, looking at the calendar, cereal boxes, pictures of relatives, etc. I've done this in different locations and I find what I'm looking for.
Further development of the insight led me to understand that instead of waiting to see if the money that I want will manifest itself at the end of the meditation cycle "somehow," I should start to look for the goods and services for which I would exchange the money.
As I said earlier, my tendency is to be cerebral so taking direct action, for me, is intimidating. Fortunately, I am still in the part of the meditation cycle that only requires me to look at the issue. The other half of the cycle will program me for taking action, but now I know that this action is ahead for me. One of the benefits of this meditation cycle will be an alleviation of my fear of action. I will have to address it in my meditation. Even if my efforts are lousy, my fear will be addressed, and, therefore, weakened, awaiting other meditation cycles that will further strengthen my courage.
So far, I'm impressed with my progress -- persistence, not perfection.
Until next time,
Hetep
Last night's Tree of Life Meditation
for Seker was of supreme quality. I remembered everything: - I contracted my lower abdomen when I exhaled.
- I expanded my lower abdomen when I inhaled.
- I contracted my perineum when I held my breath.
- I pictured two Sesh Metut -- the Uas Staff and the Aungkh.
Contracting the perineum while holding my breath really makes a big difference when attempting to reach the trance state where answers can be discovered.
A lot of times, I get complacent about my meditation techniques and do not achieve good results. I allow myself to be satisfied that I've at least meditated. This is sloppiness and laziness. This is one of the chief reasons for staying committed to doing the Tree of Life Meditation System each monthly cycle. My consistent participation in TOLM helps to ensure that I catch and correct this sloppiness. Persistence, not perfection makes a difference.
One benefit of performing a good meditation is receiving a gem of an insight, which did occur for me. My confirmation of this was awakening at the Seker hour (12am-3am) with the insight firmly on my mind.
Enough stalling. Let me give you the Law of Seker and the insight.This is the law according to Ra Un Nefer Amen in Maat the 11 Laws of God
.Seker -- When the emotions of Man manifest in response to the Word of God, they have the power to influence the course of any and all events in the world.
Insight -- Seker, 3rd Sphere on the Tree of Life is about Spiritual Power and your ability to influence the course of the events in your life, as the Law states. We are, of course, barred from this power until we attain the fullness of our Spirituality, but we can tap into bits and pieces of it, even if it is by "accident."
The insight that I received after a review of the Seker chapter in The Tree of Life Meditation book by Ra Un Nefer Amen was that I am endowed with the ability to achieve things even though I lack external and intellectual resources. Further, I have difficulty imagining myself possessing the money that I want. Instead, I was directed in the meditation to return to my understanding of perception.
Astrologically speaking, it is easier for me to grasp the concept of perception than physical manifestation. My Mercury is in the sign of the House that it rules -- Virgo, which is where my sun sign is placed. My tendency leans more toward thought than action. Those with different astrology birth chart readings will react to what I'm about to say differently, as should be expected.
My understanding of perception is that we see what most benefits our states of mind, belief systems, and values. This is how we limit our interpretation of reality. We see what we want to see even though much, much more might be there.
Here is an example: I try to mentally stimulate my Chakras, imagining their colors and placement in my body. I was sitting in the kitchen one day while I was doing this and I started looking for the Chakra colors (colors of the rainbow) around the room. I didn't intentionally place any of the colors in the kitchen, I just felt that they should be there. Sure enough, I found all of them, looking at the calendar, cereal boxes, pictures of relatives, etc. I've done this in different locations and I find what I'm looking for.
Further development of the insight led me to understand that instead of waiting to see if the money that I want will manifest itself at the end of the meditation cycle "somehow," I should start to look for the goods and services for which I would exchange the money.
As I said earlier, my tendency is to be cerebral so taking direct action, for me, is intimidating. Fortunately, I am still in the part of the meditation cycle that only requires me to look at the issue. The other half of the cycle will program me for taking action, but now I know that this action is ahead for me. One of the benefits of this meditation cycle will be an alleviation of my fear of action. I will have to address it in my meditation. Even if my efforts are lousy, my fear will be addressed, and, therefore, weakened, awaiting other meditation cycles that will further strengthen my courage.
So far, I'm impressed with my progress -- persistence, not perfection.
Until next time,
Hetep
Saturday, October 9, 2010
Law of Tehuti
Hetep Everyone,
I forgot to give you the Law of Tehuti. Again, I've personalized it from that given by Ra Un Mefer Amen in Maat, the 11 Laws of God.Here it is:
Tehuti -- When all of my thoughts, feelings, and actions reflect the word of God, then the power of God's spirit and a peace that nothing can challenge will flow through my being.
Hetep
I forgot to give you the Law of Tehuti. Again, I've personalized it from that given by Ra Un Mefer Amen in Maat, the 11 Laws of God
.Here it is:Tehuti -- When all of my thoughts, feelings, and actions reflect the word of God, then the power of God's spirit and a peace that nothing can challenge will flow through my being.
Hetep
Tree of Life Meditation System - Day 3 - Tehuti
Hetep Everyone,
Last night's meditation, although less smooth than I would have liked, helped me to produce some insights that I would like to share with you. Before I get to that, however, I would like to share some things that I apply to my meditation when I remember to do so. Usually, this is after, and sometimes during, meditation sessions that are going poorly.
Well, this wraps up the insights for this meditation session. I hope that my insights have helped.
Until next time,
Hetep
Last night's meditation, although less smooth than I would have liked, helped me to produce some insights that I would like to share with you. Before I get to that, however, I would like to share some things that I apply to my meditation when I remember to do so. Usually, this is after, and sometimes during, meditation sessions that are going poorly.
- Correct my breathing -- I try to remember to concentrate on pulling in my lower abdomen when I exhale and expanding it when I inhale -- I mean I really focus on this. Also, as the Metu Neter advises, I try to remember to contract my perineum. See the book for details on that. Ra Un Nefer Amen offers DVDs and CDs to teach meditation. My budget has only provided for the book and an introductory meditation CD, but you can purchase some of these items for each deity during the meditation cycle.
- Focus on one of the Sesh Metut Neter, found on pages 404-410 of Metu Neter Vol. 1: The Great Oracle of Tehuti and the Egyptian System of Spiritual Cultivation
This means that there is always a solution to the problem or a way to avoid it. It's just a matter of using Tehuti's eye to see the solution or course of action that does not create other problems.
This is a lot to remember, but it takes time and practice -- persistence, not perfection.
Okay, here are some of the insights that I was able to gain from last night's meditation:
- I need to assess the meaning that I apply to money. Money is just a thing. I give it meaning and importance. Usually, the meaning I give it comes from what I've learned from others and my interpretation of my experiences. Poverty is a meaning to which I've been taught to give importance. Pain is a feeling that I have been taught to apply to poverty, which I have been taught to assess as lack.
I'm from Shreveport, LA, a real hot spot for segregation. When I listen to some of the elders speak about those days, they would be quick to say that when they lived in the country they never knew they were poor. They had what they needed. It wasn't until they left the country or televisions replaced radios that poverty turned to despair and longing; therefore, the meaning given to "poverty" is conditional. You must compare your state with some other person. Remove that comparison and you can interpret your situation any way you like.
In the Tree of Life Meditation System - Money is a symbol that you exchange for goods and services. I must not limit my perception to attaining the goods and services that I want to an exchange of money that I must acquire. In other words, the universe can provide the goods and services I need in any way, form, or fashion. I'm not limited to money nor am I limited to being the one to supply the means of exchange. I don't want to miss an opportunity because I expect to receive what I want in only one way.
Well, this wraps up the insights for this meditation session. I hope that my insights have helped.
Until next time,
Hetep
Friday, October 8, 2010
Tree of Life Meditation System - Day 2 - Ausar
Hetep Everyone,
My efforts with the Tree of Life Meditation System last night went much better. I was able to meditate on how I break the Law of Ausar by not manifesting the money that I want. Let me first say two things about this.
First, meditating at night is extremely important. Try never to miss it, but forgive yourself quickly if you do. Here are a couple of reasons why you should meditate at night:
The second thing that I want to say is that I always try to reread in the Tree of Life Meditation System the chapter corresponding to each day before I meditate. As I read, I think about how my problem hinders me from practicing the corresponding law. I always gain new insight. The more insights I gain, the more my perspective changes. Eventually, I no longer see my problem as a problem. It becomes a minor imbalance that needs adjusting. This may take a few nights, until which, I am almost always anxious about the problem, but like I said in the previous post, I can always expect to see major changes in my life no matter how poorly I perform during the meditation cycle. Persistence, not perfection, is the key. Hang in there.
Here is the Law of Ausar. Again, I have personalized the law from the way that Ra Un Nefer Amen wrote it in Maat, The 11 Laws of God:
Ausar -- My nature is an unconquerable peace; therefore, nothing and no one in the world can be against me. All experiences come to me to promote my reclamation of peace that I may acquire wisdom and power.
Here are some of the insights that I was able to gain last night:
Okay, like I said, this is not the point where problems are fixed. This is where I see my mistakes and I can see that they are huge failings. There is no need to beat myself up about this because, fortunately, the second half of the meditation cycle deals with programming my spirit. All is well, Ashe!
Until next time, in peace, love, and joy,
I say "Hetep."
My efforts with the Tree of Life Meditation System last night went much better. I was able to meditate on how I break the Law of Ausar by not manifesting the money that I want. Let me first say two things about this.
First, meditating at night is extremely important. Try never to miss it, but forgive yourself quickly if you do. Here are a couple of reasons why you should meditate at night:
- Meditating between the hours of 9pm and 12am aligns you with the energy of Auset. This is metaphorized by her devotion to resurrect Ausar. When you meditate during these hours, you are cultivating your commitment to have Ausar run your life with the same precision that he runs your internal bodily functions.
- At this stage of the meditation system, you are only committing to look at your problem to gain insight. Whatever insight you gain at night, you take into the underworld of Ausar -- that is your unconscious understanding. There it will be processed for you to work with, using your waking conscience (Heru).
The second thing that I want to say is that I always try to reread in the Tree of Life Meditation System the chapter corresponding to each day before I meditate. As I read, I think about how my problem hinders me from practicing the corresponding law. I always gain new insight. The more insights I gain, the more my perspective changes. Eventually, I no longer see my problem as a problem. It becomes a minor imbalance that needs adjusting. This may take a few nights, until which, I am almost always anxious about the problem, but like I said in the previous post, I can always expect to see major changes in my life no matter how poorly I perform during the meditation cycle. Persistence, not perfection, is the key. Hang in there.
Here is the Law of Ausar. Again, I have personalized the law from the way that Ra Un Nefer Amen wrote it in Maat, The 11 Laws of God
:Ausar -- My nature is an unconquerable peace; therefore, nothing and no one in the world can be against me. All experiences come to me to promote my reclamation of peace that I may acquire wisdom and power.
Here are some of the insights that I was able to gain last night:
- I forget to identify myself as Ausar, my unlimited indwelling intelligence. This means that I identify myself through the eyes of my ego, which is subjected to earth-bound physical limitations.
- It is difficult for me to accept that Ausar, my indwelling intelligence, is the source of my prosperity and sustenance.
Okay, like I said, this is not the point where problems are fixed. This is where I see my mistakes and I can see that they are huge failings. There is no need to beat myself up about this because, fortunately, the second half of the meditation cycle deals with programming my spirit. All is well, Ashe!
Until next time, in peace, love, and joy,
I say "Hetep."
Thursday, October 7, 2010
Tree of Life Meditation System - Day 1
Hello All,
Today is the day of the New Moon and, therefore, the beginning of a new Tree of Life Meditation (TOLM) Cycle. The TOLM, of course, is based upon Ra Un Nefer Amen's book of the same title.
I was supposed to do the Amen meditation last night, but I was not feeling well and I fell asleep. I have learned not to panic when things like this happen. Experience has taught me to just keep going. Persistence, not perfection, is the key to success.
Well, let me explain how I do things. I select a problem that I want to work on. This month, I want to earn some money that reflects prosperity. Okay, first of all, let me say that I've been doing the TOLM system consecutively for this entire year and this is the first time that my theme has been about a mundane objective. Mostly what I have focused on have been things dealing with unblocking obstacles that have frozen my life. Now, I feel confident enough to pursue this.
Just a side note -- for each objective, no matter how lousy or well I did, I was always able to see some marked improvement in my life. Take heart and keep on pushing.
So, last night, I was supposed to meditate on how I broke the law of Amen by not manifesting the money I want. Here is the reason behind the presumption that I am breaking the law of Amen: if I were not breaking this law, I would be able to manifest the money instantly, merely by thinking of it and seeing it in my hands. Since I am unable to do this, I have to take the long way around and clear out the obstacles that are preventing me from having the money.
I came up with the following understanding of my law-breaking activities today rather than last night. Here is the law of Amen as well as some ways that I am breaking itself:
Amen - I am made in the likeness of a peace that nothing can disturb. I reclaim my peace so that I may attain to the reason that I have come into existence -- the enjoyment of life.
You may have noticed that I have personalized the wording of the law as given by Ra Un Nefer Amen. I find that I prefer to say the law this way.
1. I break the law of Amen by believing that the circumstances in my life where that money feels like "lack" are circumstances that are conditioned. That is to say, that those circumstances are nearly impossible to change.
2. My peace is disturbed when I think about what I don't have.
3. I get anxious when I think about what having that money could do to help others who seem to need it so much.
Okay, this should give you some idea of what it's like to examine my relationship with the deity Amen. I've got a lot of work to do to cultivate the energy of peace. It's okay. Like I said, it's about persistence, not perfection. I always have a spiritual quotient score of "0" for Amen -- for nearly all the deities, in fact. I don't worry about it anymore. It's too overwhelming; however, the rewards I get for trying without worrying are to good to allow me to stop.
Well, that's it for now
Peace, Hetep
Today is the day of the New Moon and, therefore, the beginning of a new Tree of Life Meditation (TOLM) Cycle. The TOLM, of course, is based upon Ra Un Nefer Amen's book of the same title.
I was supposed to do the Amen meditation last night, but I was not feeling well and I fell asleep. I have learned not to panic when things like this happen. Experience has taught me to just keep going. Persistence, not perfection, is the key to success.
Well, let me explain how I do things. I select a problem that I want to work on. This month, I want to earn some money that reflects prosperity. Okay, first of all, let me say that I've been doing the TOLM system consecutively for this entire year and this is the first time that my theme has been about a mundane objective. Mostly what I have focused on have been things dealing with unblocking obstacles that have frozen my life. Now, I feel confident enough to pursue this.
Just a side note -- for each objective, no matter how lousy or well I did, I was always able to see some marked improvement in my life. Take heart and keep on pushing.
So, last night, I was supposed to meditate on how I broke the law of Amen by not manifesting the money I want. Here is the reason behind the presumption that I am breaking the law of Amen: if I were not breaking this law, I would be able to manifest the money instantly, merely by thinking of it and seeing it in my hands. Since I am unable to do this, I have to take the long way around and clear out the obstacles that are preventing me from having the money.
I came up with the following understanding of my law-breaking activities today rather than last night. Here is the law of Amen as well as some ways that I am breaking itself:
Amen - I am made in the likeness of a peace that nothing can disturb. I reclaim my peace so that I may attain to the reason that I have come into existence -- the enjoyment of life.
You may have noticed that I have personalized the wording of the law as given by Ra Un Nefer Amen. I find that I prefer to say the law this way.
1. I break the law of Amen by believing that the circumstances in my life where that money feels like "lack" are circumstances that are conditioned. That is to say, that those circumstances are nearly impossible to change.
2. My peace is disturbed when I think about what I don't have.
3. I get anxious when I think about what having that money could do to help others who seem to need it so much.
Okay, this should give you some idea of what it's like to examine my relationship with the deity Amen. I've got a lot of work to do to cultivate the energy of peace. It's okay. Like I said, it's about persistence, not perfection. I always have a spiritual quotient score of "0" for Amen -- for nearly all the deities, in fact. I don't worry about it anymore. It's too overwhelming; however, the rewards I get for trying without worrying are to good to allow me to stop.
Well, that's it for now
Peace, Hetep
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